ENTRY 8
Hello Digital Diary. It has been a while since my last entry. Why does that sound like a Catholic confession? Because in a way I guess it is. I am confessing. I really messed up this time. I always intended to be faithful to Daniel, my boyfriend. In fact I have been able to justify my other transgressions as ones that Daniel pushed me to.
Let's start with the very first time with his best friend Chet. I didn't even like him, didn't want him to go to our friend's wedding, and certainly under no circumstances wanted him to stay in our hotel room. I was planning a romantic weekend that would get Daniel in the wedding type mood. But there Daniel was the whole night begging me to let Chet stay in our room because he had no other options. Lo and behold, we drink, Daniel passes out, and Chet takes advantage of me.
Fucking Chet was a mistake. But afterwards Daniel continued to push me to spend more time with Chet so that we could become better friends. His reasoning was that if he and I were going to get married then Chet would be in our lives forever; that I should get to know him and get closer to him. Well it opened the door to the continued affair I have had with him since.
Now Chet being Chet included one of his friends once, his brother a couple times, and his female fuck buddy. There is an argument to say those were all mistakes of opportunity all brought on by Daniel's insistence on hanging with Chet. But laterally the responsibility for all of those leads back to Daniel. I have at least a justifiable argument, however weak it might be.
I have come to grips with the fact that I am going to keep fucking Chet and once in a while his hot friend Megan. But I drew the line there. There are to be no more. I love Daniel and I want to faithful to him.
This new one though... I mean I guess I can say that Daniel has told me that I should make friends on the cheerleading squad. And that's how this all started. Let me tell you a few things for context.
Daniel has been super busy with school and has not had very much time to spend with me, especially in the bedroom. When we do it, it is really good. Well, aside from Daniel's conservative and sometimes limited bedroom repertoire that always includes condoms and other stringent boundaries. Actually, let me be honest digital diary, in a head to head matchup Chet is better. He is bigger, more dominant, makes me cum more. You get the idea. He is my go to when I really need to get down. But the 4 hours round trip to see him is not something I want to do very often. Plus Daniel is an amazing person and I have dreamed our wedding and life together for years.
Let me continue with what happened. First, I am a freshman on the school's cheerleading squad. I am extremely fortunate to have a scholarship. Very few freshmen ever get one. It is because I have years of dance and cheerleading experience and I rocked my tryout. It has caused some angst with a number of other cheerleaders who look at me as the chosen one or competition for whatever future positioning they may want. Whatever. So making friends on the squad has been difficult.
So a little more than a month ago, I attended a social that the entire squad was invited to. There were tons of athletes there, mostly from basketball or football. It's a ton of man candy of you ask me. I will never understand why they put these things together if cheerleaders and players are not allowed to date. Nonetheless, here I was socializing with some of my cheerleader teammates and a few players here and there trying to have a good time. And out of nowhere, the captain of our squad, our head cheerleader, Tiffany, comes over to me and chats me up.
Tiffany is barely 5', a tiny girl. She is some asian/fillipino mix. She is loud and controlling. In terms of assets, she barely has any tits, but a more than decent ass. She is the type that will wear a thong under her outfit to give the guys a show. She is incredibly pretty, almost completely natural beauty. Anyway, she comes over and chats me up like she wants to get to know me. We talk for a while about my potential and how she wants to take me under her wing and help me be successful. After she leaves I felt really good about myself.
Over the next week she works with me before and after practice, she introduces me to some of the other seniors on the squad and invites me to a smaller party they are having at one of their houses.
So I go. I am the only freshman there. There are a dozen cheerleaders and maybe 5 or 6 football players. Almost immediately Tiffany brings me over and introduces me to one of the players. He is a handsome black guy with a great smile. "This is Reggie. He is the defensive captain of our football team."
We hang out for a little while and I notice how touchy feely Reggie is with Tiffany. He is rubbing her and running his hands all over her body and she giggles at the attention. She finally announces that she needs a refill and asks if we all want another. I told her that I would help her. While we are getting refills I comment that Reggie seemed very hands on. Her response shocked me a little bit.
