When her eyes fluttered open, Derek was sitting next to her, wiping her forehead with a damp face cloth.
"What happened?"
"You fainted."
"I did?"
"You did."
"I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to."
Derek leaned down and kissed Emma's wet forehead. "Hush. It was the most wonderful thing you could have done."
"How come the bed is all wet?"
"That's you, too, I'm afraid. That last orgasm was a wet one. You squirted again. A real gusher."
Emma was completely embarrassed and hid her face behind her hands, causing him to laugh as he pulled her hands away.
"Did I ruin your mattress?"
"It will dry out. That was one of the most sexy things I've ever experienced."
"It was?"
Derek now kissed her softly on her mouth. "Oh, yes. Women have told me I've sent them to the moon, but this is the first time I've made one swoon."
She yawned. "I feel like I could sleep for a week."
Two strong arms lifted her from the bed as if she weighed no more than a feather.
Derek carried her to his spare bedroom, shifted her weight to one arm, and opened the bed with the other, laying her gently down. The room was cool and dark.
"Sleep now."
"But I'm all sticky."
"We can shower later."
"What time is it?"
"There is no time right now."
Reality flooded back. Peter. Peter was going to call her around 6:00. What had she just done?
Emma struggled to sit up, but Derek's hands on her shoulders pushed her inexorably back.
His head came down, kissing her cheeks and around to one ear. "Emma, now is the time to sleep. What's done is done. We can figure out later where this is all going. Sleep now. Sleep," he kept whispering.
Derek's voice was almost hypnotic in its effect and she felt herself relaxing and drifting away.
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Emma could see from the light leaking in around the shades that it was still broad daylight. Disoriented at first, she realized she wasn't in her own bed waking up from a very nice dream. This was Derek's house and she'd just made love to him.
Her eyes flew open and her hand went to her mouth as the reality of what had taken place, hours? moments? before sank in. She had completely dishonored her marriage vows. Tears flowed down her face. Emma was indeed now a fallen woman.
Ten minutes later, she crawled out of bed, sticky all over, but especially between her legs where Derek's semen flowed down freely now that she was standing. Clapping one hand over her pubic area, she scurried for the bathroom she knew she'd find at the end of the hall. She didn't want to use the one in the master bedroom in case Derek was there.
No matter how much she scrubbed herself in the shower, Emma could not make herself feel clean. Her head throbbed and her body "down there" ached even though she knew Derek had been gentle. She felt between her legs, checking, and discovered that her vagina was open and loose. How could she ever hide this from Peter? He would
know
immediately upon entering her that she'd been with someone else. Where had her brain been this morning?
She began to cry again as the shower water flowed down over her, unheeded.
The shower door opened and Derek began to step in.
"Please leave me alone, Derek. I need to be alone."
He got quickly out. "Sure. Absolutely. I'll be downstairs."
Fifteen minutes later, she had collected her clothes from Derek's room, dressed and was walking down the stairs.
"I'm in the kitchen," he called out.
Emma found him at the kitchen table, drinking coffee and staring out at the back yard. He turned to look at her, his expression unreadable.
"Feeling better now?" he asked as he got to his feet.
"A bit."
"Want some coffee?"
"Sure," she answered sitting down.
He sat down again and pushed her mug across the table. Instinctively, he knew enough not to get any closer.
"Care to tell me what you're thinking?"
She shook her head.
"Care to let me try to guess?"
Emma's voice sounded wary when she answered, "Okay."
"Is it guilt? The fact that you've sinned with me against your husband? That you're worse than worthless now? Not fit company for decent human beings?"
She kept her eye's steadily downwards. "Something like that."
"Did you not enjoy what we just did? Was it not done freely and lovingly?"
"That's beside the point. I dishonored my marriage."
"What marriage? Look deep inside. Can you honestly say that you love Peter anymore? Did you ever really love Peter, and most important, did he ever love you?"
Emma felt like clapping her hands over her ears. Her nerves felt raw and chaffed. She wanted to run away.
Derek reached out and took her hands. "Emma, please look at me." She did as he asked. "Do you think I took any advantage of you?"
She shook her head. "No. I did this to myself."
"Do you think this might be an evolution for you? That you're getting ready to move on?"
She examined her most inner feelings and couldn't decide what she felt anymore. Everything was so confused, nothing clear, nothing solid enough to hold on to.
"You once told me that you wanted to find out what sex could really be like. Now you know. Do you think it was a bad experience?"
"No."
"Are you glad you did it?"
Emma thought about that for several minutes, and the best she could come up with was, "Sort of."
"I'm going to tell you something. Part of it is really going to hurt you and for that I'm sorry."
Derek gripped her hands tighter and she looked at him again. His expression was as tight as his hands.
"I told you once I was your friend, first and foremost, and that I never lie to my friends. Do you believe that?"
Emma nodded once.
"When Peter and I were playing golf yesterday, I got him talking. I almost wish that I hadn't because he told me things."
"You said that last night, but wouldn't tell me what. Why are you changing your mind now?"
"I'll tell you after I tell you what Peter said."
"Okay." Emma felt very unsure where this was going.
"There's no easy way to say this," Derek began, "but Peter is planning on leaving you and he asked me to help him."
Emma felt as if the world had shifted sideways.
Perhaps it was me
, she thought hazily when the next thing she knew. Derek was holding her in his arms as he led her into the living room and lay her on the sofa.
"Be right back," he said and disappeared for a moment, returning with her second wet towel of the day. Folding it, he lay it on her forehead. The cool moistness felt very good. "You fainted, and I just barely caught you before you hit the floor." He smiled warmly. "You've had a tough day."
The words "my husband is leaving me" floated through her head and Emma started to feel things slipping away again.
Derek was sitting on the floor next to her, holding one of her hands in his.