Prologue
Darla Padgett cried as she thought about all that pain that she had been through, and to her, as a shooting star went across the sky she whispered to herself, "even the stars were passing judgment on me."
In the cemetery, near Eddie's grave, and hours before the train to Montreal was scheduled to leave and take her away forever, young Darla lay in the chill darkness of the Great White North, staring despondently at the all-seeing firmament above her. How could she have made such an utter mess of her life in only 19 short years? Where was the childhood she'd longed to live... the budding promise of womanhood soon to come? What was her future?
She scanned the earth below. The Northern Lights seemed a million miles from where she thought she'd be tonight, a million miles from Jean Paul, and even further from the cemetery where dear, vulnerable Eddie lay cold in an early grave, and Bobby, who somehow never forgave her for never coming back. She felt empty, hollowed out, alone. As she looked at the barren tundra desert stretching outward toward infinity, she couldn't help but wonder...where did it all go wrong? When had her world become such an unbearable place in which to live? When had it all turned to dust?
As she gazed toward the infinity, her mind began to wander to more pleasant thoughts, like the day a few years ago, when she left the doctor's office flushed with excitement of her own sexual awakening. As she lay there, she pulled down her jeans and pulled up her sweatshirt and fingered herself as she remembered in vivid detail about that day she learned what sexual pleasure was all about...
Shy and modest in all regards; despite her outgoing personality and dreams of traveling the world, Darla, at age 17, had been raised in a very strict, though at times often abusive puritan family. Her god mother, Sofia, who had made an appointment to take her in, told her that they would be going to see Dr. Redding, who was in fact, unbeknownst to Darla, her god mother's lover. She was getting ready to join the cheer leading squad at school, and for this she needed to get a physical done and have an approval from her doctor that she was in good health.
Darla, who only had female physicians in the past, was a bit nervous about going, but her god mother assured her that it would be fine, and with a wink and a smile told her that Doctor Redding was very gentle and was very thorough.
Darla and her god mother, who was an attractive 35 year old nurse, arrived at the doctors office a few minutes before the appointment. While they waited, Darla and Sofia sat and talked as they waited to be called back to see the doctor.
"Darla, no matter what happens inside the examining room, just relax, and know it is all ok. This is the same kind of exam I got when I was your age. It is something every girl should do."Sofia said with a mischievous smile. A few minutes later, Darla was called back, and her god mother went with her.
When they walked in the room a nurse was there, who said, "Darla, I need you to undress, including your bra and panties, and then put on this gown. Dr. Redding with be with you in a moment."
The nurse left and Darla proceeded to change out of her clothes and into the gown.
There was a knock on the door, and Dr. Redding came in.
"Good morning Sofia."" Good morning, Darla. How are you today?"
"I'm fine."
"She is a bit nervous about the exam Dr. Redding, but I have reassured her that everything will be fine."Sofia said.
"Well good then, lets get started."Dr. Redding said.
" Darla, I need you to sit up on the table for me. I normally would have my assistant in her, but since your god mother is staying she does not need to be in here."
Darla sat up on the table with her legs dangling off the side.
"Darla we are going to start off by me checking your ears, nose and throat, and then your breathing."
Darla sat there while Dr. Redding proceeded to look into her ears, nose and throat. Then he listened to her breathing from her back.
"Very good Darla, now I want you lay back on the table. When you do I need you to open up the gown."
Dr. Redding could see a very nervous look on her face.
"It will be ok, we just need to do a breast exam on you. It is very important that all girls check their breasts once a month, and I am going to teach you how to do that."
Darla looked up at Sofia, and her god mother gave her a comforting smile.
Darla laid back on the table and let her gown fall open.
Dr. Redding moved next to her.
"Just relax Darla, and if you want keep your eyes closed, if that will help you any."
Darla laid there with her eyes closed, shaking inside.
Dr. Redding took his hand and placed it on her breast. He slowly massaged her breasts in circular motions.
"You are going to feel me add a little pressure as I go Darla, I need to make sure there are no lumps inside you."
He continued to work his hands around her breasts.
"Now Darla, I need to make sure that your body has the right response to stimulation. It is very important that we make sure your body is working the correct way."
When he finished saying that he glided his fingers over her nipples. He started rubbing her nipples under his hand. They started to grow hard like little pebbles.
As Darla's "exam" began, Sofia could not help but get turned on at the site of her beautiful god daughter. Darla was beautiful and sexy beyond words, and as her god mother, she felt it was her duty to introduce her, in the absence of her real mother, about the joys of sex.
"Very good Darla. You are being a very good girl. Your body is reacting just the way it should."
"Now, I am going to add more pressure to see what happens."
He took her nipples between his fingers and gently began to squeeze.
Darla looked over at her god mother.
"It is ok dear, just relax and let the doctor do his job."
Dr. Redding continued to squeeze on her nipples. He would tug at them a little bit. He could see Darla starting to squirm. She could not see the smile on his face because of the medical mask he wore.
"Darla, your body is acting just like it should. Every time I squeeze your nipples or pull at them, I can see your whole body reacting. That is very good. So far, I think you are a very healthy girl."
"Now I need to massage your stomach to make sure there is no pain. While I do that I am going to have your god mother help me out. She is going to continue massage your breasts and nipples. I want to make sure your body is stimulated the right way, so we can have a complete evaluation of you."
Sofia then stood up and came next to the exam table where Darla laid.
As Dr. Redding started to feel around her stomach, Sofia started to cup her breasts, while Darla kept her eyes closed tightly. She was starting to get a funny feeling through her whole body, something she had never felt before.
"Sofia, make sure you are massaging her nipples, squeezing them and tugging at them. I need to make sure your god daughter's body is one hundred percent functioning correctly."
With that, Sofia started to roll Darla's nipples between her fingers.
Dr. Redding proceeded to check her stomach.
"Very good Darla. It seems everything is in working order so."
"Now, Darla what I need you to do is scoot down to the end of the table. Bring your legs up and move down as far as you can. It is time to move onto the next part of the exam."
"You are going to find your body will probably do things that you have not experienced before, and that is ok. If everything is working right, then you will feel sensations that are new and exciting to you."
Dr. Redding moved down to the end of the table, and pulled over a tray next to him that was covered by a sheet.
He uncovered the tray. The first thing he picked up was a pair of latex gloves. Darla could him stretching them over his hands, and then heard them snap.
"Darla, please spread your legs open a bit more for."
