It's not just about the sex.
Part Three: Passion, Pain, and Retribution
Cleo's words echoed in my mind:
"Even your own mother wouldn't recognize you when you're all dolled up. Trust me."
She wasn't kidding
, I thought, staring at my reflection that Wednesday evening.
I barely even recognize myself!
Cleo had shown me how to apply my new makeup, which resulted in a dramatic, startling transformation. My cheekbones were brought out and made sharper, making my face seem more narrow as it tapered to my chin. Almost cat-like, in a way, I thought. Very sexy, and playful at the same time.
The new base gave my skin a soft golden glow that blended with my minimal tan. The costly mascara and eye liner brought out the green in my eyes, making them vivid. With my hair in a professional bun, secured by a golden clip, I did, indeed, look totally different. I still looked like a teenager, just . . . a really,
really
elegant teenager.
I giggled.
Well, hello Miss Rockefeller . . . .
I didn't feel nervous at all about my first 'date.' In fact, despite that all I knew about the guy was that his name was Thomas Dunson, I was actually pretty excited.
I smoothed down the silky blue dress I wore. It hugged my body and delved really low in the front, showing off practically half my breasts, and was essentially backless. The hem of the skirt stopped about three inches above the knee. I wore some of my new jewelry, including a couple bracelets, the pendant Ian had given me (the sapphire matched the dress perfectly), a gold ankle chain, and of course, under my dress, my new gold waist chain. Four-inch heels completed my outfit.
No underwear. "Escorts only wear underthings if specifically requested," Cleo had told me.
I felt my arousal growing. The dress was so sheer I practically felt naked. Anyone giving me even a casual glance would be able to tell I wasn't wearing panties. I smiled naughtily at the thought.
Alyssa Green, sex kitten
, I thought.
Only, I'm not Alyssa right now.
"Yvette," I said carefully, watching my lips move in the mirror. Cleo had told me that it was necessary to use a different name, just in case I met someone I knew. She assured me that, with a different name, and a different way of moving and talking, I would be able to deflect any suspicion of who I was.
"Yvette," I said again, and grinned. I had always thought the name was perfect for a porn star. Or an escort. Suitably sultry, and a little mysterious.
I smoked a cigarette as I waited, practicing my 'posing.' Cleo had taught me how to sit in a way that was both elegantly charming and sensually teasing. Everything about the way I acted when on a date was to 'exude sex,' as she put it. Not to be obvious that I was being paid for sex, I nevertheless had to convey the idea to others that I was a sexually skilled and confident woman . . . the kind of woman men desired.
"Most of the men you will meet are married," Cleo told me. "Do not ask them about their wives, their families. If they bring up the subject, fine. Some of them will actually want to talk about their lives. You will find that you will be as much a therapist at times as a lover."
"But I don't know anything about psychology," I lamented.
"Honey, you're a woman. Use your instincts. Listen to the men, to what they say. They will value your input, your viewpoints, if for no other reason than because you give them the best sex in the world."
I chuckled. "So it isn't just about the sex, huh?"
"Oh, it's about the sex, honey, believe me, it's about the sex," she said. "After all, that's the main reason they're shelling out the money to be with you. And speaking of which . . . ."
"What?"
"Just remember that these men are paying for your company, for your sex. When you're fucking them, they are the best lovers in the world, even if they aren't, and they give you the best orgasms you've ever had, even if they don't. When you're sucking their cocks, you've got the tastiest dick you've ever had in your mouth. But don't expect them to be gracious. Some men will want to share the pleasure, but most of the time, it's all about them. Don't expect reciprocation."
I nodded, understanding what she meant. "What if they wanna do something I'm not comfortable with?"
"You mean, such as anal sex, bondage?" she asked.
"Yeah. Stuff like that. 'Course, I've never tried anything like that . . . I don't know, I might like it."
