This is a rewrite of a previously published work. There is a lot of new content in it, but it is not wholly new content. There will be new chapters coming.
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In my sleep, I stretched out and my hand brushed across something warm and smooth.
I slid my hand up and heard a soft catch of breath. I opened my eyes and blinked a few times. Meryl was sitting cross-legged in front of me, as bare as the day she was born. Her black hair was drawn behind her back. She was somewhere in between thin and voluptuous, with nice hips and a taut, but undefined stomach, and breasts that were more than a handful but not by much.
My eyes trailed down below her stomach to a small, thin patch of carefully manicured hair froze, not daring to go any further. Or register that I could see more. She was leaning back, not hiding anything. I lifted my head a bit and saw that my hand was between her legs and had brushed across her gender. I blinked and jerked my hand away. She pouted down at me, breathing deeply, sending her breasts up and down, which only caught my eye because of the angle. Honestly. She edged closer to me and murmured "You're a little more aggressive in the morning."
"I uh, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to! I didn't know you were there!" I sputtered, backing up. She giggled at me before putting a finger to my lips. She leaned in, moved it away slowly, and kissed me. I whimpered but leaned into the kiss. It was only for a moment and I wanted it to be longer. Which surprised me. But she broke it off and started crawling out of the bed. "W-what are you doing here? I locked the door."
"Oh, Johann, you sure do know how to make a girl feel wanted." The queen said as she was pulling on her dress. "Also, darling, locking the door didn't work at your home, why would it work in my castle?"
"I didn't mean... I mean..." I tried to gather my thoughts. It was pretty difficult, since all of my blood was concentrated elsewhere. She was taking her time getting dressed and the view was glorious. It didn't occur to me for a full moment that she was flaunting herself. "I... Why were you naked?"
"It's how I sleep." I thought about that for a moment. I also slept naked. I also slept naked. I looked down and wrapped up tightly in the blanket and looked away. She laughed musically. "It's not the first time I've seen you like that, husband. And it won't be the last. Not if I have anything to say about it." She did nothing to conceal the hunger in those words.
"We... W-we're not married." I had to swallow before I could get the sentence out.
"Details." She said with a dismissive wave of her hand. "Are you going to join me for court today again?" After a moment, she added, "Emilia won't be there this time." I didn't know why that mattered, but it was a shame.
"Oh. No, I have some things I want to do in town today." I said, absently. I started to get out of bed and hunt for clothes as well, finding my normal tunic that the maid must've cleaned and sewn back together. I didn't exactly understand how the Head Maid fit into this arrangement that I had been volunteered for, but I was a little curious. "Where's Emilia?"
"Also running errands in town. Said she had a couple of things to pick up. What are you going to do in town?" Her voice was a little strained on the question.
"Well, I can't just follow you around all day." I tried to sound nonchalant. "I-if I'm going to be here, I need to find work. I need something to do."
"You have something to do!" She all but shouted, a little redness invading her cheeks. "You are to be around here and help me with things! And Carmella. And Emilia."
"You're a queen." I couldn't keep the puzzlement off of my face. Or out of my tone. "She's a knight. And Emilia's... a maid. Still not really sure how she fits into this. Or how I do! I'm a blacksmith. What help could I be?"
"You helped me yesterday with that other blacksmith." She mumbled, a little defensively.
"You already knew what to do. I just told you a little about ores." Worry played on her face and she looked away. I took a step closer. "Besides, it's not like I'm going far. I'll be back tonight for dinner. What's this about? Do you expect me to be by your side constantly?"
She frowned at me and her face screwed up as she tried to sort her thoughts. Yesterday she was never speechless. She knew how to navigate every situation in an instant. The perfect picture of a ruler from a story. Eloquent and kind, even handed and graceful, beautiful and intelligent. And yet, at this moment, she was pouting like a child being told no for the first time. She's the queen. She very well may have never been denied before, I thought. And it is awfully adorable.
