The morning after the night before was
not
nice, but copious amounts of water and painkillers helped, along with several cups of coffee.
All three gathered in Stan's kitchen, listlessly going through the motions of making breakfast. Finally, Stan said "Hey, we ought to go to
Iorio's
for breakfast. Getting out of the house would do us good, anyway."
"I never thought I'd hear
you
advocating fresh air, Stan!" grumbled Anne, though she had a slight smile on her face.
"He's probably right, though," Denise thought out loud.
"I know. Well, even a stopped clock's right twice a day!" Anne answered, and the two ladies sniggered at Stan
"I'm damned if I'm walking though. It looks freezing outside this morning! I'll take my car," said Stan, ignoring the jibes which only got worse after
that
.
When they entered
Iorio's
Stan was surprised to be greeted by Susan and Elaine.
"I thought you'd be still in bed, Elaine. Up all night partying, and still up and about this morning? I wish I could do that!" he told the diminutive girl.
Elaine looked shyly at Susan. "No, I kinda left the party early. You guys were still there. I wanted to come home to Suze..."
Susan reached over and took her hand. Stan and Anne smiled, and Denise said, "Aww, Ain't love grand!" and had to dodge a piece of breadstick thrown by Susan.
The friends sat together, exchanged news and gossip, sharing who'd been seen with whom at the party. After a while though Susan took Elaine's hand again and said, "You know that there's no formal invitations or anything, but we would both like you guys to come to our ceremony. It'll not be much, but you've all been very supportive, and you're our friends, so
we
want you there."
"Even me, Susan?" Denise said in a very small voice, looking down at her hands on the tabletop.
"
Especially
you, Denise. I think I can safely say, you know us best of all! And, well... I know I probably overreacted to what happened, and I don't want to break the friendship. So yes, we – I – want you to come, Denise."
Denise finally looked up at Susan. As Stan watched Denise, he saw hope flare, then die, eventually to be replaced by acceptance.
"I'd love to come, Susan, Elaine. Thanks," she said, quietly, sincerely. Stan nodded as well. But Anne seemed upset.
"When's it likely to be, Susan?" she asked.
"Probably the second week in February," announced Elaine.
"Oh, God. I don't know if I can make it!" Anne blurted. "I need to explain. I'm almost certainly leaving The Firm – that's not for public consumption, by the way. Not yet. But if it comes off, I'll be working God knows how many hours a day with no time off for good behaviour, or
bad
behaviour, either, Stan, so don't you say it! I'll try, honestly I will, but I just can't promise to be there."
Susan touched Anne's hand briefly. "It's okay, Anne. If you can't make it, we'll understand, but we'd love it if you were."
- - - - - - - - - -
The couple of days before Christmas were an unaccustomed rush for Stan. In previous years, when Caron was still alive, she'd done much of it herself and all Stan had had to do was shop for and
have
her presents store-wrapped. This year was different. He'd already bought the presents for everyone, but
wrapping
them was not something he felt he'd be very good at.
Still and all, it was a job that he felt he had to do, so he did it. Actually, Stan was well pleased at the end. He was looking forward to giving his lovers their presents.
Then there were the cards for his more distant relatives, the aunts and uncles, cousins and so on. They'd all reached the point where the only contact they had was the twice-yearly exchange of Christmas and birthday cards. This was the main thing that Caron had done for him. He'd completely neglected it last year, but now he felt that duty was duty and, after all, they
were
family. So he looked for Caron's old address book.
Stan found it, began to look through it, and was quickly immersed in memories. Caron and he had been to this cottage in Ireland about ten years ago; then they'd corresponded with the owners a few more times. He remembered the cottage well: very Spartan looking on the outside, but inside it had gas-fired central heating, a satellite receiver and much, much more. The beds were large, and comfortable, and
fun
...
Stan spent well over an hour lost in his memories of the time there, and other times when he and Caron had been away together. A holiday in Tenerife which was their
actual
honeymoon, delayed a couple of years; a week in the highlands at another cottage that he'd loved but Caron hadn't; and many and various weekends away to various places.
He was still there, sat in his recliner when Denise came in. "Hi Stan!" she called from the doorway as she hung up her key.
Stan shook himself. "Hi Denise!" he answered, pulling himself together. It was already near dark – where had the
time
gone?
Denise entered the room, and Stan closed the address book, placing it on the coffee table with his uncompleted cards.
She took one look at his face, quickly crossed the room, bending to hug him. "Stan, whatever's the matter?" she asked.
"Oh, nothing really. I just got lost in memories, that's all."
"I'll make us a cup of tea and then you can tell me about it," she said.
A few minutes later, Stan began telling Denise about the cards, and Caron's address book, and then the memories it had invoked. She let him talk, interjecting a careful question every now and then to keep him going when he faltered. By the end Stan felt desperately tired. It seemed to him that Denise had shouldered a lot of the grief that he'd felt that afternoon. It wasn't completely
gone
, of course – he knew it probably never would – but he felt better, lighter somehow.
He looked up at the pretty red haired face and asked, for the first time, "Was there something you wanted, Denise?"
"Yes, actually, Stan. But you obviously needed to share that first, it's okay. But you do realise, it's way past the last posting date for cards?
That fact had
obviously
been lost on Stan. Denise's eyes twinkled, and she said, "Better late than never, Stan. Family is important. You can always blame the Post Office – just get them into the post as soon as you can."
Then Denise's face sobered, "Um, I wanted to ask if you minded if I made myself scarce this evening."
"Of course not, but...
why
?" Stan asked. 'Is it another woman – or worse, another
man
?' he thought, his anxiety rising.
"Anne. I thought it would be a good idea for you to spend some time with her... alone," she said. Stan couldn't help the sigh of relief that came out, and Denise looked at him quizzically.
"What? Oh, nothing – just me being silly. Um, yes, of course, Anne," Stan spluttered out in embarrassment. Denise just kept looking at him, with deceptive calm. Stan realized he had better head off a storm. "I thought you'd maybe found another woman," he admitted, feeling a partial truth was the best thing in the circumstances.
Denise said, with a tinge of bitterness, "Hah! As if. I'm afraid
that
side of me has had to go into hibernation for a while. No, I was thinking about you and Anne. When
was
the last time you two made love?"
Stan spluttered some more. "I-I can't remember, actually," he told his lover – his
other
lover, he reminded himself.
"There you are then!" Denise cried, triumphantly.
"This has to be the weirdest conversation I've had," Stan said. "Being told off by my girlfriend for not making enough love to my
other
girlfriend!"