He ran up to his rooms and began to pace. Just the idea of leaving her was tearing him to pieces inside. He now knew there was no way he could leave, but could he live her life? Could he do that? He had a sudden thought and stopped in his tracks. Of course, why hadn't he thought of it before?
Nathan stayed away and she began to fear that he would leave without saying goodbye. After a few days, she insisted that Maria take her outside. "I've been cooped up for weeks. I'm going to go crazy if I don't get out of here."
The housekeeper pulled a wheelchair from the wall and helped her mistress into it. She didn't have her strength back and it was an effort but once she was settled, with a blanket over her lap, Maria wheeled her outside. Catherine breathed in the fresh air, scented with the smell of the ocean. She titled her smiling face up to the sun and sighed happily. "Thank you Maria. This feels wonderful."
She sat for a few minutes before asking to be taken down to the dock. "I want to see my ships." Maria wheeled her down the drive and she kept hoping she would see that the Themis was still there. Her heart leapt when she saw that it, indeed, was still there. The small boats were ferrying supplies and crew members back and forth, preparing for departure.
"Do you know when they're leaving?" she asked Maria.
"Not exactly, but it will be soon," she said.
Nathan soundlessly approached from behind and touched Maria on the arm.
She looked up at him, into his eyes, and then turned back to Catherine. "Will you miss him?" she asked her.
Nathan started at the question but then held his breath waiting for her answer. She sighed and said, "Yes, Maria, I will. I don't know what that man did to me, but I will miss him every day for the rest of my life."
He couldn't believe his ears. He released the breath slowly and just stared a the back of Catherine's head. Maria turned to him and smiled. "I think he will miss you as well."
"No, he won't. He only rescued me because Simpson promised him his ship back. And now that I'm on my way to being well he'll be leaving. Look at them," she said, indicating the small boats, busily sailing back and forth. "Nathan said himself, they're eager to leave."
The housekeeper looked up at him again before responding to Catherine. "Perhaps it's just his crew that are eager to leave and not him."
"No, he's leaving. Why would he stay? He told me enough times, he doesn't even like me." Her voice broke and her eyes again filled with tears.
"You love him, don't you?" she asked gently.