Part 8. The Dragon's Lair
Chapter 19. Fulfilling An Obligation
Sylvia had packed up and emigrated to Brussels with indecent haste. My parenting commitments meant that I hadn't been able to see her before she moved. She was keen to get away from some bad memories, but I also suspected that she was deliberately drawing a line under our ambiguous relationship.
Her plans to sell her house all moved surprisingly smoothly. She hadn't even asked for my assistance.
I took her departure personally. Her eagerness to get away felt like a rejection. I knew that I didn't love her. How could I? Despite her flirtatious behaviour she had been emotionally unapproachable. But she had meant a lot to me, as a friend and sometimes confidante. Thoughts of her had occupied so much of my waking thoughts for so long that she would leave a vacuum behind her, me knowing that I could no longer see her.
When Rita, the saddle-maker, contacted me, I had assumed her motive was arranging the delivery of Sylvia's personal effects. It wasn't. Rita had come to see me, but she hadn't brought Sylvia's boxes with her. She left it to me to return the compliment and visit her to collect them.
"Hello? Is that Rita?"
"Yes, I know that voice; it's Simon, isn't it? What can I do for you?"
Her voice sounded sexy, particularly since I could put a face and body to it. I felt an immediate urge to see her again, perhaps to repeat our first encounter.
"We have some unfinished business. When can I see you?"
Her next words dashed my hopes, if not my urges.
"Oh Simon, that was a once in a lifetime opportunity. I warned you not to get any ideas about you and me. It was fun at the time, but it's over."
She didn't intend to let me down gently. Had the sole motivation for her visit to my house been to see the videos? Had sex with me just been the icing on the cake, an opportunistic experience never to be repeated? I pressed on, now somewhat humiliated.
"Yes - well - OK - but there's still the matter of Sylvia's possessions which you wanted me to deliver to her mother. When can I collect them?"
"I'd rather you came whilst I'm away. Call at my neighbour's. She'll show you where they're stored."
So, Rita not only didn't want a repeat performance, she wanted to avoid me as well. What had I done to deserve that? I felt as deflated as a punctured bouncy castle or an ex-balloon.
I tried to disguise my disappointment and agreed to meet up with her neighbour to go and collect the boxes from Rita's stables.
I sat at home, staring for weeks after that, at the boxes piled up in my living room. They weren't sealed, and I glanced at the contents. One box contained Sylvia's office clothes, including those dreadful striped blouses. I stared at them, and imagined her firm, bra-clad breasts almost bursting out of them. Briefly touching them with my fingers gave me an unwanted erection, so strong were my recollections of her, so redundant was my physical reaction.
I had to rid myself of those potent reminders. I telephoned Ruby. I felt queasy as I dialled her number.
"Mrs Willcocks? My name is Simon. Your daughter asked me to contact you."
"Simon, you say? Sylvia's friend? What does she want now?"
Ruby's voice was not dissimilar in register to Rita's contralto, but it was cold, disparaging and imperious. I didn't know the full history between mother and daughter, and at that moment I felt like piggy in the middle of a relationship quagmire.
"Sylvia phoned me just before she left for Brussels. She asked me to collect some boxes of her personal possessions from storage that she couldn't take with her. She asked me to deliver them to you for safe-keeping."
"Why should I take them, after what she's done to me? You are her boyfriend. Why don't you look after them?"
"I'm not, and never have been her boyfriend. I was simply a friend who tried to support her when she was down."
There was a harsh, forced laugh in the earpiece. "A friend with benefits from all I heard. I suspect you were well paid for your services."
Ruby's biting sarcasm hurt Her tone sounded harsh and dismissive. Contacting her suddenly felt like a bad idea.
"Mrs Willcocks, I don't want to come between mother and daughter. I did my best to support Sylvia, but I know nothing of the differences between the two of you. Sylvia didn't confide in me."
"No, she was a dark horse. She nearly came between me and Sebastian. Still, that is none of your business, I suppose. So what do you want of me after all this time?"
"I want only to fulfil Sylvia's wishes, to deliver some of her possessions to you to look after for her. I'm sure she values them. Perhaps they would provide a possible bridge between you both in time - if you want to see her again."
"This is a nice try, but I fear that boat has sailed. Well, if you must, you can drop them off at the weekend. I gather you know all too well where to come."
Luckily, I was free of parenting duties that following weekend, which is why I had chosen to telephone her then. Her last comment suggested that she knew quite a lot about my antics at the farm with Sylvia, in her absence. It would be awkward having to meet her under those circumstances.
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I didn't realise until I put the receiver down how tense I'd been during the telephone conversation. I was trembling with stress. Sylvia had said her mother was formidable. I felt every bit of that steeliness, and her contempt for me in her tone of voice.
I conjured up an image of a prim lady of a certain age, who probably disapproved of Sylvia's dissolute behaviour with me. From what Sylvia had said about Sebastian, who had not sounded at all starchy, her mother did not sound an ideal mate for him.
Ruby telephoned me later that week to postpone my trip.
"There's no reason for Sebastian to meet you, so I'd like to rearrange your visit to a later date when he will not be here. He will be away abroad on business then. He agrees with me that he has no reason to want to meet you."
So Sylvia's stepfather apparently preferred to avoid me, along with Sylvia and Rita. I suppose I shouldn't have taken it personally, but I did. I was beginning to feel like a pariah for being Sylvia's friend. The prospect of the rearranged trip to her mother was beginning to fill me with dread.