Dedicated
To Chris.
My Editor, Mentor and Proof Reader.
Preface
Kinda Mine was originally written as a short story but has subsequently grown into a Six Chapter Novella. Friends and Followers may have already read the first 3 Chapters.
This story is written in a contemporary style meant to explore love, relationships and loneliness through emotion and symbolism.
Mandy is on her sailing yacht anchored in a harbour in Grenada where she finds herself abandoned by her partner and struggles to adapt to a solo sailing adventure.
If you do take the time to read it, I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed working on it.
"In a world where you can be anything, be kind." Unknown
Kinda Mine
Chapter 1
Kinda Mine
Whisping clouds reached across the evening sky grasping at the light, wicking up bright colours of red and purple from the weary sun setting in the distance. One by one the shore birds surrendered the beachhead to the darkness, disappearing into the mangroves to find a branch to roost on until dawn. The gentle lapping of the waves against the shore created a soothing melody, interrupted by the occasional chorus of tree frogs arguing with crickets in the estuary. A faint breeze carried their whispers along the sandy shores of Grenada, while the once bright colours in the sky began to fade in the dying light, and supergiant orange stars began to twinkle, like sapphires lost in time, scattered across the black fabric of the universe.
Mandy crossed her legs, pulling her sarong across her lap and folded her arms under her breasts before she settled back into her folding lawn chair on the white sand beach. The voices around her merged with the debate going on in the estuary as she stared into the bonfire, the flames teasing out memories of the last three months. She grappled with disordered thoughts, created by the turmoil of the past few weeks, but she began to convince herself that she was glad he flew back home. He complained nonstop, he was seasick most of the time and he was as lazy as a sea slug.
The warmth of the fire and gentle ocean breeze soothed her spirit for a moment, she closed her eyes, letting the tranquillity wash away her troubles. Uncrossing her legs, she shifted gently, the aluminum frame creaked, the sun-bleached cushions readily conforming to the movement of her curves while she wiggled her toes into the warm sand. The sound of the voices around her fell away and Mandy was at peace, listening to the gentle rhythm of the waves against the shoreline.
There was a sudden pop from the fire, a spark flew up, Mandy's eyes snapped open just in time to see a glowing ember floating off until it had consumed itself, vanishing somewhere in the night. She stared at the spot where the spark had died, her eyes adjusting to the darkness just beyond the warm firelight.
"Mandy."
"Mandy!"
"Mission control to Mandy... do you copy... over." Drew's voice penetrated the void.
"Yes, haha, sorry," Mandy giggled softly when she realized she was lost in her own reflections.
"You okay Mandy, you're a bit more pensive than usual," Drew said in a doting tone.
"Oh sure, I'm fine. I was just thinking about Derick."
"Yeah, well, screw that guy. No one seems to be able to figure out what you saw in him anyway. You two had about as much in common as an angelfish and a sharksucker. I don't recall meeting anyone with less ambition than him. He was just a boat anchor and you already got one of those, you don't need two," Drew added, shaking his head slowly and furrowing his brow with disdain.
"That may be true, but somehow, in my head, I saw things working out a little different than they did."
"Yes, I know what you mean. It's easy to create some dime-store fairytail in your mind about how things are going to be, thinking you can sail off into the sunset and live happily ever after but reality is a different kettle of fish, especially on a sailboat. When you take someone out on a sea trial for a couple of months in a thirty-eight-foot sailing yacht, you'll soon see every leaky porthole and hatch there is, because there's no hiding that shit out here. Close quarters is the real acid test for everything, especially relationships."
Mandy pursed her lips and shrugged, her gaze drifted back to the fire and she watched the flames licking the driftwood while she let Drew's words settle in the darkness. After a moment, she lifted her eyes and forced a smile that was lost before it reached her eyes. Drew tilted his head, firmly pressed his lips together and nodded, recognizing her discomfort.
"You're right Drew, but it's not as though I'm guilt-free. I'm as much to blame as he is, maybe more. I should have taken him out on a few short trips first, to see if he had any sea legs, besides, I probably expected too much, so it wouldn't be fair to shift all the blame."
