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I can go...
"That's great Rachel. Now look back at me..."
...with the flow.
"Toss your hair over so it's covering...exactly. That's beautiful."
I can throw it all away.
"Now, lean back. Remember. You're ecstatic. You're horny. You're alone..."
Nothing I need anymore.
"That's it. You're a prisoner to your own desire. Give me those eyes. Oh, that's beautiful."
Just shut it down.
"You're gorgeous. You're desirable. Every man wants you."
Let it all just slip away.
"Now slowly lay back and let your legs spread apart..."
They're just pictures after all.
"...wider. Oh, that's beautiful."
It doesn't really matter.
"Yeah, just like that. Touch yourself. Slowly. You're enjoying this."
Just playing along.
"Now, get on the floor and get on your hands and knees."
Just flowing through.
"Look back at me while you do that, but close your eyes."
It's not real.
"That's beautiful. You're beautiful."
I'm not...
"Now open your eyes. Look at me. With lust now."
...here.
"Just like that. Oh, baby, you are the best."
I can go...
"Now, one final look like you're having an orgasm. Make noises if you need to. Get into it."
...with the flow.
"That was perfect, Rachel. Perfect. You're perfect."
He's walking towards me and I can just shut him out. I know I can.
"You're so beautiful. So much more beautiful than the others."
Are they lies? Does it matter. He doesn't need to lie. He doesn't need to convince. I'm here. I can go with the flow.
"I've never felt like this with any of the others. There's just something about you. I know this isn't professional, but..."
The lights are burning my back now. The lights are too bright, but that's needed to give the proper shadows to the female form, to make it more desirable. To make me more desirable. I am the it.
"...I just can't help myself. You know? You feel it too don't you, baby? You feel that connection?"
He continues to talk, but what's there to say? Nothing. Just do it so I can go home. I need a shower. I need to lie down.
"Yeah, me too. I felt it when you came in here, but during the shoot...whew, you just blew me away."
His hands are on me. His eyes are looking into my eyes now. But they wander. He can't look me in the eyes. Why is that? No man can. What do they see? What do they not see?
"I just...I just want to make love to you."
Touching me all over, and it almost feels good. I close my eyes. I want to give in, give in completely. It should feel good.
The lights are hot. I hear the camera still clicking. It's on a timer. He wants to capture this moment. That's fine. They are just pictures after all.
He's on top of me and he's fumbling between my legs. He's searching, his fingers digging into me roughly and then he finds it and spreads it apart and then he's pushing inside of me and there it is.
"Oh yeah, baby."
He pushes harder and it slips in further - and shouldn't it feel good? It feels like nothing. A piece of raw meat jabbing inside of me. But I have to play my part. I raise my knees into the air and wrap my arms around his body. He's panting, lying on top of me, panting, and his breath smells like onions and peppers, rancid, and I turn my head away. I look over his thrusting body, his skinny butt flexing between my thighs and I see the camera and it snaps a picture. Was my face right? Did I look happy? I open my mouth and tighten my face into a lustful oh.
"Oh, yeah. Oh yeah, baby. You like that, don't you? Tell me you like that."
And I tell him I like it. Yes, I like it. I like it just like that. Please don't stop. And I even moan and it sounds real. I almost start to feel good, almost start to believe it. It's sliding in and out of me faster and I lift my hips, trying to pull it in further. Maybe if it would go in deeper, just a bit deeper, maybe it would feel better.
"Oh, baby. Yeah, fuck me just like that."
I start pumping my hips below him, trying to pull him in further, but he's as deep as he's going to go, and it's not enough. I grab his clenching butt cheeks to pull him against me. He pushes in to his fullest extent and starts jabbing in short stabs.
"Yeah, you like that don't you baby?"
He spreads his legs, bringing his knees up to my butt, pushing my legs wider, trying to make sure the camera can see everything, see him inside of me. He's moving faster, plunging in and out quickly, and he's moving too fast. He stops. He's breathing harshly, his breath warm and sticky against my neck.
"Whoo. Let's, um, change position. All right, baby?"
Of course it's all right. He pulls out of me and sits up. The lights blare down on my exposed body, stinging my skin. I roll to my knees, offering my side to the camera.
"Yeah, perfect, baby. You're a natural."
I almost laugh. A natural? A natural what? Then, he's behind me, pushing my legs wider and pushing down on my butt and pushing inside of me again. It slides into me easily and I feel his hips pressing against my butt and then he pulls out and pushes in again. I look over my shoulder and see him looking down at his cock, looking at it as it penetrates my body, moving in and out of me, his hands clutching my ass, and he's mesmerized by that penetration. His eyes are locked on it, watching as it slips out of me, watching my pussy clasping to him, and then watching as it slides back in, my pussy folding back around him.
"Oh, God. You are the hottest."
My arms are shaking, tired from the shoot, tired from this, and I bend down to my elbows, leaving my ass pointed in the air towards him and I hear him moan. He grabs my waist and pulls me against him and I squeal and he mistakes it for a sound of pleasure. I turn my head to the camera. I must play the part. I twist my face into that look, that look that men want to see, and I find myself moaning and I don't know where it's coming from. Not from me. I'm not here.
"Oh yeah, baby. Oh God, yes."
He's moving faster. In the quiet room there is only the sound of slapping flesh, breathing, moans, and the occasional click of the camera. The world is so silent. There is only this.
"I'm gonna come, baby."
He's moving even faster, driving it in and out of me, sliding inside of me easily, and I push back against him, wanting to feel some of that pleasure, wanting at least a taste.
"Here it comes. Get ready, baby."