It's a strange thing about films. Men are quite happy watching them; women want to be in them. I think it's to do with how women love to be watched. I've discovered there are plenty of research studies that show that many women and teenage girls think of themselves in sexually objectified terms. One researcher explained that girls want to look sexy because they believe sexiness leads to popularity. Hardly surprising: TV and movies tell them this every hour of every day. Moms, it seems, play a large role in this too, but it's not as simple as moms encouraging their girls to look sexy. For instance, girls who don't consume a lot of TV and movies but who have religious mothers are much more likely to say they want to look sexy; perhaps this is a case of 'forbidden fruit'.
I've often thought this might have been the case with Candy, a girl I knew in college. She was sexy and she dressed sexily, despite having religious parents. She was certainly popular. All the girls wanted to look like her and all the boys lusted after her. I was no exception. She figured in all my masturbation fantasies. She took no notice, of course. She looked right through us all. She was saving herself for a career in film. She wanted to be in the movies more than anything.
This story starts when I was having a pleasant pull on my rope one morning in bed, thinking of Candy sucking my cock, when my mom just walked in.
'Oh' was all she had to say.
I quickly pulled the sheet up and tried to look as nonchalant as possible. 'Jesus, mom, don't you ever knock?'
But she didn't go - like any decent mom would have. Instead she just stood there, and started smiling.
'What's so funny?'
'Nothing, Billy. I was just thinking you've certainly grown.'
I felt a blush creep over my face. 'Jesus, mom.'
'There's no need to be embarrassed. I've seen it all before. From when you were a little kid to - well, I must admit I haven't seen you naked since you got all grown up - but I can see now you're definitely a man.'
This was quite a speech for my mom. Usually it was just 'pick that up' or 'wash your hands' or 'have you done your homework?'
'Anyway,' she continued, 'you mustn't mind me.'
'What do you mean, I mustn't mind you?'
'I mean, it's only natural, men playing with themselves. I know from your father they do it all the time. So you mustn't stop on my account.'
What the fuck? Did she expect me to carry on?
'I mean, it's bad for you if you stop in the middle, isn't it?'
Was it? I didn't know, except that it sure was uncomfortable. Under the sheet I still had an erection fit to bust a brick.
'You ought to deal with that hard-on. You shouldn't let it go to waste.'
'Jesus, mom.'
'Just don't get any of your come on the sheet,' she said breezily, like we were discussing the weather. 'It doesn't clean very well in the wash.'
She proceeded to march round the room, picking up dirty clothes and doing things moms do in their kids' bedrooms. She gave me another of her winks, like we were in some conspiracy together. 'Don't mind me, Billy. You just carry on.'
I wasn't about to jack myself off in front of her. No way.
Then, fuck me if she didn't sit on the bed. 'Now look, Billy, I don't want you feeling guilty about masturbating. I don't want you growing up with all sorts of hang-ups about your sexuality. Sex is a natural and beautiful thing and masturbation is part of it. I want you to feel you can do it whenever and wherever you want. No one in this house is going to object, least of all your mom.'
What was I supposed to make of all that? It was true, I did feel a bit guilty when I jacked off - what kid doesn't? - but not enough to stop me doing it. I wasn't exactly consumed with fears of damnation every time I touched my cock. Far from it. On the other hand, it didn't seem right to do it in front of my mom. There are some limits.
'Just close your eyes and think of whoever it was you were thinking of when I came in,' she suggested.
I must have gone bright red, because she laughed in my face.
'Oh dear, was it that raunchy? Well, you can tell me. I've heard it all before, all the fantasies going. You're not going to shock me.'
I could hardly believe what I was hearing.
'I bet you were thinking of some girl at college sucking your cock,' she smiled.
Shit, she must have been some kind of mind-reader. 'I might have.'
'I knew it. Men are so predictable. So let's picture this girl. I'm guessing she's blonde and has nice legs. And she wears tight tops and short skirts. I bet she has big eyes and red lips. Does she have big breasts?'
'Kinda.'
'And you've thought of rubbing your cock between them.' Mom laughed. 'Who knows, maybe one day she'll let you do it for real. Like I say, masturbation is only natural, but it's no substitute for the real thing. Have you actually fucked this girl yet?'
'Not exactly,' I admitted, blushing.
Mom knew the score. 'Have you even spoken to her?'
'Not so's she noticed.'
'Oh Billy,' mom said. 'No wonder you're always masturbating. Girls can be so cruel. Is she that difficult to talk to?'
'She doesn't even see me,' I admitted miserably. 'The only thing she wants is to be in the movies.'
'Does she?' said mom thoughtfully. 'Well, we'll have to see what we can do about that, won't we?' Thankfully, she put her hand on the door-handle then. 'I'll leave you to it, Billy. Have a good one.' With a smile and a wink, she was gone.
Jesus, is that any way for a mom to behave?
Briefly I wondered what mom might have meant by that remark about 'seeing what we can do about it'. Then I forgot about it and went back to mooning over Candy. I was in the usual mood of feeling frustrated and sorry for myself when mom popped her head round my door one evening a couple of weeks later.
'Your dad and I have a little surprise for you.'
'Uhuh.' I was used to their little surprises. They usually involved long boring trips to even more boring relatives.
'We've set up a web cam in the lounge downstairs and you can get it live on your computer.'
This sounded vaguely interesting. Mom and dad getting into computers. Whatever next?
'So what will I be watching? You and dad watching TV?'
'You'll see,' she smiled conspiratorially. 'But whatever happens, don't come down.'
Not expecting much, I turned on my Apple after she'd left the room. True enough, there was a link to a webcam. I clicked on it and there was the lounge in a small window. I blew it up to full screen. Dad was sitting having a drink. Mom came in, followed by some girl in a tight top and mini-dress. It was Candy. What the fuck? I thought maybe I ought to go down and take the opportunity to talk to her, but I remembered mom's warning. Besides, I was curious as to what mom and dad were doing. Were they getting her round to soften her up for me? Were they about to tell her what a fantastic catch I was?