Northern Africa, circa 1949
'Olivia! Wake up. And put something on. You shouldn't sleep that way with Olu in the house.' My sister Anna complained, raising the shade roughly as she tried to wake me.
'Why can't you ever knock?' I rubbed my eyes, blinded by the morning sunlight. 'Where's Henriette?'
'Probably with Dad. He's still in bed, as well. Come on, get up and make yourself decent. Bina's come over to finish your dress.'
'She'll have to finish quickly; I have to practice...' I said as Anna slammed my door shut.
I yawned, noticing the tenderness in my nipples and the dampness between my legs. I didn't remember Henriette leaving me in the middle of the night, but she must have, because her side of the bed was cool. I smiled, remembering how good she'd made me feel during the night. I'd never imagined that touching could be so divinely pleasurable; I made a pledge to look up from my music sometime.
'Olivia,' Anna returned, with a swatch of pale fabric folded over her arm. 'Don't take all day; Bina has other places to go.'
I stood, feeling light on my feet. Anna was still standing in the doorway, watching me walk naked across my room.
'You're getting fat; you'll need to go on a diet, if you're going to fit into the dress.'
Anna had been critical of my body ever since I'd hit puberty; she was tall and thin, skin and bones, almost. She disliked the curves in my body, commenting on them as if they were something unnatural. Mother had been extremely thin, as well, and Anna liked to say that she was certain that I had been secretly adopted, because I didn't have the blonde hair and the angular frame that the rest of my family shared.
'And another, thing: you'll need to bathe before you come out; you smell foul.'
I rolled my eyes, taking a detour to the bathroom, my damp body barely covered by the thin cotton gown that Henriette had pulled off me during the night.
After my bath, I discarded the gown and walked into the living room to find Anna pacing the floor behind Bina, who was sitting in a chair, stitching a hem into something white.
'Well, come on, step up,' Anna commanded, ordering me around like a dog.
I followed her orders, stepping up into a chair, and waited for her next instructions.
'Your hair's still wet... you'll ruin the fabric... here, use this,' she handed me a remnant of linen or some other rough cloth.
I squeezed the last of the water from my hair, staring out of the window while Anna smoothed the fabric of my half-prepared dress. I stood in nothing but my underwear, and I covered my bosom with the damp cloth, so that Anna wouldn't fuss at me about that as well.
'Will you hurry it up, Anna?' I complained, beginning to sweat from standing in the chair. 'I can feel the beginnings of a nose bleed.'
'We would have had this finished by now if you'd have been this cooperative from the beginning...'
I turned away from her again, leaning carefully to scratch my leg. When I stood up, Olu was standing in the doorway, peering in. He stared up at me, wrinkling his snub nose at my undressed form. I stared back at him, watching his dark face form a smirk. He darted his eyes to Anna, briefly, then looked back to me, making me wonder if he would scold me, too, for standing open to the world in nothing but my knickers and a piece of cloth covering my breasts.
Before I could say anything, Anna, who had been talking to Bina all of this time, walked over to the door and slammed it in Olu's face. She gave me a look of suspicion, as if I'd previously arranged it to have Olu come to see me half-naked.
'This is what comes of you spending so much time with Henriette. You'd better watch yourself, Liv. You won't be able to get properly married if you keep that up.'
'What are you talking about?' I stepped down from the chair after Bina helped me into the newly stitched dress.
Anna, heedless of Bina's presence, said, 'You let him look at you. I watched you. You liked it...'
'What is so wrong with that? Isn't it natural?' I asked, remembering something that Henriette had said to me.
'No, it isn't. Not for you...'
'You play so well, Olivia. You'll do well on the world stage,' Henriette sat on the old sofa in the music room, as we called it, listening as I practiced.
'I wish you'd have been one of my instructors,' I smile.
'I know nothing about music; I only like to listen.'
'My technique is horrible these days; I think I'll need another instructor soon. I've been on my own since I left the States. I suppose that Howard will be available if I go back, but...'
'If? Are you thinking of staying here?'
'I don't know... Miss Peake is still at the house, but I don't know if I'll need her anymore. I'm eighteen, now, and I since I'll be touring, I don't think that there'll be a need for a governess, unless Dad decides to hire her on as a chaperone.'
'A chaperone?' Henriette sniffed. 'You are a woman, Olivia. You don't need a chaperone.'
'Anna says that I do; that's why she's going to travel with me next year.'
'To protect your chastity, no doubt...'
I stopped playing, too distracted to concentrate.
'I'm sorry; I'm distracting you,' Henriette apologized.
'No. It's all right.'
'I just cannot believe the nerve of your sister... She's going to be a married woman, a newlywed, yet she's willing to go traveling the world with you. Will her husband be traveling with you, as well?'
'No. He has work, diamond trading, or something like that...'
'So, she will be away from her new husband, for the better part of a year? Why is she getting married, now?'
'I don't know. Anna's a bit strange.'
'A bit?' Henriette laughed.
I shrugged my shoulders, placing my fingers on the cool, glossy piano keys.
'Mr. Stanley wants to be my manager.'
'That man is sneakier than the devil. You should tell him "no".'
'It's not up to me, really; Dad's making all of the arrangements.'
'You should learn about these things, Mon Amie. It will be better for you in the long run, if you know about the business aspect of your career.'
'Dad's been keeping me abreast of all of it; I guess I just haven't been paying attention like I should.'
'You'll have to watch for men like Monsieur Stanley; he's the proverbial snake in the grass.'
'You don't like him very much, do you?'
'No. I don't.'
I stared at the keys, daydreaming about our night together. Henriette hadn't mentioned it yet, and I was almost afraid to bring it up, for fear that it would prove to have been just a dream.
'Henriette, I wanted to ask you...' I looked around to see if we were alone, 'about last night...'
'Yes?' she gazed at me with her light brown eyes.
'Was it the first time that you ever...'
'No.'
'Did you like it?'
'Of course. I wouldn't have done it if I hadn't liked it.'
'But... I never got the chance to...'
'That is not always necessary, Mon Amie. Sometimes we receive the ultimate pleasure from giving pleasure to others. You'll soon learn what I mean.'
Supper was a strained affair. Anna was there, staring at her plate with her thin lips pursed. Henriette was brimming with conversation, telling my father about all of the things that had changed in France since she'd been back. Olu, usually astute and attentive, seemed to be in a fog, mechanically eating his meal without contributing much to the conversation. I sat staring at Henriette, dreamy eyed and lustful, wishing that I could feel her moist skin on my face again.
Olu had been distracted all through my French lesson that day, failing to catch the usual mistakes in my accent and my vocabulary. He'd actually cut the lesson short, saying that he had to catch up on research for my father's project. I could tell that something else was on his mind, but I didn't question him about it, not wanting to anger him.
'Anna,' Dad looked at her, in another attempt to cheer her up. 'Will Mark be coming to visit again before the wedding?'
'I don't know. He has another trip...'
'Well, send him word that he's welcome to stay again.'
'I've already done that, Dad.'