There was a world out there beyond perception, a world in darkness, and we had the misfortune to find it. But, looking back, I think maybe it found us.
***
The door flew open. It was Liz. "Shopping, bitches!" she yelled.
I winced as my ears took the abuse. Liz had no inside voice.
"Fuck that noise," Dan muttered, his eyes never leaving Halo 3. He looked terrible, all scraggly and bearded, but then, twenty-four straight hours of blazing and staring at a TV will do that.
Sara and I looked up from a furious game of War, in which she held most of the cards. We were playing two-deck to make things interesting. I considered Liz's eager face, with her large eyes, cute button nose, and fair complexion, and I wondered how such a diminutive girl could make such a big sound. Then, surveying the carnage on the table, I declared, "I'm in!"
Sara's lips twitched in the barest hint of a smile. "Are you waving the white flag, Katie?"
I studied the girl across from me. Dark hair, blue eyes, and a brilliant mind. Sara was coolly competent in all facets of life. People often mistook her reserved demeanor for arrogance, but those of us who knew her knew better. She was simply cut from different cloth than the rest of us. I smiled and said, "You have my unconditional surrender."
Her eyes twinkled. "Good."
Liz blurted, "Focus, people! Sidewalk sales!"
"Coming, Dan?" I asked.
"No way."
"Aww. If you come with us, I'll buy you a comic book."
"Nope."
"Two comic books?"
"Nope."
"Five comic books?"
"Let's roll."
"But you have to put on fresh clothes, first."
"Aww, okay."
***
As per usual, we flitted from store to store while Dan trailed behind us, carrying our bags. We loved this arrangement, and I think secretly he did, too. We got to shop unencumbered, and he got to look smug and act like he had three girls hanging all over him. We played along; it was the least we could do.
I smiled and thought back to the genesis of our friendship. It was freshman year, and we were all stuck in Intro Communications together. The first day of class, our professor assigned groups by counting heads, and it so happened Dan, Liz, Sara and I were all sixes. We hit it off immediately, grumbling about COM 101 at first, then grumbling about various other things. Our friendships grew, and so when sophomore year rolled around, it seemed a natural progression for us to throw in together on a four-bedroom house. Buh-bye, dorms!
Fast-forward three years, and lots of laughs, adventures, misadventures, boyfriends, girlfriends, ups, and downs, and we were still together, tighter than ever. When I came out to them about my transsexualism, they supported me, kept my chin up, and helped me begin all over again. And I loved them for that.
Now graduation was looming and our futures were uncertain. The economy was quite awful in our state, and jobs were scarce. It seemed more likely with each passing day that the crew might have to scatter to find employment. The prospect filled me with an unspeakable dread. So, I tried not to think about it.
C'mon Katie, I chided myself, it's a beautiful day and you're in good company. There is no future, only the present. Nothing else matters. So enjoy it! I took a deep breath and exhaled, feeling somewhat better after the internal pep talk.
After we exhausted the more commercial stores on the main strip, we ducked into the alleys and back streets to sample more eclectic shops. Bohemia, bacchaparaphernalia, and used books. I could see Dan perking up already. Suddenly, he stopped and pointed. "What is THAT?"
We looked, and beheld a dragon. Oh, not a live one, but a magnificent stone representation, serving as the faΓ§ade of a four story building. It must've stood fifteen feet at the withers, with a long sinuous neck set upon those powerful shoulders, leading to a muzzle full of jagged teeth and glaring malevolent eyes like chips of obsidian. I looked into those eyes and shuddered.
"In-flipping-credible," whispered Liz, who had never whispered in her life.