Passion In James County XIX: Family Affairs
Chapter forty
Mary and Matt were lying on her bed necking when they heard Ricky's car stop outside the house.
"Ricky's home," Mary told Matt.
"I know. I guess that means I've got to go to my room," he replied, looking a little glum.
"I'm afraid so," Mary said. She kissed her young lover, then she watched as he got up, slipped on a robe, walked over and unlocked her bedroom door, then headed through the bathroom that connected their two rooms. She sighed. Somehow, she had to figure out a way she wouldn't have to sleep alone. And she didn't like the way she and Matt had to sneak around behind Ricky's back, either. She knew there were people who would never understand or accept her relationship with Matt, but she hoped Ricky would. She just wished she knew some way she could explain her relationship with Matt to Ricky that her son would understand.
She heard the door close downstairs as Ricky came in, then his footsteps on the stairs. Then there was a soft knock at her door.
"Mom, can I talk to you?" he asked softly, sticking his head in the door.
Mary was surprised. She couldn't remember the last time her son had wanted to talk to her. "Certainly, Ricky, come in," she said.
When Rick walked in, Mary noticed that his eyes were red and puffy, as if he'd been crying. "What's the matter, honey?" She got up and gave him a hug. "You look like you've been crying."
"Mom, do...do you think I...I'm just like Dad?" her son asked.
"What do you mean, honey?" Mary asked. She led her son to the bed and both of them sat down.
Ricky shrugged. "I'm not sure," he said. "Mom, what kind of person am I?"
"I think you're a pretty special kid," Mary said. She wasn't sure what Ricky was getting at and didn't want to take a chance on upsetting him.
"Yeah, but Matt is the only real friend I have," her son noted, "and you know I don't have a girlfriend."
"Well..." Mary paused thoughtfully, "If the truth be known, you can be a bit self-centered, sometimes. And you know how I always scold you about the way you treat girls. Your attitude toward women leaves a lot to be desired as far as I'm concerned."
Rick looked at her and nodded. "I-I think I finally know what you mean," he said softly.
"I've always believed that one of the reasons you don't have a girlfriend is that you use girls for your own satisfaction," Mary said. "You don't give them anything in return." She knew she was being pretty hard on her son, but she wanted to be sure he understood how she felt.
"I know," Ricky said. "I treated Dianna Hillman like crap. You know, she's really a nice kid. Maybe, tomorrow, I can talk with her in school and see if she'll go out with me on a real date."
Mary mussed her son's hair. "Maybe there is hope for you," she said, happy to see this change in attitude.
"I hope so," Ricky said. "I love Dad, but I'm not sure I want to be just like him." He stood up. "You think Den's still up?" he asked.
"Ah...no, I don't think he is," Mary lied. "He...he went to bed some time ago. He...he was tired because we spent a lot of time over at his house, getting things cleaned up."