I can't believe I did that!!!
And I still have no idea why I teased Art let alone let him kiss me nor know why I told him where I would be this weekend.
It was all just a blur.....and a fucking rush.
I don't know if it was seeing him vault over everything to catch me or him basically owning the moment as he kissed me but I still felt butterflies running around my stomach.
My heart is still hammering in my chest as I aimlessly drove around until I found myself at work an hour early for my shift.
At first I thought maybe getting some coffee might help my nerves but knew that was probably a bad idea.
My next thought was just masturbating at work as I should be safe sitting in the parking lot but also knew that was probably another bad idea.
I needed to talk to someone about this and could only come up with one answer...mom.
I sat there and only thought about the consequences for a moment before I texted mom.
Me: Mom I need your help
I only had to wait a moment before she replied.
Mom: what is it sweetie?
Me: don't be mad but I may have fucked up
Mom: Oh? How so?
Instead of trying to text everything out I simply took screen shots of what I sent Art and forwarded it to mom.
I waited as I sent her the screen shot in the order so she could follow along what happened. I waited what felt like forever until mom finally replied.
Mom: is that all that happened?
Me: No. there's more
Mom: ok tell me
I went through after the text how I looked around wildly seeing Art connected the dots and how I high tailed it from the parking structure only to find Art running out just as I drove by. How I flashed him then him chasing me down and vaulting over stuff until he was standing in front of my car before I could officially exit the structure. How he grabbed the back of my head and kissed me. How he low key demanded to know where I would be this weekend. And how I left.
I gave her nearly all the details.
I waited as I sent everything.
Mom: how did it make you feel?
I smiled and answered the only way i knew how to answer.
Me: a rush!
Mom: LOL sounds like it was a rush, but how do you feel towards Art now?
I didn't know how to answer as mom sent the obvious question.
Mom: were you turned on?
I sighed, Me: yes.
Mom: enough to see where it goes?
Me: yes
Mom: sounds like you have a crush with Art honey which is completely fine. I'm happy for you. Just remember no sex until AFTER your cycle
I rolled my eyes as she keeps reminding me but I text my question.
Me: how did I go from 'Hey dude you're my brother and don't turn me on sexually' to 'I now see you sexually as you turn me on'?
Mom: When you were at the parking structure did you masturbate like I told you to do?
I blushed but answered Yes.
Mom: did you orgasm?
Me: yes but it wasn't enough until this happened
Mom: lol well there you go
I blinked confused as if that made sense.
Me: how does me orgasming allow all this to happen?
Mom: shrug, it was weird when I first orgasmed too but I noticed when I started my first orgasm is when I started to notice my attraction to men started to get stronger than to woman as my brain was re-wired. it will get stronger as time goes on
I read what she wrote as I tried to think but it was difficult for two different reasons. The whole 'you're becoming a girl' was the only logical reasoning that surmised my situation as if someone where trying to teach me astrophysics and using the answer 'You're becoming a girl' as the catch all answer to any question I had. And the other reason was I was still extremely horny.
I sighed as the answer basically hurt my head as any logic in that answer absolutely made no sense saying 'Fuck it!' as I might as well go back to what I was doing.
I looked around seeing cars lightly come and go around the building not paying attention to me....thank god.
I pulled out my toy and was about to get started when a car pulled up next to me.
I looked up at the roof of my car imagining it wasn't there as I pretended to yell 'WHY ME????'
I looked over to see it was Jenny who immediately noticed it was me as she rolled down her window and mimed rolling the window.
I sighed as I rolled down the window.
Jenny yelled across, "Hey new girl!"