Tiffany says, "Reggie and I are kinda dating. We are not supposed to, so it is on the down-low. If anybody asks, we're just fucking."
"You are fucking Reggie? That big dude? I mean, what is he 6'6" 250 lbs?" I asked.
"Yeah he is somewhere around that size. But Candace, he has a huuuuuge cock. And he is amazing in bed. Have you ever been with a black guy before?"
I laughed and said, "No I haven't. I think some of them are attractive of course. But I have a boyfriend."
She laughed and said, "I see. Well take this drink back to Reggie if you would and I will be back to you guys shortly."
So I took the drink back to Reggie and handed it to him. He patted the couch and asked me to sit next to him. I am not sure why I did. I guess I thought it was innocent enough or the alcohol was lowering my worry radar. Whatever it was I happily sat down next to him.
We continued to talk and he laid on his charm and his humor. As I laughed and talked to him I was not paying attention to how he was gently running his hands all over my legs and my ass. It finally clicked when he said, "Candace, you are hot as fuck. You're pretty blonde hair, fat tits, and sexy ass. You are a top notch piece of ass."
Even inebriated I was insulted. I got up and told him that I needed some air. Maybe 10 minutes later Tiffany found me outside. She asked me what was up. I told her what had happened and she laughed. I asked her why she would think it was funny that her boyfriend is hitting on me.
Her response floored me. "Because he likes you. And I like you." She leaned in and kissed me. At first it was gentle and exploratory. I think she was feeling me out. Again, I am not sure if it was the alcohol or what, but I kissed her back. Finally I broke the kiss and looked around self-conscious of who might be watching.
Tiffany giggled and asked if I would come back in and sit with her and Reggie. I was hesitant but she was quite pushy so I did. The rest of the night was a blur. I sat with Reggie and Tiffany and they both touched me and made me feel sexy. When I left the party Tiffany told me she was looking forward to expanding our friendship. I did not know what it meant at the time, and did not think too much of it.
Daniel was quite happy that I was making inroads with the team captain. He looked at it as an opportunity, "If the captain takes you under her wing then that sets you up for better opportunities in the future right? Like you could be team captain one day?"
I shrugged it off at the time. But for the next couple of weeks Tiffany took me everywhere with her and introduced me to everyone. The coaches started paying more attention to me. I even got an invite to run drills with the competition team. I started to see what Daniel was talking about.
Fast forward to two days ago. Listen digital diary, I want to make something very clear. I was naΓ―ve and allowed myself to be sucked in without keeping my walls up. When Tiffany kissed me, I thought it harmless. In the two weeks after that, she did not try to do it again. She was completely normal. So when she sat me down after practice two days ago and talked to me about my future and what I wanted to accomplish with cheerleading I went with it. I told her that I would love to be team captain someday and was willing to put in the work.
Tiffany's response was that I also needed to do the social aspects. I asked what she meant. She told me that I needed to be social and friendly to key important influential people. "Like who," I asked. "Me for one," she said with a devilish grin. "I can help make your cheerleading dreams come true. She put her hands on my bare legs, up high on my thigh. "But you need to be open to the things that I tell you that you need to do." I nodded my head. My mind was flashing scenes of me leading the squad out to the football stadium on game day and running all the drills. My head got big.
At the end of our conversation she leaned in and kissed me again. It was sensual and enjoyable. When she broke the kiss she commented, "I enjoy kissing you. I hope you don't mind." I nodded that I didn't mind. Though I was embarrassed to admit it.
She continued, "Hey. Maybe it is too soon. But I have a really big ask. I told Reggie it was too soon, but he insisted."
I looked back up at her with a confused look on my face. She continued, "You see. Reggie and I both have a fantasy of someone watching us... you know... while we do our thing...aaaaaand... we were thinking that we want you to be that person."
"Why me?" I asked, "You have lots of better friends than me right?"
"But I really like you. And Reggie really likes you. Please!"
"I don't know Tiffany. I mean I have a boyfriend. That seems a little inappropriate."
"Listen it would be a huge favor to me. I would be indebted to you. Do you know how valuable a debt from me is?"