CHAPTER 10: MANDO THE COMMANDO
DANNY'S Story
It's hard to accept that my love rekindled so quickly, almost instantly, and I have to give him up again. Is that our destiny? I was in ecstasy when I was in his arms and in another atmosphere when that cock was in my mouth or filling my hungry cunt. Damn that was good.
But I couldn't stay another minute knowing the joy we were having couldn't happen again. Everything from that point on would feel hollow.
Oh, I love that man so much I get goose bumps all over just thinking about him. But why torture myself? I'll never see him again; I must let him go if I want to remain sane.
I'll do it starting right goddamn now. I'll cut our ties and go back to where I belong. Girls. I've had three partners since then. Why does he still trump and bump the others out of the arena? Why? They've got the right equipment; clits and tits. All he has is a big cock. I can't really want that more than the passion and compassion of a hot bitch, can I?
If so, is my same gender choice just that; a choice? Am I naturally bi-sexual? Or worse, becoming straight? I don't know, but the bastard left my bed but not my head.
Other than being heavily hung, what does he offer that my Sheila's don't? Am I so much in love that he stays in the top slot? Sort of like an addiction; quit for five years, take the drug of choice once, and the addiction is back as if I never quit? Am I addicted to him?
Damn it all to Detroit, Japan, and fucking Juniper! All these questions and not a single god damn answer. Fuck a rubber duck in a robber's truck!!
I don't really want to see him, do I? Maybe it's an obsession and not love at all. Maybe all I need to do to clear my head is to not see him ever again. I've got to shake this thing. It's a curse. It's evil. It threatens my lifestyle, my comfort level, and life goals. Hell's bells, that son of a bitch is a threat to my whole identity! Fuck a mule and kiss a snake!!! Shit fire and spare the lighter fluid! Damn I'm upset. Upset? I passed that before I left his apartment. Now I'm...I'm... what? Distressed? Destroyed? Dismayed? Dis-shit I don't know! Imploding maybe! On the eve of self destruction? NOT. No, I'm not undone and hopeless. Helpless to find a solution and devastated because of it.
I pace from one end of the hotel room to another, thinking, thinking, and rethinking.' This love can't be real. Love is for idealist fools. It threatens my whole way of life. Letting these feelings out is self sabotage. A death wish. It's suicide. It's the last thing I need. I can't allow distraction in my line of work. Love is dangerous. I know I should ignore it; but it's killing me.
He is free to have a romantic relationship now, but his views about war and guns are keeping us apart. Why can't he give a little? Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe that's the way it should be. I can't change what I do for mankind. This line of work is necessary to keep the bad guys from kicking the shit out of every good guy that's in their way or has something they want..
On the other hand, maybe it's time to let someone else be the action hero. I stomp my left foot and slam my fist against the table, shouting. No! Dammit This is what I do and who I am. Only a handful of people can do what I do and do it well. I save lives and protect good people from bad People. That's me and that's who I am and what I am. I'll just have to accept a life without him. If that's how it is, I'll suck it up and move on. Period.
I open the mini-bar, snatch up a bottle of Chevas Regal, twist the cap off, scarf it down in one gulp, and slam the bottle on the counter. Grrrr! That didn't help. I've got to deal with this without chemicals.
I began pacing rapidly whileΒ speaking fast and loud. Shouting even. That's right. Suck it up Dan my whoa-man, and move the hell on. Shit girl; stop being a pussy. A wuss. A crybaby. Get that mushy idea of love out of your fucking head before it destroys you.
I stop pacing and face the bathroom mirror. There. Problem solved, bitch.. A collision course avoided. Atta boy, girl. Stick with the plan and dump the man. That's it. End of story. My love story. Over. The end. Kaput.
I start pacing again, still talking out loud. I can still get all the pussy I want, so what's the problem? There's no problem, that's what! I'll never see him again and like any other wound, it'll heal. I've had enough wounds to know that, haven't I?
I stop wearing the rug out with so much walking to and fro and flop onto my bed.
All that will be left are the scars. No pain, just scars, that's all. I've handled gunshot pain, knife pain, fire pain, grief pain, and by god I can handle this pain! All I have to do is avoid the drug of choice; him. Gino. Avoid his cock like it's a poisonous viper. That's all.
I bolt upright. That's all? THAT'S ALL? Cock or not, the son of a bitch still looms over me like thunder cloud raining pain in torrents.
I relax and lie back on two pillows. So what? All that's required to kill the pain and dumb-ass infatuation is to never see him again. Am I a Marine or not! Simper Fi and stay the hell away from him. Simply bye, special guy!
I slap my hands together back and forth once and declare,Β Done deal. Problem solved. It's over and out. Gone and good riddance.
The phone sings Chuck's ringtone the ABC song because of the different three letter agencies I work with. To me, they're the alphabet gang. When I answer the phone my resolve dissolves.
"Hello. 'sup Chuck?"
"Mando, this is Chuck. Here's the deal. A special crew is on their way from LA. They will land in two hours or so. Be ready in an hour and a half. We'll have spotters at the gate to let us know when they're on the ground. They'll pick up their equipment on this end.
"How many?"
"There are ten in the team counting the two drivers. A local gang will back them up, therefore I don't know the final count. Expect six or eight at the door. The look-outs can be anywhere, like fire escapes on any floor, or near the escape vehicles. That is an unknown factor at the moment. But we know if the team takes too long these boys will send the back up team to investigate. Do you need help?"
"Have a back-up team ready. Who is the client and where is he?"
"He is in the Presidential Suite at the Omni hotel. His name is Gino Marino."
I sit down so I don't fall down. I am so stunned I might fall off the floor. I don't know what or who I expected, but definitely not Gino. Not my Gino. Not the only person I've ever let my guard down and given myself fully to. No, no no! Please let it be his brother, or father, or his goddamn sister!
"Mando, the Machetes is the most violent gang in the world; they are the worst of the worst. They're cold blooded killers. They are alive and successful because they're in and out of their target's location in record time and leave no witnesses. This is the toughest assignment of your career to date, Mando, and possibly your entire life, which could be rather short if you don't have help."