***NOTE*** This story is part of my Trouble Texas Style series that includes Night Walker's Woman (complete), Tight Fittin' Jeans, Goodbye Earl, and Ready to Run. It will be appreciated more when reading in context with those.
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Laura heard that soft meowing again. She was getting used to waking to it and realized instantly that sound was more precious than a kitten. Her daughter. Chloe was awake.
She tried to shift out of those strong arms wrapped about her shoulders without waking Ryan. The man must be shattered as she had heard it called in London. She lifted her head from the comforting sound of his heartbeat and stared up at the man.
Too late. Those spectacular blue eyes were open already. He leaned down and kissed the top of her head. "Good morning, sweetheart. How do you feel?"
Laura frowned as she considered his question. "Much better than yesterday, that is for sure. Did we hear any more from Mama or Mercy?"
He reached for the phone on the nightstand beside him as the baby's fussing got louder. He shook his head, put the phone down, and reached for Chloe in fluid movement. How he managed that without ever loosening his hold on her was a miracle. He helped her get the baby attached before grabbing his jeans on the floor.
"I'll be right back. I need to pee," that smile challenged her. "Then, I'll help you to the bathroom and change her diaper."
She shook her head, "Are you for real?"
Ryan leaned down and captured her lips in a slow-burn kiss, "Morning breath and all, counselor."
She was still laughing as he pulled the door closed. The very fact that she could laugh at all, given everything that had happened and all the unknowns, was thanks to that man. And the little girl in her arms.
Laura had to admit; he had been right, sleep had made all the difference. She felt more positive this morning. They were safe, at least for now. And although Grandfather and the little girl were a bit odd, she could tell these were 'good people' as Mama said.
She sighed, Mama was safe with Jack's friend, and Ryan believed Mercy was as well. Perhaps this morning, they could contact them and come up with some sort of plan? The fog had cleared from her brain enough that maybe she could even contribute. A couple cups of coffee would help, but that was still a big no-no, at least until Chloe was weaned.
Almost two years without the elixir of the gods, she must love the little thing. Laura placed a kiss to her daughter's head just to prove it. Yeah, she was worth going without her six or more cups of coffee per day. And wine. And Pupsi. Yeah, still worth it.
"What are you smiling about, sweetheart?" He came to lie beside them on the bed. Laura smelled the mint, so much for that morning breath hero.
"I was just thinking that she is worth everything I gave up to have her."
The quiet was uncomfortable as Ryan held out his finger, and Chloe grabbed it once more. Laura considered apologizing again, but what was the point. How many times could they have that same conversation? Besides, honestly, what would have happened to them - her baby, her, her sisters and Mama, all of them - if this man had not shown up when it did.
Laura was not the type to believe in some god. She would not have said she even believed in karma, fate, or destiny. You controlled your life, your choices, the paths you took determined the outcomes. Perhaps that was so, she had chosen him after all, but at this moment she felt damned lucky she had.
"Do you think you can walk?" His calm voice interrupted her thoughts.
She nodded her head, and Ryan reached down to pick up Chloe, who had fallen asleep and come off her breast. He put their daughter back in that basket, "Where did the moses basket come from?"
He frowned and shook his head as she explained, "The thing that Chloe is sleeping in?"
He nodded as he tucked the blanket around the baby, "Jaycee. I asked Rex last night if they could get something more comfortable for her to sleep in than that car seat. I thought maybe they could go to a store or something today, but evidently, we don't have to worry about anything. Rex has bought out the stores."
He stood up and held out his hands. Laura rolled to her side, surprised at how much easier that was this morning. But she did still need his help to stand. "I'll walk you down the hall to the bathroom. Then come back here, burp and change Chloe, while you pee," Ryan winked and kissed the tip of her nose.
"You know this peeing thing is getting old?"
He laughed and stopped outside what she thought she remembered as the bathroom door. "I don't think so, sweetheart." He opened the door and helped her inside, "It shows trust. A level of trust that some couples never achieve. I don't know about you, sweetheart, but in this crazy situation, that reassures the fuck out of me. That one day we will be like all those other couples."
He paused, and that smile ripped her heart out. Guilt and hope warred in her head. "Shit, I forgot. Can I get you something from the bags before I take care of our little girl?"
