To begin with, Sophie's decision not to see Justin again gave her a warm sense of vengeful satisfaction. After all, if she was such an embarrassment to him and his prissy girlfriend, why should she waste her time? She didn't return Justin's calls and the one time he spoke to her on the phone she made a feeble excuse as to why they couldn't meet.
Despite herself, however, it was with increasing fondness that she remembered Justin and their innocent nights out at the cinema and the pub. She rather missed his friendship.
It wasn't as if she had no active social life without him. A girl like her could fill every minute of every day with some kind of fun. She somehow missed those innocent goodbye kisses where there was no expectation that her vagina or anus should take more punishment in addition to what it had already received as part of her normal working day. It didn't matter if she was socialising with a man, a woman, several men or mixed company, the evenings always ended the same way. A few lines, a few spliffs, perhaps something stronger, and, when sufficiently relaxed, on the bed, on the fireside rug, in the kitchen, penis, dildo, fist or fingers thrusting in her orifices. And then the familiar scent of semen, vaginal juice or urine, dripping down her thighs, her face or her breasts. In many ways so rewarding, but also curiously empty and predictable. Here was the love and affection she craved, but where was the companionship and friendship she also needed?
It was during a shoot for
Bang Busters Volume Four
that she exhausted the final crumb of satisfaction she'd got from terminating her friendship with Justin. She'd already spent an hour or so on the film set, in which time she'd fellated two men and had both of them ejaculate onto her face, along with a third man who'd previously been fucking Lara. Perhaps it was the sour taste of semen. Perhaps it was the slightly fetid taste of raw genitalia. Perhaps it was the soreness in her anus that was much more pronounced after being fucked face-on while sitting on her co-star's lap. It couldn't have helped that at the same time her mouth was gobbling an erect penis and her hand was pumping a third penis.
Then suddenly she lost all heart for it.
She wasn't sure whether the film director noticed this sudden collapse of enthusiasm, but it was obvious Doug did, as he thrust into her from below. And Michael hastened his ejaculation as he also detected Sophie's waning excitement.
But when Sophie unexpectedly burst into tears and awkwardly disengaged herself from the amorous company with whom she shared the film set, it was clear to everyone that something had snapped.
Sophie staggered over to the sofa where, only moments ago, Julia had been fucked by Doug and Angelo. The camera trailed her, perhaps uncertain whether Sophie's tears were worth recording, but the director was more sensitive and bade the filming stop.
"What's wrong, Sophie?" he asked her, putting a comforting arm around Sophie's bare shoulders, which heaved with her sobs.
"I don't know!" she wailed. "I don't know! I just sorta lost it!"
"You're not the only one who's lost it!" moaned Doug, as he stroked his shrivelling, but still glistening, penis.
"Come on, Sophie," cajoled the director. "We've got everyone in place. It'd be a shame not to finish the scene."
Sophie looked over at her three male co-stars who were tugging and pulling at their semi-erect penises in the hope of them retaining something of their past glory. They smiled at her, clearly eager to resume their amatory activity from where it had been interrupted. Michael, with whom Sophie had spent the previous night, waved at her with the fingers of his right hand.
"I'm not sure I can," Sophie moaned. "It's not like me! I've lost it! I'm just not enjoying it!"
"Well, you don't have to enjoy it to finish the scene, love," the director continued. "I won't be able to pay you full whack otherwise."
"I know. I know," Sophie moaned. "Can't you edit it a bit? Use more of Lara and Julia and less of me?"
"Yes, of course we can, love. But that means we'll pay more to Lara and Julia and less to you. Do you want that?"
Sophie hesitated. She'd always told herself that she only ever did it for the money. Each filmed action, often identical ones to those she'd do for free with the same co-stars away from the camera, was worth money. It was foolish not to perform when just a little bit of anal or urine made such dramatic differences to her pay packet, and took such little time to film. But the very thought of putting Michael's penis back into her mouth, where the taste on her tongue was still so vivid, was enough to make Sophie retch. Her chest heaved involuntarily, shaking her well-proportioned breasts, while a dribble of creamy sperm regurgitated into the back of her throat.
Sophie coughed.
"Are you feeling OK?" the director asked. "Are you well?"
"I had my check-up last week," said Sophie automatically, before recognizing that the query was occasioned by her current discomfort. "Yeah. Yeah. I'm fine. I guess I'll just have to forget the bonus, won't I?"
"'Fraid so, love," said the director sadly. "If we paid it you whatever happened, it wouldn't be worth anything, would it? 'Course we could make it up for you if you join Lara with the woodmen in the afternoon shoot. What do you think?"
Sophie considered this with a frown. She shook her head. "No. Can't do it. I'm just not in the mood. The idea's making me feel a bit sick, actually. It's really weird. Maybe it's something I ate."
"I didn't know my spunk was as bad as that!" joked Michael rather sweetly.
Sophie smiled. Michael and Doug were good sorts. It wasn't them that was the problem. It was something else. It was something to do with the aching hollowness that was opening up in her like a void. Something like how the previous night she couldn't be bothered when George suggested he join Michael and she to make an amorous threesome. Instead of agreeing like she normally would, she simply said that Michael was all the man she needed, which wasn't strictly true but certainly added extra passion to his lovemaking.
After leaving the film set, Sophie wandered aimlessly to the grounds of a nearby church, where she sat on a bench with a cigarette and her thoughts. What was wrong with her? Now she was so distant from the sight of cock and camera, her earlier aversion seemed ridiculous.
She picked up her mobile phone. She needed someone to speak to. And the person whose saved number she chose was Justin.
The same Justin, of course, who was now returning from the bar of the Black Swan carrying three glasses of wine for Ashley, Sophie and himself. Justin laid out the drinks and sat down with a grin.
"Isn't it wonderful," said Ashley to Justin, "Sophie getting into accountancy and everything?"
"It's really quite unexpected," agreed Justin. "We had no idea what had happened to you. I thought you'd gone to California where they make most of those porno movies. You know, where you can be filmed outdoors in the nude all year long."
Sophie shook her head. "No chance. The weather's tempting. And the money, too! But I just didn't have the spirit. And you? What're you doing these days? Still systems admin?"
"Well, more admin than systems, really," Justin chuckled. "Promotion to management makes all jobs seem just the same. But I'm still working for the same firm."
