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There had been only thing I had not tried with Jimmy... anal and I wanted it, if I ever was going to do it, to be with him and soon. He was the amazing love of my life and our whirlwind romance just kept getting better and better.
To have said that I was nervous would have been an understatement. I had heard all kinds of things about it and had once thought it must be an 'acquired taste' for the woman since evidently it was every man's secret desire to get it up there, the final frontier.
This had been something my mother never told me about. In fact, for that matter she had never told me much of anything. I do believe now that in her mind ignorance guaranteed chastity. She was no help whatsoever in either teaching me or offering to answer questions.
Once I had been sleeping with Jimmy I had become so much more comfortable with the idea of having anal sex and I needed to know my own body.
I never had looked closely at it. I used a mirror and had a look. I wasn't sure whether I would or would not like what I saw. After all, when's the last time you did that?
I needed to explore myself by myself in the privacy of my bedroom or my bathroom. I needed to see how something entering me would feel and to either become comfortable with it or decide that it just wasn't for me.
I didn't want to try it with Jimmy first and then have to back out while he was trying to stick it in because I was either afraid or being hurt.
I knew enough that when I was tense my asshole was going to be closed tighter than I could ever imagine and nothing would be able to enter. It was amazing, I thought, how big a part of my mind played in the act of butt-fucking.
I wanted the decision to remain mine. No matter how much he respected me if I offered to do it without understanding what was required it would probably end in disaster and I couldn't afford that, I loved him too much.
I had to figure out how to be comfortable with getting it up the butt. I couldn't just ask my friend, Sue Anne, if she ever did it and how did that work out.
Visiting several adult websites, I got a lot of information. Most of what each one said was pretty much the same so I decided that was what I had to do.
I went into the bathroom and prepared an enema making sure it was a comfortable temperature. I wanted to be as clean as possible there. I didn't want him to get an infection and since we had not been using condoms it was unlikely we would if I decided to do it with him.
Trying to decide if I wanted to use the shower or the tub... I decided on the shower because if it didn't work out right I didn't want to be in a tub full of poop.
After the enema, though, I decided to move to the bedroom and do it there. It was a much friendlier place to be and if I fainted I was right there in bed. I didn't know...
I had lain there and took my fingers and moved them over the inside of my thighs and over my pussy. Eventually I was more comfortable with what I was planning to do and I drew my legs up and ran my fingers down the place between my pussy and my asshole.
Taking some fingers, I pushed against my asshole while my other hand was rubbing my clit. From what I had seen in the videos I watched, the women all rubbed their clit while having the man pound into their butts. Every one I looked at, though, seemed to be going too fast. I just couldn't believe that a woman could stand being slammed into so fast and so hard.
It must have been the 'naughtiness' of the act or just the excitement of doing something so different, so forbidden that I came hard after about ten minutes. I definitely felt relaxed after that and wasn't really afraid of doing it... at least as far as I had gone.