ENTRY 5
Hello my digital diary. It's me again. I wanted to tell you (and remind me) about something wonderful that happened. Well, it started out as wonderful. I felt like I had made a breakthrough. And well, in hindsight, I am not so sure. Anyway...
So Daniel and I had our three-year anniversary a couple weeks ago. I talked him into us spending time together and making a long overdue romantic evening of it. One thing that is great about Daniel is that he is definitely a romantic.
So I showered, shaved my legs and my cooch. I put lotion all over my body. I was as smooth and soft as they day I was born. I was ready for a great evening with my man hopefully ending in some good lovemaking.
Daniel took me to one of our favorite restaurants that we had not been to in a while. The ambiance was great. Daniel was great. Dinner was great. He apologized for being so under water with school and recognized that he has been neglecting me. He thanked me for being so supportive and described his dream of graduating first in his class and having his choice of places to go.
Daniel told me that he wanted me to be with him. He asked me if I wanted that too. I think that was his way of making sure I would say yes if he pursued a long-term commitment with me. Like 'making sure the girl is going to say yes before I ask her to marry me.'
Anyway, I told him I loved him and that I wanted a future with him. We talked about where we wanted to live and the type of lifestyle we wanted. Then we talked about kids. We both knew that the other wanted kids. We had talked about that a while back.
I used this opportunity to try to get him to open up. I commented, "You know Daniel, to have kids you would have to get rid of those condoms and go at me natural. Do you think you could handle it?"
He laughed and responded, "Of course babe, I look forward to it."
I responded immediately, "Then why don't you do it right now? I have been on the pill for years. I am not going to get pregnant and you and I love each other right? We are going to be together right?"
Daniel thought about it a minute but did not respond. I broke the silence by expressing that I would like to be more adventurous with him; that I wanted to try new things. Now digital diary, I can be honest with you. They would not be new things to me, only to him. But he doesn't need to know that.
Daniel finally responded by saying that he would be interested in doing new things as long as we went slowly and I did not laugh at him if he messed up.
The rest of our dinner went amazingly. I was happy that I had finally broken through with Daniel. I started plotting my first new move. I wanted it to be tonight.
After dinner, we decided to head home for a nightcap. He opened the door for me like a gentleman and then proceeded to drive us home. About halfway home, I reached over and started rubbing his manhood. I could feel it growing instantly. He tried over and over to pull my hand away. He actually got a little upset when I tried to unbutton his slacks.
He loudly said, "What are you trying to do Candace? I can't drive when you are doing things to me like that."
I gave up and decided to wait until we got home. As soon as we walked in the door, I dropped my stuff and pulled him toward the living room. Without letting him get comfortable, I dropped to my knees and started unbuttoning his slacks.
Daniel responded by saying, "Candace, can't we go to the bedroom baby?"
As I pulled his slacks and boxers down, I answered, "More adventurous Daniel. More adventurous remember?"
His sigh became a gasp as I put my warm mouth on his half erect penis. His manhood grew to full tilt within seconds. I licked him up and down and engulfed him again sending shockwaves through his body I am sure.
Daniel moaned and stopped resisting. I think his carnal instincts took over. I bobbed up and down on his cock slowly letting him get used to the feel. Slowly over time I took him deeper into my mouth and eventually my throat. I did not want to do it immediately even though I knew I could.
Daniel started moaning over and over. I sucked hard as I slid completely off of him. I took his slippery tool in my hand and jerked him slowly. I looked up at him and his face was all contorted. As I continued to jerk him with my hand, I slowly pushed my mouth down the tip of his shaft. I used my tongue to massage the sensitive underbelly of his head.
He moaned loudly and then abruptly pulled away. I asked him what was wrong and he replied telling me that he was about to cum and that he did not want to do it in my mouth.
I tried to console him and tell him that I loved him. I tried to convince him that I wanted to show him by taking in his seed.
Listen digital diary, you have probably figured out that I just love cum in my mouth. I love to give head and I love to swallow a man's warm jizz. I desperately wanted to add this to my life with Daniel.
It was to no avail, as Daniel would not budge. I finally convinced him that he could cum on my tits. He let me resume my oral duties. Within a few minutes, he pulled off again and jerked his manhood until he shot a ton of warm cum all over my tits. It wasn't my first choice but damn if it didn't turnout to be better than I'd hoped.
It was a small win, but still a win. After Daniel finished, I think he was a little shocked it happened. He turned to walk away stating, "I'll go get you a towel. Don't go anywhere."
As soon as he left, I reached down and gathered up some cum with my finger and scooped it to my mouth. It was okay. I went back for more, again and again. As I was pulling in the last little bit I could gather Daniel returned and asked me what the hell I was doing.
I felt busted. I told him I could not help myself. He was confused. He told me that he was grossed out and that I should go take a shower and brush my teeth. As he walked away, he mentioned that he would not be doing that again.
I don't know what to do digital diary. I love Daniel. We had a really wonderful dinner where we professed our future together. I even got him to agree to be more adventurous. But then this happened. And it appears as if Daniel is farther away than ever.
But dang it digital diary, I want to do more things. I want to have sex in different positions. I want to have sex in different places. I want to have sex without a condom for goodness sakes. I want to suck dick and swallow cum. I don't know what else I want to do, but I am sure there is more.
Less than a week later, I decided to head to my parents house. At least that is what I told Daniel. I had hoped to see Chet and get a good fucking. My anniversary night had only left me sexually frustrated and unsatisfied. I wanted to do something dirty. I wanted Chet to fuck me in every position, and cum on my face or something.
After hanging out with my parents as much as I was obligated to, I sent a text to Chet asking if he was available. You know what he answered me with? He was sitting at my house, with Daniel. No shit. Apparently they had planned to hang out and Daniel did not tell me. Chet did not tell me. So I drove here to see him and he is up there. Fuck... I was so angry. I stomped around my parent's house up to my bedroom and crashed on my bed. What was I going to do now?
Fuck it I thought. I was going to masturbate. I needed a release.
I started pinching my nipples and rocking my hips, imaging that Chet was doing it. Then I moved my hand down below and started massaging my pussy. I slid my fingers up and down my wet slit and toyed with my clit. I started to feel better about the situation.
I was halfway to an orgasm when I heard my phone buzz with a new text. I ignored it and continued going. A couple minutes later, another text. I tried to ignore it. I shoved an extra finger in my pussy and banged away. Another text. Fuck. What?