She smiled. "We screen our clients pretty well," she said. "We find out what they like before matching them with a girl. Ian told me you're not very experienced, so we won't give you any of our 'special' clients, not unless you tell us otherwise."
"'Special' clients?"
Cleo nodded. "Men who like to get a little freaky," she said with a soft laugh. "Some of them can get pretty bizarre. Fisting, watersports, S&M."
I frowned. "I don't know what any of that means," I said, feeling overwhelmed.
"That's why we got you those books," said Cleo meaningfully. "Read them, cover to cover. You'll find things you might want to try, and things that may disgust you. As you gain experience, as you try new things, you may become paired up with some of the specials."
I nodded, thinking. Being an escort, I realized, was more than just fucking.
"Just think very carefully about trying something new. You go too far, too fast, and you might end up getting hurt."
I frowned. "What do you mean?"
Cleo was careful with her words. "Some of our clients have specific . . . tastes," she said. "Rape fantasies, as an example."
"Rape fantasies?"
She nodded. "They want to pretend they're taking a girl against her will. That takes an awful lot of trust and confidence to pull off. Not many of us can do it. I've known a few girls to try and indulge such fantasies, only to end up finding out they made a mistake."
I swallowed nervously. "Do you . . . ." I began.
"Sometimes," she said. She smiled. "Honey, I've been doing this for seven years. I've done it all."
I took a deep breath.
"Hey," she said, taking my hand. "Don't worry about things like that. Ninety-nine percent of the time, the men you're with will just want a good old fashioned, balls-to-the-wall fuck. Or two. Or three."
I laughed, my fear fading away.
"They'll treat you like a goddess, worship everything you do, just because you're the eager little sex kitten they fantasize about," Cleo said. "Don't worry, honey. You're gonna be fine. Just remember: they're paying for enthusiasm and skill. You can't wait to satisfy them in every way possible."
I went through that conversation, just the day before, as I waited for my driver. When the knock sounded, I was startled, my heartbeat suddenly increasing in tempo. I got up, looked through the peep hole, saw a man in a chauffeur's hat.
Showtime
, I thought. I grabbed the long, simple coat I had hung on the wall and slipped it on. It covered me from neck to calf. Cleo had told me that I should always wear the coat to and from the car when leaving or coming home, to reduce suspicion about my activities.
I opened the door, making sure I had my little purse and keys. The man on my doorstep was in his early thirties, I figured, and had a very professional air about him.
"Miss Yvette?" he asked.
I smiled. I really liked the way my new name sounded. I nodded.
He gave me a curt nod. "Your car awaits, Miss."
I took a breath.
Here we go.
"Lead the way."
***
My ride was a black Lincoln Towncar, with dark windows and a lot of room in the back. There was a little dry bar stocked with top shelf liquors, and a little compartment for my coat. I stayed away from the alcohol, not wanting to start my first date drunk. I needed to be clear-headed and focused.
The driver didn't speak to me during the drive, and I didn't expect him to. Cleo had told me that the drivers were only there to get me from point A to point B . . . although, she added, they also doubled as protection, 'just in case.'
There was a radio tuner and CD player installed in the back, and I tuned in my favorite hip-hop station, singing along softly to Britney's words. I felt a little more relaxed, but my anxiety remained. I wondered what Mr. Thomas Dunson would look like, what he would want.
We arrived before a five-story building off the highway. The parking lot was like the car lot of a luxury car dealer. Jaguar, Mercedes, Lexus, Porsche, Land Rover . . . even a few Ferraris and higher-end Acuras, and some stretch limos. My driver got out, opened the door for me.
"There is a man in the lobby," he informed me. "You are listed as Mr. Dunson's guest. He will tell you where to go."
I nodded. "Thanks," I said nervously.
The driver gave me a reassuring smile. "You'll do fine," he said. He held up the tiniest cell phone I had ever seen. "All the numbers you need are already programmed into the memory. If you need me, just speed-dial Number One. I am never far away."