Thrashes of light sporadically washed over the pulsing milieu, unrelenting high-hat flourishes tapping their teeth while the vibrations of the kick drum bounced their heads fore and aft. Their bodies were a vessel containing a dearth of gleeful sensory overload. Dozens of the turned-on were turned out to imbibe in the full gale-force trauma of a mere night where the stars were glued to the sky above their heads.
The night's scintillated cavalcade rocked together in a shared effort to wave away the rising of tomorrow's sunrise. They reviled the notion of that sun's jarring glare hitting them full on in their faces as they exited the safe lair of their exuberant brethren. Easier, it was, to bask in the blinding flash of the xenon strobes bouncing across their sweaty bodies absorbing the nectar of one love in their laser-lit and smoky cocoon. They writhed and slithered amongst each other as vipers do when in the midst of courtship, eager for the same outcome to await them after the mating dance and the elaborate courtship, however extended or fleeting it may last.
It was a Saturday midnight in Birmingham. Saturday nights in the rave clubs were not right for fighting at all...aggression, ego, rage and pettiness nil when utopia was so easily compressed into a pill.
Doses of exaltation dissolved on the tongue, each more divine than a sacramental wafer whose ingestion merely suggested heaven was in their future. Those wafers provided the hope of floating in the clouds. The ones swirled around in a swig of hot saliva and cold Poland Springs provided actual floating in the clouds with lithe and consummating angels...or their money back. And there was no need for scripture to be read, Reznor and Moby had the verses and curses all covered, no need to think...only be. The idea of inglorious rapture and the outright straight-arming of every care or problem they had in their mortal worlds drew in God's children at the cost of only fifteen single notes, Presidential.
Beyond the black-lit doorman with his UV-greened teeth and glowing stamp of approval were carnal needs and expectations of those earthly needs to be met. Within the four walls and earshot of the finest electronica available on wax or media player, they danced without a set of pre-learned moves. There were no rules to their motions.
In the blasting of strobe and varied lights, they embraced with their eyes both their same sex and their opposites. At times, the spark of smoldering eyes found tinder in their groins, was blown upon, and caught up with that flicker of sweaty flame. If the party gods were appeased sufficiently, they eloped into wondrous pairings of exploratory caresses of tongue and fingertips. In between, they drank copious amounts of freshly chilled water from faraway lands...like Atlanta, or Zephyr Hills.
Designer drugs were changing the face of clubs in 1994. Of course, the old tried and true mixer bars with purple hooter shots, the night's ESPN showcase, and fried jalapeno poppers would never fizzle out completely. There was enough comfort in the brew and the burger to keep the doors to the traditional bars open. If HIV did not keep drunks from trying to fuck strangers at clubs in the 80's, nothing would. A whole new generation of youth enamored with free love and floating above the humdrum now dabbled in ecstasy...the name said it all. They eschewed for the most part the coke and glam metal speed scene of their older siblings. They tried the old standby, heroin. Many mixed LSD and ecstasy and splashed around in manic bliss, flowing with the go.
Far from needing the legally mandated kitchen and wait staff bringing pitchers and pre-bussing, a decent rave club need only bring in a guy who was into the music and having his own DJ setup and a dream to club for even more people in the future. Whereas a typical old-fashioned mixer bar needed beer vendors, liquor licenses, a concept and kitchen menu, location, location, location and heaps of insurance, a rave club stock up a few number ten washtubs with Sam's Club waters, buy a decent sound and light show setup, rent some old warehouse and get the power turned on. Then get some heads to paint the inside with fluorescent paint and hand out flyers at the colleges.
Drugs of course brought out the riff-raff as beer brought the macho and the sloppy. The wink and the nudge handled most problems easily enough. If someone were ripping people off, a dropped note to one of the numerous undercover cops everyone knew was around would pinch the offender. If someone got too overt with the public display of the baggie, he would be asked to make sure the parking lot was his office lest the authorities drop the hammer, slaughtering the cash cow for all involved.
Further party fouls would end permaently with a traffic stop out of nowhere.
What a person had dissolving in their bellies as they paid the big dude at the door a ten for a stamp was their business. Outside in the world of the palmed twenty and the Ziplocked tickets to ride heaven's roller coaster, it was the ultimate personification of caveat emptor. There was always that pesky detail in trying to reach heaven...arrest or premature death.
It was one of the wonders of the rave club that the four walls of disunity brought the cast-aside to its den first. Then, only after some gay friends told their fag-hag co-workers or classmates, did the pretty people abandon a usual night at the theater or the bar and grills for a night of illicitness in a tingly purgatory with pierced dervishes and leering freaks they would shy away from at parties. When it was passed along that the world on ecstasy was indeed beautiful to all regardless of caste, catechism or car, the scene burgeoned further with druggies from other scenes...fratboy keg-drinkers, hippie hashheads, wired-up speed-freaks, the odd older couple wearing freshly purchased black leather seeking a diversion from the suburbs, coke-bumpers, crackies, pill-poppers. All welcome, but all knowing the mood was one of transcendental loftiness, not getting fucked up.
In the world of juicy hard liquor shots and booty music, the focus was on the peacock and his prowess at strutting. Here it was the whole flock of ducklings learning to flap their wings beautifully, often for the first time without the nervousness of am I?... hanging over their gyrations. Now in the unbiased hug of the club, they flowed with the go.
Best of all, what they paid for, really, when they peaked, was every care they ever had back in the sane world could be ground down to the tiny gaps between their clenched teeth and exhaled slowly in deep drawings of air through lips permanently molded into the face of a kiss. Reality thus occluded; there was only the sound and the blurry.
Later as the hour of the end of it all neared, they stared as casually or as fearfully as their persona warranted at their wide, black pupils in the mirrors of the restrooms and wondered...If eyes are touted as the windows to souls, was their soul so black already at the age of twenty-one, was there no hope?