ENTRY 11
I messed up. I have been so proud of myself for holding the line. Since my road trip to Atlanta, I have barely done anything out of line. I went underground and avoided everybody. The cheerleading season is over so practices and meetings have been minimal and the events have dried up.
Word got out around some of the football team about what I did and I was approached several times in the next few days by other guys looking to hook up. I was able to politely say no without any negative consequences. Jamies and Vance tried to hook up with me again, but I told them I had a boyfriend and that I only did that to preserve our school reputation and to save their asses. The respected my choice.
Tiffany has been calling me constantly, but I finally just pled sick and have been avoiding seeing her. I saw her at school a few times but kept telling her I did not feel well. It was so lengthy she asked me if I was pregnant. I'm not of course digital diary. That would require me to actually have sex with someone.
It has been nearly two months since I have had sex with a person, male or female. Chet is away on a lengthy work opportunity or something. I have not seen him in forever. Daniel has been living at school pretty much. He is trying to finish some major project. His words to me were, "Candace if I can finish this project this school term it lines me up to get accepted for an internship at the surgical center downtown. No rising sophomore has ever gotten that. It would be huge for me and huge for our future."
No sex with Chet. No sex with Daniel. I have been avoiding Tiffany. And I turned down all the offers from the players and went underground. I have been trying to keep myself satisfied with my toys, but they really aren't cutting it anymore. But I have been willing to make the short-term sacrifice.
A week ago I got up in the morning and Daniel was already gone and out of the house like usual. I walked into the kitchen and on the counter was an envelope. I opened the envelope and inside there was a card. It was a very sweet hallmark card from Daniel. There was also a smaller envelope and a letter. I read the handwritten letter, telling me that he loved me and that he appreciated all the support and understanding I have given him. He apologized for being gone so much. He promised to show me how much he appreciated me when he is done with the school term. But for now, I should go enjoy some relaxation on him.
I open the other envelope and in it was a gift certificate to a spa downtown. It said it was good for a full service massage. I thought that meant that I would be getting everything massaged from my head to my toes. It has been a long time since I have had a massage. I was super excited. I texted him and let him know that I got his note and that I loved him too.
I called to schedule the appointment right away. They told me that they had a slot open that very afternoon. I booked it. It seemed odd to have to book an entire 3-hour time slot, but that is what they needed for the appointment. I did some homework in the morning and then took a long shower cleaning myself thoroughly.
I got to the place for my appointment. The lady up front gave me one of those big teethy smiles when she looked up my appointment. She commented, "Oh my. A full service massage." She said it emphasizing all of the words as if they all had some extra meaning. She continued, "Oh and it is with Zach. I love Zach. I would kill to hook up with Zach. Lucky you."
In hindsight, she was giving clues, but I was not paying much attention to her. She led me to a room with a massage table in the middle and a number of chairs and small tables with supplies. The lighting, music, and incense were all there for ambiance. She said, "Drop your things over there, get completely undressed and put a robe on. Zach will be with you momentarily. I think he is in the shower."
I got myself ready wondering why Zach needed to take a shower before seeing me. But I will never complain about a man wanting to be clean, especially before touching me.
I was sitting in a chair in my robe when there was a slight knock on the door. It opened and in walked a gorgeous man. I mean gorgeous. He was wearing gym shorts and a tight workout shirt. He was tanned and very well built with muscles popping out in all the right places. He was clean-shaven and had a million dollar smile in the middle of a very handsome face.
When he came in he smiled and said, "Hello beautiful. I am so glad you made an appointment with me today."
I smiled back and replied, "I am very much looking forward to my massage."
"Have you had a full service massage here before?"
I told him no. He replied, "Ok. Well at a high level, I am going to do a ton of things to make you feel amazing. When I do something you especially like just tell me you want more of it. If I do something you don't like just tell me and I won't do it again. But I am going to keep doing things and pushing the envelope until you tell me to stop okay?"
I think I only heard the words do things to make me feel good and I could ask for more of it. I thought about just asking him to massage my feet for the next hour. I ended up telling him okay and that we could get started.
He held his hand out and guided me out of my chair and over to the table. He pulled the tie on my robe and undid it, walked behind me and pulled it off of my body. As he walked away with it, he asked me to lie face down on the table. At first I was taken aback by the nonchalant demeanor of my masseuse, but I figured I should just go with it. He is a professional and if he gets to see my butt, so what.
Zach started with my feet and quickly moved to my calves. He spent quite a bit of time working on my calves. He stretched my feet and my shins out as he massaged them. It was a little painful at first but dreamy soon after. He moved my legs apart and used a small roller on my hamstrings before kneading them with his hands. He used a lot of oil and his fingers worked out any tension I had in my legs.
I was quite shocked at what happened next. He crawled up on the table and straddled my butt. As I was considering whether I should say something he addressed my worry, "I climb up here to get leverage. This angle is the best position for your shoulders and your scapula." He squirted a bunch of oil on my back and started a deep tissue massage on my back and shoulders. However unconventional it seemed, it was amazing.
As he moved his hands down my back, I could feel him moving down as well. I had a brief moment where I though I felt his package resting on my ass. But I think it passed as he hit a sore spot on my right side.
Zach moved down again. He was now sitting on my legs hovering over my knees. He squirted some oil right on my ass. I yelped a little. He apologized and started massaging my lower back. Within a couple minutes he moved his hands down to my ass and started massaging my ass. At first I was weirded out but I'll admit that it felt really good. I knew he was a professional so I let it go.
Zach continued to massage my ass. He added a little more oil and it ran down my crack. He jumped off of the table and stood next to me and continued his work. He moved my legs apart even more and slid his right hand down my crack and massaged the inner most part of my ass cheek. He used his other hand and did the other side. Several times up and down spreading my cheeks apart. I felt very exposed.
Then he slowly moved his hand down the center of my crack and rubbed his oily fingers up, down and around my pink star. I yelped again. He continued without comment. It felt quite good. No one had touched my sensitive anal opening for months. I did finally ask him whether that was supposed to be part of the massage. His response, "This is a full service massage. That means I intend to make every single part of your body feel good."