I love Paul very much, but something kept going around and around in my mind. I think it was his references to my former life, in our role play where I was a prostitute and he was one of my clients, and the fact that he seemed to actually be turned on by it. It was getting harder to tell where the fantasy ended and serious desire began? The power of suggestion is very strong. Paul had planted seed of an idea in my subconscious, and it was climbing up the sides of my conscious thoughts like ivy on a brick wall.
I feel that it's important to be true to myself. There's nothing shameful about loving to fuck. It's the most natural act in the world and it makes one feel so unbelievably good. I'd been on various chat rooms, etc, talking anonymously about who I am and my experiences as a prostitute. This generated a lot of interest, as you can imagine.
One day, after about a year together with Paul, I was curious about what it would be like, if I could go back in time. Finally I succumbed to temptation. And so I set a thing up with a couple of guys I'd been talking to, business men types. I offered myself to do a three way with them, for $500 each.
We met in the bar of a hotel out by the airport, while Paul was at work. I made them pay for the hotel room, of course, and asked if I could go upstairs by myself, to get ready. When I opened the door and greeted them I was in my old work uniform -- garters, stockings and heels, pushup bra, G-string panties, sheer ankle length robe - and those guys were slobbering like hungry wolves.
They told me I was sexy, they told me I was hot. I told them my limits; no scat, no rough stuff. Everything else was on limits. I told them they did not have to wear condoms but please do not cum in me, only on me.
These men led me over to the sofa where I was stripped down to just my garters, stockings and heels. They ran their hands all over my body while I stroked them, first through their trousers, then as the clothes came off I took turns sucking them both, going back and forth from one to the other as they stood in front of me. It was like a scene in a pornographic movie.