The next night, the world froze again while I was sitting on my couch.
Despite being committed to my belief that none of what I had encountered was real, a part of me had expected to find myself returning to that place. This time, I knew immediately what was happening, and instead of wandering around confused, I decided to test the exotic state I was in. I stood up and waved my arms, scattering the light of the room to pieces around me, then reached out to try and catch one.
This task proved to be nearly impossible. Every time I got near a fragment, a mysterious force pushed it further from my grasp, and when I did manage to outsmart the flow and touch one, the slightest contact repulsed them. Just as I thought I was going to be able to trap a particularly large bit of couch in a cupped hand, the fire came and spoiled my attempt.
I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, holding onto one last breath while I waited for it to be over. When I allowed myself to look again, I was back in the dark room, standing on top of the painted circle.
It was the Matron's voice that greeted me. "Kneel, demon."
The gravity of the world felt like it increased by magnitudes. I fell, catching myself on all fours where I spent nearly all my strength struggling to stay on my hands and feet before I figured out to put my knees underneath me. Only when I was properly supporting my weight on my calves did the force pulling me down let go.
I lifted my head to see three familiar figures approaching me.
The Matron stopped short of the circle that surrounded me, no less than a foot outside the edge. The other two women continued to walk, following the lines of the shape but staying just as far outside them. They flanked me, the Follower walking to my right and the Princess to my left, and disappeared beyond my peripheral vision as I remained transfixed on the person in front of me.
She pulled a small black book from the pocket of her robe. "We felt you reach out to us last night. The others believe your visit, and the pleasure it brought us, was your way of honoring your new masters. I am not so trusting. Touching our minds so strongly while still trapped in your infernal realm demonstrates an incredible amount of power. Perhaps you meant to intimidate us with it?"
"Iβ" was the only word I got out before she cut me off in her usual fashion.
"Quiet, Demon," she said. "I don't need to hear what you have to say for yourself. Tonight, you will prove with actions whether your channeling was meant to celebrate our bond or exploit it. If you can link our aspects from the confines of Hell, you should have no problem doing it while we are all here together. This time, it won't be to live out your perverse fantasies. Instead, you will fasten our potential together so that we may act as three through one. Do you understand?"
I did not, but since I was unable to speak, I had no way to get this point across. Not only had her call for my silence taken my voice but it seemed I was unable to provide any kind of clear communication. I couldn't even form a thumbs down to convey disagreement.
"Know that if you try anything," she continued, "I am prepared to stop you. You may hold dominion over your sphere of the underworld, but there are worse Hells I can banish you to." She paused to let the words sink in.
The tone of that evening was already much different than the first. If this were a dream, it might be fun to explore, but where it would be easy to file away this sort of thing as a vivid nightmare from the safety of my home, it was nearly impossible while it was all still happening around me. Whatever I was being pulled into, be it experienced or imagined, was well beyond my understanding. If I could have been allowed to ask even one question, it might have been easier to endure, but the Matron had prepared no explanations, only threats.
She began to read aloud from her book and as she did, the other two joined in. Their voices didn't blend together like when they repeated the words of the Matron in harmony. They were all reading something different. It wasn't English or any similar language that I could properly try to understand and yet as unintelligible as it was, I found it to be hauntingly familiar at the same time.
The voices became louder. They no longer sounded like they were coming from in front of me and behind. It was as if they were coming from inside my head. Their words soaked into me, weighing me down.