Lionel's chest felt like vibrating rubber. The sadness about leaving his family in Buenos Aires wasn't overbearing. He could effortlessly push the thoughts away. Yet they colored all of his thoughts and emotions. The long bus ride gave him time to focus on his future. NYC lay ahead of him. He had wild imaginings from movies about the Empire State Building and Wall Street bankers in suits. His cousin Gaston had promised him how amazing everything was - and the girls!!! - and offered a place to stay. Yet all the pieces of the past and future didn't fit together. He was passing through a chasm in his life's path.
The girl a row back on the other side of the aisle, sleeping with her head against the window, was around his age of 23. He regularly pretended to look at the scenery on her side. When he saw a tower or billboard through the driver's window, he'd wait for it to pass the bus so that he could turn his head back to catch another glimpse. Yet really, he was peaking at her. Rouged cheeks to make her look like a little mamasita. The smooth skin made her look young and energetic. The hair was pulled back in a ponytail to give her the appearance of a very hands-on no-nonsense attitude. Aside from soaking in her personality, his darting eyes, knowing that they couldn't linger, exactly remembered the point they had to focus on to see the cleavage of her boobs. She was wearing a lowcut spandex top that hugged the perfectly round, succulent boobs only barely over the areolas, but she covered up with a jacket each time she stirred in her sleep. With the left side of the jacket wrapped over the right, there was nothing to see. But little by little, her jacket front would drop with the shaking off the bus. He got such a high each time that he could see the gap between her breasts. The titillation to perhaps catching a glimpse of the top of her areola kept him playing the game of watching for landmarks. She was out hard asleep with her mouth agape, showing her crooked front tooth.
The yapping of a scrawny African American had been going on since Richmond. He constantly accosted a passenger, sitting down next to them. He'd tell them how he was a friend of everyone. Then, he'd look around what that person had. If that person had a sandwich sitting on the top of their bag, he'd ask for it. He'd offer a drink from his dubious bottle of brown liquor. "If you ain't drinking with me, you ain't my friend!" he'd complain. The responses he got tested the range of people's defenses. The old guy with the Yankee's hat told him: "Fuck off before I punch you in the face." The nice graduate-student-looking Chinese politely explained that his girlfriend didn't allow him to drink for about five minutes before the bus driver came on the PA: "Stop harassing customers, or I'll throw you out right here on the freeway!"
Something was disgusting about the guy. His track pants were way too large and not kept in good shape. He had the appearance of being homeless, a slinger of all kinds of scams, and an unnerving comfort with crossing people's boundaries. It was like he had no hope and future but only the very moment and what seemed alluring to him at that moment. It's the people that don't care that are the most terrifying. He seemed like the guy who had past through arrests and was familiar with it - not like a terrible life experience but an everyday occurrence. With all that, he sat down next to Lionel.
"It is my high duty to keep you from NYC. You are the scum that comes to steal our jobs. You are a fucking, god damn illegal!" the guy barked at Lionel.
The guy seemed worked up like he would grab Lionel any moment. Lionel had been holding onto his flip knife, which he had clutched ever since he had noticed the guy. With a shy gesture, Lionel opened his palm to bear the small knife with a three-inch blade. This had been his insurance for the long and dangerous trip. All his hope to make it safely was placed onto that knife his dad had given him.
Lionel's heart pounded. The guy was very right. It was like the secret he was carrying deep inside of him had been bared to everyone on the bus. But Gaston had repeated to him many times to never admit to it. "Unless you tell them, they have to assume that you are an American. Don't let yourself be fooled into admitting it! Don't even deny it! It only makes you suspicious to why you deny it." So Lionel waited for the guy's reaction while every muscle in his body was tense and making him sweat immensely.
"I'm not gonna fuck you up with all these witnesses. Once you get off the bus, I'll stalk you and gut you like the animal that you are," the guy hissed. Then the guy got up and moved on.
The guy sat down next to the girl that Lionel had been eyeing. The guy put on a sweet tone that sounded like a deranged menace: "Hey pretty girl, you wanna be my girlfriend?"
She opened her eyes. Her quivering voice said, "I have a boyfriend." While her pale face was composed to hide the fear, her eyes were wide open with unabashed fear.
"A pretty girl like you can always handle two boyfriends," the guy set after.
Both were thrown forward against the seat in front of them. The driver had slammed on the breaks. Everyone was startled to silence, listening to the alarm blinkers of the bus ticking away. The bus stood on the emergency lane with cars wooshing past it on the left side. With a pneumatic hiss, the front door opened. There was nothing but garbage and poorly growing bushes due to the car exhaust fumes outside.
"Get the fuck off my bus right now!" yelled the driver, not even using the PA.
"Hey man, I swear I won't bother anybody anymore. I only had enough money for the bus ticket. Don't throw me out. I'm begging you. C'mon! Give me a chance. I won't say a single word!" the guy was truly terrified and near crying.
"You sit right behind me for the rest of the trip," the bus driver said and closed the door.
Lionel felt a big hand grabbing under his right armpit and pulling him up. The big, middle-aged, white lady with the curly hair that had been knitting pulled Lionel to his feet and dragged him out to the aisle. Then the lady shoved Lionel down into the seat next to the cute girl and told him: "Be a gentleman and protect her. You should have done this way earlier!" For a quick moment, Lionel duck back to his old seat to get his backpack. Then he dutifully sat down next to the hot girl.
His neck was so tense, he couldn't even turn to the side to look at her. His cheeks were burning with embarrassment. He felt nervous around girls. He was scared that she knew that he had been checking out her body over and over. To him, she was royalty, but she was also anxious about having a dateable guy that close to her. She didn't want to show her interest in him either. So she tried to act cold like she didn't care and mumbled dismissively, "Dios mÃo, no tiene remedio." She spat out the last word with her lips like he was a joke who couldn't do anything.
Then she worried if she was looking good. She got her little makeup mirror out. She touched up her lipstick. She repainted the masquera. She noticed that the rouge on her cheeks was maybe a little too heavy. She toned it down with a bit of powder and some smudging to disperse the rouge.
While she did all that, he looked straight ahead, but all of his inside attention was focused on her. Every little sound, he paid attention to. The clicks and clacks of her fingers had such feminine energy. He could smell her girly sweat. After all, they had been on the bus since sunrise, and the sunlight was fading now. He got aroused. He had a long and big boner. He tried to ease the wood with careful touches so that it would like snug against his belly and creates the smallest bulge in his pants. He'd carefully tug on his wallet in his pants, get a handkerchief out of the other pocket, and shift in his seat. With each movement, he moved the wood a little bit more into a snuck position rather than a standout position.
Then she spread some perfume on her chest and went to sleep. The smell of sweetness, spring, and perfume alcohol lingered in the air. He had lived a pretty sheltered life. Being in the bubble of an attractive young woman heightened his senses and scared him. He didn't dare say anything. He didn't dare move. It took him ten minutes until he dared to scratch the itch on his skin. She stole glances at him. He wasn't sure if she was threatening him to not dare talk to her or if she felt snubbed that he wasn't talking to her. But when she dozed off again, he kept staring at the cleavage of her boobs. He was helplessly driven to determine if he could see the bottom of her bra by staring between her boobs - helplessly like a moth is drawn to the fire and burns.