Chapter 03: All good things have to come to an end.
Author's note: My editor and wife of 45 years is unhappy with me that I chose to submit Chapters 1 and 2 without her critical appraisal. As a result, several minor but irritating errors slipped through that would otherwise have been discovered. To my readers, I apologize. This, of course, cuts no ice with my beloved. I also apologize in advance for any other errors that might creep through. Thanks for your understanding.
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To say that Eleanor was devastated at the death of Robert would be a massive understatement. She simply could not believe that the one great love of her life had been taken from her. They had celebrated almost twelve glorious, loving years together and she had been looking forward to many more. They had begun organizing their around-the-world "trip of a lifetime" and just the planning of that great adventure was exciting for them.
They both needed various inoculations for the more underdeveloped countries they would be visiting and Eleanor had convinced Robert to get a full medical checkup at the same time. It was then that the discovery was made that would end their plans and destroy the joy and anticipation of their future life together. Robert was diagnosed with suspected Prostate Cancer and a biopsy was hastily arranged. The results were worse than they could have expected. The cancer was advanced; also attacking his bowel and his likelihood of survival was much less than 50%. After many nights of agonizing discussion and argument, Robert convinced Eleanor that he wouldn't undergo the surgery and they would live his last days out with her at their home. He couldn't face the trauma of major surgery, only for her to be burdened with the gradual deterioration of his life afterwards. He faced his fate bravely but with great regret.
He lived for three months after the diagnosis; Eleanor beside him for almost every waking moment. When he died, he had been sleeping in her arms late one winter afternoon. His brother Harold and sister-in-law Rosalind were in the house at the time. The funeral was held in the United Church near Bowness and he was buried in the Bowness Cemetery on a cold, windswept January day. More than fifty people attended the services, including his mother, brother, sister-in-law, Hamish McDougall and his new bride Marietta, Franklin Yarborough from New York and many of their friends from both business and their social circle.
For Eleanor, it was a like a light being extinguished. She was completely lost and had no idea of what she would do without him. Rosalind, Harold and several of her dear friends tried to stay close and comfort her, but in her quiet, private moments, she was bereft of hope. In the time before Robert, she was a strong woman and dependent upon no one but herself. But in her time with him, she had become equally dependent on Robert as her muse, lover, companion and supporter. It would be some time before she would regain her strength and choose her future path.
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As she lay on the couch in their living room, her mind drifted back to the happy years with Robert. The love and the loving. The trips of discovery and adventure. It was a cruel fate that gave them all their financial freedom and then snatched him away before they could celebrate their good fortune. She knew she had to make a decision on her future. She had no interest in returning to her job; she couldn't focus on anything for very long these late winter days. She looked out the window toward the city and wondered if it wasn't time to make a complete break and start anew. She thought of Harold and Rosalind, her closest friends and how they had tried so hard to be with her after Robert's death. She pushed them away just as she had pushed everything away; even her memories. Now, those memories we coming back; not to haunt her, but to perhaps re-energize her.
It had been almost two months since his death and Eleanor had hardly stirred from the house. The grey-white colours of winter would soon begin to recede and spring would return. One morning in early April, Eleanor awoke and immediately knew what she must do. It wasn't the result of an impulse or a vague dream but a realization that she couldn't continue with her life in this place. She picked up the phone and called her brother-in-law's home.
"Hello?" Rosalind answered.
"Hi Roz." Eleanor said in a clear voice.
"Ellie ... how are you? We haven't talked in ages." she came back brightly.
"I know. I know. I had to think things through for a while. I needed some time and space to decide."
"Ellie? What did you decide?" Rosalind asked tentatively.
"I'm going to sell the house and I'm going to find a new place to live that won't be so full of these memories." she said positively.
Rosalind sensed there was more to it than that. She waited patiently for Ellie to continue.