On the way home from Boundless Waves on Friday evening, Anne was sitting next to Denise on the train. They were alone in that part of the carriage. She turned to Denise and thanked her, saying, "You made a big difference to the outcome, first by setting up and running the computers, then by making sure I wasn't disturbed by 'support calls' from Ken and Sid. You stayed late with me those nights when we were running those tests – which worked, thank God! – and finally, perhaps most importantly, Denise, you always give me much-needed moral support. Thank you very much for your help with all of that."
Denise waved a hand, and just smiled. Anne realized how much she enjoyed seeing that smile, something that Denise had been too tired for recently. Come to that, Anne had been too tired to do much more than just
exist
for several weeks, now.
Anne knew that she couldn't have kept going much longer. It was only because the last couple of weeks had been fairly simple test-and-record sessions that she'd managed. Now, maybe, they would be able to able to relax... some. Oh, there'd be more work, she knew. That wouldn't stop. Soon, she'd have to think about a successor product. But for now she could go back to working
sensible
hours.
"How about you, Denise?" she asked. Denise looked at her, unable to fathom her meaning. "I mean, will you be able to cut back to normal hours, now?"
"Oh, I wondered what you were thinking about. I expect so, but there'll always be the last minute calls, and the teleconferences. I'm surprised Ken didn't ask me to stay behind tonight, actually, in case something went wrong."
"I think Sid took one look at the two of us and sent us home. If I look as bad as you, we're a pair of extras from a Michael Jackson video."
They sat on the train in silence for a while longer.
"I think, when I get in, I'm gonna have a drink and then nap for a little while," Denise said into the comfortable 'tadat-tadat' of the train running over the tracks. "How about you?"
"That sounds heavenly," Anne replied, sleepily. She closed her eyes and laid her head on Denise's shoulder for a moment. The next thing she knew she was being shaken awake.
"We're here," Denise told her, indicating their station. Her eyes were bright and she was smiling at her friend.
Anne woke up enough to drive them both home, well, to Stan's house. She realised that she was thinking of his home as
her
home, more and more.
As Anne turned off the engine Denise leapt out of the car and raced for the front door. "I'm bursting for the loo!" she told a laughing Anne. "I'll pour us out a drink in a minute. Go and find something for us to listen to, please?"
Anne browsed through Stan's collection, now augmented by discs that she and Denise had brought over. Coming across an old one, she reflected for a moment, then stuck it on.
Denise entered the room to hear a lovely, youthful voice singing:
You could say this was an independent love song
It's nothing like to us what love meant to them
But, that's not to say the love we have isn't big or that strong
I'm doing it a different way
I'm doing it a different way...
"Who's that?" she asked Anne.
"Scarlet. The song's 'Independent Love Song,' it's one of Stan's albums. They were a duo from the late nineties, I think. I remembered this song."
You might say this was another boring love song
To be together and forever be true
And so today it's much the same as it was then
I'm doing it a different way
I'm doing it a different way
Denise sat next to Anne on the sofa, and they both kicked off their shoes as the chorus came:
I'll show you how to take me
Go down go down
And I'll show you how to turn me
Right on right on
And I'll show you how to touch me...
"That's beautiful," Denise said.
"Isn't it?" replied a very sleepy Anne. She laid her head on Denise's shoulder and closed her eyes. She felt Denise's fingers running through her hair, then lightly over her shoulder. It felt comforting, relaxing.
The next thing Anne knew she was waking up, still with Denise's fingers running over her skin, through her hair. The music having stopped, it was obviously some time later.
"Hello there," Denise said, softly, her fingertips never ceasing to caress Anne's shoulder, the top of her arm, sometimes just faintly brushing the skin of her face.
"Hi, Denise," Anne answered, dreamily.
"You really looked so wonderful just lying there," Denise continued in her soft, silky voice. "I didn't have the heart to wake you."
Anne looked up into Denise's eyes and saw the love there. She'd almost done this before, and now she reached up and put a hand behind Denise's head. She pulled her down and kissed her.
Part of Anne was screaming "
NO
" but more, much more of her was encouraging, enjoying, feeling, tasting. Denise was
wonderful
to kiss, she realised. After what seemed like a long time she let Denise draw away a tiny bit.
"Ready to love me this way, now?" the redhead asked, with a lift of the corners of her lips and now a hint of mischief in her eyes.
"I've been ready for a while, Denise, just afraid. I still am, but I'm willing to give it a try." She pulled Denise back into another kiss.
All the while, Anne's emotions were roiling in confusion, but she
knew
that this was something she had to do. She didn't know
why
, but that didn't alter the fact. She registered various physical facts, such as the softness of Denise's kiss, the silky smoothness of the skin on her face, the sweet sensation of Denise's fingers as they now resumed their soft caress of Anne's skin on her shoulder. But these were filed away for now, what she was feeling had nothing to do with that. She felt hot and cold and eager and reluctant and turned on and turned off, all at the same time and all in varying measure so that for an instant one feeling would come to the fore, only to be replaced immediately with another.
Through all of this she felt her love for Denise. It had never before been given physical expression but had grown, created via their common bond with Stan and nurtured by the closeness with which they'd worked together. The unceasing and unselfish support that Anne had received from Denise now allowed it to bloom, full-flowered, gradually washing the fear and the reluctance away, allowing the positive emotions of eagerness and love to take precedence.
She felt a soft touch on her breast, through the material of her top. She paused in her kiss for a moment, and Denise, obviously misinterpreting, pulled her hand away. But Anne reached with her hand and took Denise's hand, placed it back on her breast, and resumed their kiss.
They kept this up for quite a while, with minor variations, before Anne pushed herself up. "I think I want to go upstairs," she told Denise. She was surprised to find herself quite shy all of a sudden. Her face was hot, and she knew that she was blushing furiously. She stood and reached out, taking Denise by the hand, and led her up the stairs.
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Part of Anne, the part that normally took charge, was asking 'Are you out of your
mind
?' while another part of her was simply deeply embarrassed. But her legs kept moving, her hand held onto Denise's and before she knew it she was at the spare bedroom door. She turned to Denise.
"I don't think I want to use Stan's bed," she told her. Denise, smiling, took over and pulled Anne to her. She kissed her, deeply, softly, passionately, and Anne felt her blood pounding.
Denise broke off the kiss and reached to open the door. She walked in and drew Anne, now on leaden feet, after her.
"Anne, we don't have to go any further, or do anything that you're unsure of. But I want you to know that I love you, I've loved you for a long time, and I think you're
so
beautiful it makes my heart ache."
Then Denise sat on the bed, pulling Anne to sit with her. They resumed their kiss, and now Denise's hands were roaming over Anne's body. When she felt fingers running over her nipples, defenceless inside her thin cotton top, she felt them harden and push back against the caress.
Greatly daring, she hesitantly began to run her own fingers over Denise, who purred into Anne's mouth as their tongues played with each other. Denise upped the ante as she reached for the hem of Anne's top with both hands and drew it up, breaking off the kissing for a moment. Anne's breasts, nipples fiercely proud and erect, were revealed to Denise's gaze for the first time.