[Note to Literotica: heavy use of italics below]
Jordan was already seated at a table against the wall of the coffee shop in a high-backed, upholstered armchair when Jess walked in wearing her puffy gray jacket, black jeans, and boots. As she stood in line, he went over and kissed her hello; she returned it. They made small talk about the weather and traffic while she ordered and got her coffee. They went and sat down.
"Got here early, huh?" Jess observed.
"Only a little bit, yeah. Why?" Jordan asked. She glanced down at his large, nearly-empty coffee mug, then back up at him. He rhythmically tapped his fingers on the table and confessed, "Since 9:30."
"Mm-hmm. Nervous?"
"I mean, uh..." Jordan met her sharp, piercing gaze. He closed his eyes and nodded. "You already know, don't you?"
Her eyes didn't waver, as though she were examining every micro-expression and gesticulation. "You wanted to talk, so, go ahead."
Jordan took a deep breath. "Okay. So, as you probably already figured out from the pic I sent you, I'm poly. And I'm assuming you know what that means?" He paused. Jess remained silent. Her stare betrayed no emotions nor hinted at any motivations. She was simply listening -- and watching.
"Of course you do," he said. "I'm not ashamed of it, but I also don't really like talking about it, you know? People like me, we're either scorned and shunned by the public, or played up for laughs on late-night TV. 'These celebs are a throuple, isn't that hilarious and weird?!' I mean, I don't expect people to understand, because I know the way I am doesn't jive with society -- certainly not the puritanical hellscape we live in where we can watch a guy get flayed open or their head blown off on the news, but god forbid we show a woman's nipple! That would be the end of society as we know it!
"Sorry, got off track there," Jess smiled a bit at this, but let him continue uninterrupted. "I only really talk about it through music. I put it in my lyrics, and hang my flag on my amp. That's really it. Most people don't know what the flag means, and don't really care. A few do, and some look it up online. The ones that are already in-the-know tend to be cool about it. The others, though -- they're either disgusted by it, or are super-creepy about it. Point is, that's why I didn't just come out and say 'Hey, by the way, I'm poly' the first day I met you. Besides, I didn't think anything was gonna happen with us to begin with. I thought, 'okay, she's hot, I'm glad she's okay, and glad I could help,' and that was it.
"But you came back. And when you did, I still wasn't sure. I really didn't think you came because you liked me. I know, I know, I'm a fucking idiot. But you made your move, and
all
rational thought went out the window. I should've told you then, but, to be honest, by the time my brain came back from space, you were already on the road.
"And the reason why I didn't say anything between then and now," he paused and sighed. "is because I'm a fucking coward. I was afraid I was gonna lose you --which I might anyways. I'm sorry I waited so long to tell you, but being poly is who I am. And it's who I'll always be.
"Having said that, if you wanna get up and walk out that door and never speak to me again, I totally get it. No hard feelings. This is who I am, but it may not be who you are. I like you for who you are, and wouldn't ask you to change."
No words crossed the table for a full thirty seconds. Jess continued to look in Jordan's eyes; he occasionally glanced at the exit behind her.
Jess broke the silence. "Jordan, do you know why I'm here?" He gave her a puzzled look. She took a sip of her coffee, set it down, and ran her finger along the rim of the mug. "I'm here to see if you were who I thought you were."
Jordan tilted his head. He thought about asking what she meant, but thought better of it.
"When I first met you, I didn't know what to think," she explained, looking up at the ceiling before returning to his eyes. "Onstage, you're this angry mountain of a dude who -- quite frankly -- scares the shit outta me. But offstage you're this awkward, silly, kind, and caring man who genuinely wanted to help me. When I showed you the work I did on the shirt, you actually considered it. You gave real feedback, and you really wanted to work with me on it. And then you -- like the idiot that you are -- actually thought I wanted another voice lesson in that moment!
