When I finally opened my eyes, all I saw were bright lights. I sat up, trying to become aware of my surroundings. I was on the kitchen floor of my apartment. I turned around.
"Took you long enough," I heard a voice call out. Looking around, I saw him. He was sitting at the table, seemingly waiting for me to wake. Without really giving me a chance to properly respond, he looked down at the table and shook his head.
"Xiara, all you have in this apartment is bread and water. And when I picked you up to carry you back here, it felt like I was carrying an empty tin can." I crossed my arms coldly.
"So? What's it to you?"
He got up from the table. "You're too thin, Xiara. Why? Why have you done this to yourself? The whelps on your arms, the dried blood on your back and shoulders...help me understand."
I scoffed loudly, my disbelief showing. "You already know why."
Instantly, he got angry. "So you thought that destroying every single fucking thing that was beautiful about you will bring me back? Is that it?!"
I shook my head. "It wasn't about having you back. It was about stopping all the pain and the lust. I didn't want to feel anything anymore. I just wanted you and since I couldn't have you, then I wanted total numbness."
He walked over to me and looked down, a sneer on his face. "You wanted me back that badly?" he said.
I silently nodded. Out of nowhere, he grabbed my neck and threw me against the hard tile then slapped me hard. I didn't scream or resist. Instead, I slowly rolled against the floor.
"You missed that, Xiara?!" he yelled angrily. "You miss the torture your fucking master put you through?!"
I remained silent, the sting and pain still ringing through my head.
He stood again, groaning with frustration.
"You're so pathetic! You don't even deserve another man!"
I sat back up, the comment pushing a sting into my cold heart. "Maybe I don't. Maybe I will never deserve another man."
He scoffed at my self-pity.
I pulled my knees up to my chest. Squeezing into a tight position, I said, "Do you treat her the way you treated me?"
He shook his head.