I have written this story for the one night in XXX story event. Thanks to Chloe Tzang for generating and organising the event and inviting anyone to enter. Please excuse any mistakes - I was racing against the clock to get this one finished.
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6 February, 1788
Eleven ships have now been sitting at anchor in the sheltered waters of Port Jackson at the infant colony of New South Wales for two full weeks. The ships have travelled more than 15,000 miles across the oceans, carrying a human cargo of condemned men and women, most of whom have begun building a rudimentary penal settlement on the shores of Sydney Cove - an inlet of the harbour where the ships can berth close to shore and fresh water is aplenty. However, 189 females have been held on board the ships, most likely to keep the males focused on building their new home. These women are finally disembarking today.
Arthur Bowes Smyth, surgeon of the transport ship Lady Penrhyn will later write of this day in his journal:
"At five o'clock this morning all things were got in order for landing the whole of the women and three of the ships longboats came alongside us to receive them. Previous to their quitting the ship a strict search was made to try if any of the many things which they had stolen on board could be found, but their artifice eluded the most strict search and about six o'clock p.m. we had the long wished for pleasure of seeing the last of them leave the ship.
They were dressed in general very clean and some few amongst them might be said to be well dressed. The men convicts got to them very soon after they landed, and it is beyond my abilities to give a just description of the scene of debauchery and riot that ensued during the night. They had not been landed more than an hour before they had all got their tents pitched or anything in order to receive them, but there came on the most violent storm of thunder, lightning and rain I ever saw. The lightning was incessant during the whole night and I never heard it rain faster."
But right now it is late in the afternoon, on the cusp of evening, and still light despite the best efforts of the thick black clouds building over the mountains in the west to obscure the sun. And if you cast your eyes east across the calm waters of Sydney Cove you'll pick out the transport ship, Charlotte, moored among the other ships, with her red painted hull. She's the one with the boat leaving her side, right now. You can probably hear the voice of the coxswain drifting across the water as he bellows unnecessarily loud commands at the oarsmen, telling them to bring the boat about and row to the western shore of the cove. A keener eye may even notice the six women dressed in petticoats sitting on the benches between the oarsmen. The final load of women convicts from the First Fleet are coming ashore!
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Dear Lord above, please make this moment last forever, because I can almost believe sitting in the centre of the ship's boat while burly sailors row us silently to shore is a pleasant experience. Almost. They row us away from the hell of the ship which has been my home for the past nine months, but at least I was familiar with that particular hell and all it entailed. I don't know what new hell we are to be delivered and so this boat ride is a temporary reprieve.
Closing my eyes to the world, the gentle bobbing of the boat feels tranquil, but just now the great white birds fly over with their awful screech assaulting my ears, startling me back to reality, as if they were sent by the Devil himself to destroy any calm I might savour. Captain Tench of the Marines calls the loud white birds 'cockatoos' and he takes delight in their antics when they fly by our ship, but they were surely sent by Lucifer to taunt us with the awful noise they make. Opening my eyes, and I'm still in the boat, looking up at the ship's red side looming over us.
The cockatoo's seemingly playful flight draws my attention, causing me to crane my head around in the direction of our boats travel, catching sight of the devil birds as they land in a scraggly orange-trunked tree, where they begin to shriek the loudest and most terrible raucous shriek I've ever heard any creature make.
As their awful harsh voices carries across the water, it's not hard to imagine the cockatoos are mocking us because I'm sure they know the next chapter in our lives, for below their perch are rows of the white canvas tents we will surely call home on this lonely shore. The tents contrast against the surrounding grey rocks and orange and grey trunked trees with their dull green-grey leaves drooping in the late afternoon light.
Mary Cleaver, sitting stiff backed on the bench next to me with her infant son James held to her breast, takes my hand and squeezes as I try to close my mind to fear, lest I fall into despair. I daren't show my fear and have mastered a face of stone so as not to betray my feelings of horror. I wish I were more stoic, like so many of my companions, but I do not know what will become of us. Like I said, I already know the horrors of the ship we leave behind all too well, and though I learnt to survive, I don't want to think what awaits us next. I know of what the convicts, the sailors, and marines are capable of, but I do not know the natives or anything about this foreign land.
The transport ship
Charlotte
, our former home, is further away now, and I focus my attention on my companions sitting on the bench in front of me, all of us facing the rear of the small boat where the coxswain sits lazily, occasionally looking at us with a smile. Ann Beardsley, who is among the gentlest and kindest of the women convicts, and Jane Fitzgerald, sitting at the rear of the boat, facing away from me. They're holding hands like Mary and me, and I can imagine they are thinking similar thoughts to my own: what horrors does the future hold for us now?
The seamen row steadily onward, their oars biting the water with a regular rhythm, and finally Mary relaxes her grip on my hand. I think of Charlotte Ware and Elizabeth Bason, sitting on the bench behind us, closer to the front of the boat, and feel somewhat comforted by their presence. I can afford to relax for a moment, again closing my eyes and I'm transported to the fleeting tranquil place between two hells out here on the water. My mind wanders, thinking about my fall from grace and long journey at sea, of nine or so months. Is this voyage in the ship's boat the beginning of my rebirth or taking me on to my next step of purgatory?
Many days ago I thought our journey may end when our ships laid anchor in a great bay, half a day's sail from here. It were fourteen days ago if Mary Broad is to be believed, and she likes to keep track of these things, so I do believe her. But after two days at anchor the Commodore Arthur Phillip decided to quit the bay and sailed us here instead, several hours away, to this vast harbour.
Mr White, our surgeon on the