"Well, even if that was true, which I don't think it is, there's a take-home lesson there; you live and learn... we grow more from the things we did wrong as opposed to the things we did right. You're a bright young lady, you'll do just fine, I promise," Drew leaned in closer, glancing at his wife and shielding his mouth before he whispered, "Look at the bright side; you're cruising solo in paradise and free of encumbrances, free to spend your time as you please."
Drew suppressed a laugh and paused for a moment, waiting to see if his attempt at levity had lightened the mood before he straightened up and continued on in a serious tone.
"Anyway, it might not be the course you expected but if you want my humble opinion, it's a better one for you, for the time being anyway."
"Speaking of a new course, are you guys heading out tomorrow?" Mandy asked, changing the subject.
"Yeah, I think so. PredictWind is saying light winds and fair weather for the next week so we're gonna catch the breaks where we can get 'em," he said as he watched the smile melt from her lips, "We really hate to bail on you but I have to be back in Miami next month or they're going to fire my stupid ass. You're gonna meet us up at BVI if you can, right?"
Mandy nodded as her eyes drifted back to the fire.
"Yes, I'd like to come with, but I'm still waiting on my order from StarLink so I'm kind of committed for another day or two. I talked to the Post Master this morning and he has a trace on the package. I don't know what I'll do until then, maybe explore the island a little more... do some snorkelling... maybe clean the hull, see how many critters are stuck on the boat that are gonna try to slow me down."
She paused, her eyes wandering to the stars dancing across the waves in the bay. Drew pursed his lips and nodded.
"You'll be fine, stay on the mooring ball here until you set sail, and give me a shout when you get to BVI. I'll come out in the Rib and help you anchor, or dock... whatever you decide."
Mandy looked away and scanned the night sky, searching for the Southern Cross and Orion's Belt. She'd been sailing with her father since she was a gaffer. She had a Yachtmaster Certificate and she was confident in her skills, she could find her way with a sextant and paper charts if she had to. She didn't need a chart plotter, GPS, and StarLink but they made life easier, and safer. It was almost 34 hundred nautical miles back to Nova Scotia and she was nervous about being single-handed on such a long voyage.
Drew opened his mouth as if he was about to speak but no words came. He just sighed with resignation, studying Mandy's expression as the warm fire glow danced on her cheeks while the evening breeze carried the subtle scent of hibiscus and wild orchids from somewhere over the dunes.
Chapter 2
The Post Office
At sunrise the next morning, Mandy huddled in the cockpit of the Beneteau 38 that she called Kinda Mine, wrapped in her woollen Hudson's Bay blanket, waving Drew and his wife off as they set sail for the British Virgin Islands. She took a sip of her coffee, soothed by the feeling of the warmth in her hands but still sad to see her friends leaving. That's the life on a sailing yacht; you make some friends, people you connect with, but at some point, they sail off on their next adventure and all you can do is wish them a Bon Voyagé.
Mandy watched the headsail billow on Drew's sloop until it disappeared around the point, then gazed out over the turquoise water of Mount Hartman Bay, the silence and still water were a stark reminder that she was alone. Kinda Mine rocked gently in the morning breeze, the mooring lines creaked softly, carrying the weight of the tug of war between the anchor and the bow cleat while the boat swayed. Mandy's eyes drifted to the instrument panel and the black screen of her Chartplotter before she checked the time on her FitBit.
She had the day all planned; she'd bike to St George's for 1 o'clock, pick up her package at the Yacht Club, an hour there and an hour back. She'd be back on her boat by mid-afternoon, have the electrician wire everything up and she could be underway by Wednesday, if everything worked out and the weather forecast didn't change.
Mandy beached her dinghy at noon and unfolded her commuter bike, pedalling off the sandy beach and onto the roadway with purpose. She inhaled deeply, savouring the simple joys of paradise as the scent of blooming flowers and lush foliage filled the air while she rode past the scattered beach houses, their boldly coloured shutters and doors fearlessly contrasting the beige tones of Kinda Mine. The sound of the tires spitting gravel across the road echoed down the path. The road began to wind its way up the hill, Mandy shifted gears, feeling the familiar burn of lactic acid building in the muscles of her thighs as she pedalled.