Iām standing in my bedroom looking at my naked body in the large mirror on my closet door. Five days ago we had my eighteenth birthday party here, in our huge back yard, and yesterday was the last day of class of my junior year in high school. Iāve got all this summer to relax and enjoy myself. Oh, I have a dinky job working part time, mostly during the busy hours on weekends, at a nice womenās clothes store. But thatās just for spending money. And, to get discounts on some clothes I like.
At the party one of the guys said I looked like Britney Spears. So Iām looking at my body and I guess maybe I do, a little. We both have really fit bodies. Iām sure she works out a lot. I do more work than most people would realize. Being a cheerleader is almost like being a professional dancer. We do a lot of work. And I run on the school track just about every day, just to stay fit. But there are differences. I think my boobs are a little bigger than hers. It seems to run in our family. My Mom and my sisters have pretty major breasts, too. Mine seemed to have grown more the last year. I sort of hope they donāt keep growing or Iāll be some sort of freak. Right now, theyāre really great. And, Iām a real blonde and I suspect Britney isnāt. I bet my pubic hair is a lot lighter than hers. Unless sheās shaved hers. I havenāt. I have blue eyes, I think hers are brown. And I donāt think we really look alike in the face, either. She seems a little tough or something. Iām more of a kewpie doll. I guess itās cute but I donāt really like my face that much. And I donāt like being so short. Only 5ā3ā. But I do like my body.
The party was fun. A lot of the kids went swimming. I didnāt. I was having my period then. Our house and our neighborsā are at the end of the street. A dead end or cul de sac. So we have big back yards. My parents and the neighbors, years ago I guess, decided to treat both yards as one big one. They put in a pool and my parents put in a fancy barbecue thing. So we always share parties and both always use the whole area. My older sisters and their boys always had parties like I just had. My oldest sister, Margaret, is married now. My next oldest, Janet, is just ending her junior year in college. She was in the same class as the neighborsā youngest boy, Jack.. Ah, Jack. Iāve always had a crush on him. Itās like having Brad Pitt live next door. Heās such a sexy guy. And he was always nice to me. I mean, no one wanted me, the runt, to tag along. But he was never mean about it or anything. Heās off at college, too.
As I start to think about Jack, I start to feel horny. I tend to think of him when I masturbate. I think of sex a lot, almost all the time. I donāt know why I havenāt actually done it yet. Iāve sure watched couples doing everything possible with each other on the ānet. I guess Iām scared of it a little, wonder if Iāll be any good at it or like it. I've dated a lot and guys have sure tried things with me. But so far no one has ever done the right thing at the right time. They try to hard or to fast. At school they call me the Ice Queen. I know, Iāve heard it. But Iām not. I mean, I really want to do everything Iāve seen.
Here I am looking at myself, naked, fingering myself, feeling all hot. Itās only ten in the morning. I better get my mind off of this. So I try on my bathing suit. Jeez, I need a new one. The bra doesnāt begin to hold my boobs any more. I knew they had grown but, gee, this is almost obscene, Theyāre practically hanging out. And the bottom is all stretched. Itās loose. I can see my pubic hair. Oh well, all Iām going to do is swim a little and then lay out in the sun and relax in my own back yard. No one is going to see me. No one can see into our yard from the street and the houses behind are down a hill, probably fifty or sixty feet down. So you can only see into the yard from our two houses. And thereās nobody here but me. My parents are at work and so are the neighbors. So what difference does the bathing suit make. I could probably go out there naked and nobody would ever know.
I lay my towel down, my sun screen, walk over to the pool. I know the water will seem cold so the only thing to do is dive in and get it over with. I do. Jeez this is freezing. I swim down to the end with the diving board, then back, then back and forth several times. Once I get used to it, it isnāt so cold. I hear something. Thereās someone in our neighborsā house. I go over to the side of the pool, hold on and look. The doorās opening. Itās Jack! I thought he was at school all this summer but heās here.
āJack,ā I call out, lifting myself a little out of the water. He looks over at me, a questioning look on his face. He smiles.
āMelody,ā he says. āI didnāt realize anyone was out here.ā
āI thought you were still at school, ā I say. He walks over towards me.
āI was. I decided I needed some quiet to study so Iām home for the summer. I hope to catch up on all my courses so Iāll do well next year and get some better grades, maybe get into graduate school.ā
He sees my stuff and goes over to it and puts his towel down next to mine and then comes to the pool and dives in. I swim toward the deep end and he starts swimming laps, back and forth. I do what I usually do about now, climb out and go on the diving board to practice different dives. He watches me and when I come up, he swims over to me.
āMelody, youāve really grown up,ā he says, āYou have a beautiful body. Youāre a really sexy girl now.ā
I have no idea what to do, so I grin at him and swim over to the side and climb out and go out on the board again.
āWow,ā he says, āyou could be a center fold!ā
I dive in. I love to hear him say that but I have no idea what to say to him. So I swim to the side and climb out and go over and sit down on my towel and start spreading some sun screen on. He swims back and forth in the pool maybe a dozen or so times and then climbs out and come over to me and sits down on his towel next to me. Now, Iām laying on my stomach.
āI didnāt mean to embarrass you, Melody,ā he says, āI was just surprised to see that youāre such a sexy girl now.ā
Iāve got to answer him, so I push up my upper body and roll slightly onto my side so Iām facing him. āThatās o.k., Jack,ā I say. I can see his face. Heās looking at my body. I glance down and realize my boobs are just about fully hanging out, my bottom is twisted a little and I can see pubic hair. I need to do something to cover myself more but anything I would do would just make things worse. I have no idea what to do so I do nothing. He looks at me and smiles.
āI envy whoever it is that youāre dating and is getting to make use of that lovely, sexy body.ā
āIām not dating anyone,ā I say, āand no one is, whatever it was you said, āmaking useā of my body.ā Then I lay back down on my stomach again.
āIām sorry, Melody. I donāt want to insult you or anything. Itās just that I canāt imagine how the guys at school could be so dense that you donāt have boys all over you.ā
I had to answer him, so I lifted myself up a little and looked at him. āThatās the trouble,ā I said, āthey do want to get all over me. They move way to fast and want way too much.ā
āSo youāve never had sex with a guy?ā he asks me.
I have no idea what to do. I should probably get up and leave. I mean, hereās the sexiest guy Iāve ever known. The guy I masturbate about, asking me about sex and I have no idea what to do. So I just answer him. āNo.ā
āDo you ever think about sex?ā he asks.
Jeez, thatās all I think about, practically. So how do I answer him? This is Jack, who Iāve known all my life. So I answer him again. āYes.ā
āBut youāve never actually done it, got naked with a guy, or anything?ā
Iām almost scared but Iām also getting to feel pretty horny. Iāve never talked like this with anyone. āNo, I never have,ā I tell him.
āBut you want to?ā
āWell, yeah,ā I finally say, āSometime, when things are right. I mean, I have to think about getting pregnant. And Iād have to sort of move into it gradually or something. But, yeah.ā
Heās been looking at my body. At everything that shouldnāt be showing. He actually licks his lips. Then he looks me in the eye. āWhat would probably be right for you would be oral sex first. Thatās safe. And youād love it. If youāll let me, I can have oral sex with you. Youāll have a terrific orgasm and love it. And thereās no risk or anything.ā Then he looks at me some more.