Laura was so stunned by the accuracy of his observation. Those damned tears misted her eyes again, but not in fear or despair. She was not certain she could find her voice to answer. She cleared her throat, and tried anyway, "One of the pads from the Walmax bag, and fresh underwear and my toothbrush from my bugout bag. The toothbrush is in the front pocket, actually just bring the plastic bag of toiletries that it is in, please."
He was only gone a moment or two before that blond head popped back into the bathroom with everything she had asked for, "Are you sure you'll be okay alone?"
This time she knew she could not respond without breaking into more of those tears, so she turned her head, nodded, and shooed him away with her hand. Once she heard the soft click of the door, she managed to stand on her own, and disrobe enough to take care of business. To pee - as he insisted on calling it.
She sat there way longer than necessary. It hit her then. How very different things might have been had she chosen anyone else in that pub that night. She could be in federal custody right now, separated from her baby, or in Kerr's jail, heaven forbid. Or worse. Because even with all Mama's plans, there was no way she could have made it to the cabin. Ryan had given them the heads up. Otherwise, they would have been caught by surprise and unable to flee.
It was so much more than that. It was how he looked at Chloe, sure. Laura did not doubt that if the worst happened, the man would make sure that their daughter was cared for, and more importantly, loved. If that was not enough, how he was as worried about Mama and her sisters as she was, tore her heart to shreds. And the gentle way, he watched over her: made her eat, drink, sleep, and yes, pee, spoke volumes.
As much as she hated to admit it, this guy was her hero. A knight in shining armor saving the damsel. The problem was she was not sure how to play that role. All her life, or at least for as long as she could remember, she had been the one that everyone turned to...when Mama was not around.
She remembered the woman that Mama had left them with when she went back to work. Laura could not remember her name or more likely did not want to. But the woman had ten children, four of them her own, running around the little house that was in as bad a shape as their trailer.
There was no way that one person could look after that many kids. At six, Laura had been the one who changed and fed Mercy and made sure that Elena ate. That had not been a problem, but when the woman's son had broken Elena's favorite doll out of pure meanness, it was Laura who the woman had spanked for pushing her son down. She had gotten better at hiding the nasty things she did to that little boy after that, but he never messed with her or her sisters again. By the time she was ten, she finally convinced Mama she could care for Elena and Mercy.
Yeah, she had no idea how to let anyone look after her. But this past couple of days, she had not had much choice. She managed to stand and brush her teeth, even run a brush through her hair and pull it back into a ponytail. Heck, she also put on a bit of deodorant. It was about the best she was going to get for a while, especially this early in the morning.
The gentle tap at the door drew her attention, "It's just us, sweetheart."
Laura smiled at her reflection and how very much she liked those words. She reached over and opened the door. Her breath whooshed from her lungs at the sight of him, naked except for those too tight boxer briefs. Ryan held their daughter in the crook of his arm and smiled as he held out the other arm for her to take. She did not need to lean on him as much as she had before; that was a good sign. And each step she took down that hall was more confident.
By the time they made it back to the room they were staying in, and she got settled back in bed with Chloe happily feeding on the other breast, a plan was coming together in her mind. Well, coming together may have to wait for a few weeks, but no reason he could not now.
He leaned his head against the palm of his hand and observed them, as usual, he held out his finger and Chloe grabbed for it immediately. "What time is it?"
"A bit after six. I heard Grandfather go out earlier for his morning commune, but I did not want to disturb him. Breakfast is usually around eight, so we can all talk and try to come up with a plan then. Maybe call your Mama and sisters for updates?"
She nodded her head, which sounded like perfect timing for her plan. "I need to speak with Mercy, make sure that everything is really alright with her. Are you sure about this Williams guy?"
He nodded as Chloe's little eyes began to drift close. Laura appreciated how he met her gaze directly as he answered, "Yes, I honestly am. I don't know the details or how the hell Will came to be involved in all this shit, but I know the man, his character, and yes, I do trust him."
His promises would have to do, at least for another couple of hours. Chloe's suckles were becoming weaker and less frequent. Her daughter was drifting back to sleep, but she was wide awake. Her mind was rushing in a million different directions.
But her next move was clear. "You want to put your daughter in the basket, counselor?" Ryan nodded and gently picked up the sleeping baby, "You're good at that. Where did you learn so much about babies?"