Chapter Three - The Duchess
'I don't understand. It was nothing like any dream I've had before; it was clearer and the details were complete. It was real and I was that woman. Yet I can't believe it was true - that it was what you expected.'
'Take your time and tell me about it.'
For several minutes Bina stares at her hands where they rest folded in her lap then, her tone low and faltering, she starts to recount the story of the night. Peter, troubled by her tale, reaches out to cover her hands with his. As she comes to an end he leans and takes her in his arms, comforting her.
'My poor dear. I never imagined it would be like that. No wonder you're upset.'
'It's not so much upset as confused. I was taken and enjoyed in ways I'd always dreamt of, ways I'd prayed for a man to possess me. Yet it wasn't what I'd imagined. It was fine when I fantasised it, but as reality it was odious, although I still wanted it. Perhaps because I felt powerless to stop it - I had no choice but to submit. I'm no longer sure of what I want. . . . and now my mind tells me I should be satiated with sex, yet my body says nothing has happened to it. It's aroused, it's waiting, it wants to be used.'
'I don't know what to say.' To cover his uncertainty he gets up and moves to the cabinet in the corner. 'I think this calls for a drink. Brandy all right?'
'I guess so.'
As she stretches an arm and takes the drink from him she looks deep in his eyes. Then, almost bemused she looks at the glass, throws her head back, drains it in one gulp and sets it on the small coffee table.
'Make love to me Peter. Hide the memory. Make me new.' Standing, automaton like, she starts to undress. First her blouse, then her bra fall to the floor in front of her. A quick thrust down and her slacks and thong join them on the carpet. Naked she falls back onto the couch, reaches out and grasps the waist band of his jeans with one hand while with her other she cups and gently squeezes his balls, before sliding her fingers up over the edge and down inside to find his bare flesh.
'Wait.' His cock is hardening within her caressing grasp as he undoes the belt and lets his pants fall around his ankles. Twisting to the side he sits next to her.
Does he really understand her need - her need not just to be given reassurance and affection, but to be in control of events. It seems he does. Without saying a word he leans forward and fastens his lips to hers, his hand gently cupping an uptilted breast. Lightly his fingertips stroke the soft swell, move to its rigid point and trace the large brown aureole. His lips move lower to graze on her firm flesh, replacing his hand which glides down to the fine bush between her legs. Then he is kissing her breasts, licking and biting her nipples. She pulls his head to her, suckling him like a baby. Abruptly he moves lower still to place kisses around her pussy and down her inner thighs.
'Now, take me now.' She spreads her arms and grips the back of the couch. He briefly licks her clit then his mouth is back pressed against her closed eyes as he gently pushes the tip of his cock into her tight tube.
Wrapping her arms around his neck Sabbina happily moans and lifts her hips to take him deep. The feel of him filling her, kissing her, gently loving and arousing her, brings contentment and slowly eases her trauma. He leisurely, almost languidly, pumps in and out bringing her to climax after climax as her body gradually harmonises with her mind. By the time he finally comes she feels complete and whole again. Comforted and reassured she lies in his arms.
'Thank you, Peter darling.'
'It's no more than you deserve. I asked a lot from you, and I'm going to ask again. You're worthy of all I can give.'
'You want me to try again?'
'Please. If you feel you can. But if you can't I'll understand.'
'For you I'll try once more. But not tonight, let me have a night off to recover.'
'Of course. We'll go out to dinner and after you can come back and spend the night in my bed.'
-ooOoo-
Whether it is consideration for Sabbina, or whether it was his anxiety to make the experiment a success Peter is not sure, but he lets a couple of nights go by before accompanying her back to the mirrored chamber.
As the electrodes are again fastened to her scalp she is nervous, apprehensive that she will find herself once more subject to the demands of the Duke's secretary. Ready, she shuts her eyes and wills herself to sleep. Imagines herself again in the arms of the Bastard Duke. Imagines ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
The priest intoned the familiar 'ashes to ashes' and Serena let the roses fall from her hand onto the coffin. Furtively she wiped away a tear. It was not proper for a Duchess to be seen to weep for a servant, even one as close and solicitous as Lucia had been.