"And when you stayed the night, you didn't just come in, sleep with me, and leave. I mean, we were both clearly planning on it, but whatever. What I'm saying is, you really wanted to see what I had to offer. You ate the food I made for you, you looked at my ideas, and you were interested. And you looked in my eyes and said things that you have to admit were pretty corny and lame." Jordan laughed and looked down before meeting her gaze again.
"But I liked hearing them. From the day I met you, Jordan, you've never tried to be something you're not. You come as you are. The only word I can think of for it is 'authentic.' You are authentic, Jordan. But you know what else?" she paused, and he shook his head. "So many people have come into my life and told me who I'm supposed to be. I'm supposed to like this kinda music, these movies, talk this way and that. Family, supposed fucking 'friends,' boyfriends. They all have expectations of me, and when I don't meet them, they try and change me.
"But not you. You never asked me to be something I'm not. Even now -- knowing full well I could just leave and never look back -- you aren't asking me to change for you. To a fault, quite frankly. I don't fucking like me. I get panic attacks, I only have one real friend in my life -- and
she's
a fucking weirdo, too -- I barely talk to my family, I focus too much on my job because it keeps me from thinking about how empty my life is outside it." Her breathing had grown shallow and rapid. She had just admitted things to him she'd never said aloud to anyone before. Jordan wanted to reach forward and grab her hand, but he held back.
She got her breathing back under control and carried on: "Jordan, I'm here because I wanted to see if you were who I thought you were: a kind, caring, open, genuine person that doesn't ask me to compromise who I am. And I got my answer. And I," Jess reached out and took his hand. "want this."
Jordan squeezed her hand and deeply exhaled. He felt like he had been holding his breath the entire time. "That being said," Jess added. "are the rumors true? You seeing someone else?"
"Yes. You wanna meet her?"
"I, uh," Jess stammered. "I-I-I'm not sure? I think so? Maybe? Kinda?"
Jordan laughed. "It's okay, you don't have to. I think she's in the neighborhood, though," he pulled out his phone and started texting. "She had a date last night that turned into this morning, too."
"So, she dates other guys?"
"Yep. Girls, too. And, yeah, looks like her date works around here, so she got breakfast with her and gave her a ride. And..." he nodded his head. "yep. Just dropped her off. Want her to join us?"
"I..." Jess's brain was filled with too much new information to comprehend. "Sure."
"Cool," he went back to his phone. "She's on the way!"
Kyla walked in a couple minutes later. She was wearing large, round sunglasses and an orange sleeveless silk shirt. The shirt was open all the way down the front, but held together by a ladder of short, thin, metal chains. Jess couldn't be certain if Kyla was wearing a bra or not. Kyla made her way to their table in her form-fitting light-blue jeans and short open-toe heels.
"Hey babe! This is Jess?" Kyla asked Jordan and pulled off her sunglasses.
"Yep," Jordan answered. "Jess, this is my wife, Kyla."
So that rumor
was
true after all,
Jess thought. "Uh, nice to meet you."
"Aw, same! He's told me so much about you. But damn, you look even better in person." Jess could feel Kyla's eyes roving up and down her body. Kyla went and grabbed a chair and joined them.
"So, I'm guessing he finally told you?" Kyla asked. Jess nodded. "And you're good?"
"Yeah, just wish he would've told me sooner," Jess said as both she and Kyla turned and stared daggers at Jordan.
"So, um, I'm gonna go get more coffee. Anybody want some?" Jordan stood up and asked, and Kyla nodded.
"Oh, actually, you want some cheesecake? It'll be Jordan's treat," Kyla asked Jess while still giving Jordan a death-stare.
"Sure, absolutely!" Jess said, smirking at Jordan.
As he quickly scurried away to the counter, Kyla leaned over and quietly said to Jess: "Again, I'm so sorry he took so long. It's something I've been trying to work on with him. That boy's had more than one drink dumped on him for it."
"Lotta broken hearts?" Jess asked.
"A few. He doesn't actually date much outside of me, believe it or not. Kind of an introvert, ya know?"
"So, how long have you guys been..." Jess found herself looking for the right word.
"Open?"
"Yeah, that's it."
"Always. Since high school."