"I... You've been so resistant to the idea of being around me. I guess I'm just afraid tha-" I laughed. I could not help it. Her pale face flushed red as she glared at me, balling her fists. "What!? What's funny about this? I'm serious. You ran away! And you want to go work as a blacksmith instead of being an adviser! Many men would beg me for an opportunity like this! Especially with everything I-I'm offering!" Despite the anger in her tone, her face was screwed up in a pout.
I took her in; her red face, her shouting, her trembling lip. She had crawled into my bed naked without a hint of embarrassment but this was too much for her. That thought gave me pause. She was offering herself... and so much more. And I did run away. I sat down on the bed and gestured to the spot next to me. "Come here. I... I want to talk about this for a moment. If you have the time."
She continued to try and roast me alive with her eyes until I moved a little bit and patted the bed next to me. She stiffened her back and raised her nose into the air. When she spoke, her tone was that of the haughty ruler she was in the court. "I am a queen. I have the time for everything that is necessary. If other people wait on me all the better."
I waited until she sat next to me. I took her hands in mine and looked at her. "My reticence has nothing to do with you." My eyes fell down to her hands, which looked small in mine. But I'd seen them do the impossible; I knew she was more dangerous than I could ever be. So much more impressive. "You're amazing; beautiful, smart, and capable of things I can scarcely imagine. All of you are. It's more that I just feel I don't belong here. You brought me here into this world. One I know nothing about; a world of politics that I don't understand. Your world is bigger than I am. And so are you."
"Are you calling me fat?" She looked at me accusingly, but I think I saw her mouth twitch as she tried not to smile.
"What? No!" I said quickly, shaking my head, choosing to play into her prodding. "You're more important than I am. You're a queen. Lady Carmella is the First Knight. Even Emilia is this amazing cleric. And a maid, I guess. A maid who answers directly to the queen. And I'm just..."
I gestured to myself dismissively. She grabbed my hand and got closer to my face until it encapsulated my entire vision. "You are my future husband. Carmella's future husband, if she'll have you. Emilia's... Uh, well, that's a little more... Emilia's charge. Her lord. Yeah. That's what you are."
"I'm never going to understand what you're talking about, am I?" I asked more to myself than actually to her. She responded with a shrug and a small smile. And that small gesture was almost enough to make my lack of understanding okay. Almost. "There are two things about this that I don't think you really understand."
"Oh?" She raised a haughty eyebrow. How she can switch like that boggles the mind. I found myself smiling at her, knowing that at least part of it was an act. "Please, explain."
"I- uh," I stopped at her look and started to organize my words more clearly. "I didn't mean it like that. It's just that I uh... I was never really consulted about this. You decided that I'm your husband-to-be and Carmella's, which I don't think she even likes me, much less..." I let my voice trail off. Meryl's eyes twinkled brightly with a smugness that only comes from knowing something that other people don't. I pressed on, "And Emilia's... Whatever. And I'm sitting here wondering why."
"Because I'm your queen. And because you're mine." Her words tried to affect her courtly authority, but she said them a little too quickly. "That's all there is to it."
"But why me?" I asked, watching her face, for any weakness,
"Because I chose you. There might have been others that could have done it, but I saw you and I thought to myself, 'He's the one'." There was no doubt in that statement. She seemed perfectly sure that this was a fact of the universe. And some of my doubts crumbled under that certainty. She continued, "I brought in Carmella and she liked you better than anyone else we had looked at."
"What if I'm not comfortable with that?" I asked, not moving away. My fingers unconsciously gripped her hands a little more tightly. Nothing that would hurt her, but it did seem to make honest the lie I was trying to pass off. "What if I don't want to be your husband?"
She leaned in and kissed me again. I returned it. We stayed like that for a moment. After the kiss broke, she muttered against my lips, "You do, though."
"I d-do" I muttered before I realized what I had said, then I cleared my throat and continued, "I... I'm not opposed to the idea, but it's certainly not something I expected."
She reached under the blanket and grabbed my length which had hardened during the kiss and grinned. She gripped it a little more roughly than I think she intended. Or maybe it was the fact that I jumped and tried to get out of her grip. She laughed and got up, adjusting her dress. "I had to get even. You touched me. Now I've touched you."