Being with Todd for one incredible night and having him leave again had left Allison more despondent than she would have thought possible. She moped and sulked for a few days, never leaving the house as Diana and Chad tried valiantly to cheer her up. After the second day she started accepting calls from Roger again, although she kept making up excuses as to why she couldn't see him yet. Every night, before bed, and every morning she would stand naked in front of the mirror, fingertips running over the hair growing back on her mound and the hickeys that were slowly fading on her breasts. Todd's possessive marks on her body were disappearing a little more each day, and it made her want to cry even as she felt relieved that she would be able to stop thinking up plausible excuses for Roger.
Listlessly she went on with life, dates with Roger that seemed dull now, and he never came home after the dates anymore - not because he didn't want to but because she didn't invite him in… the only time she ever got off now with him was when he ate her out in the car after she gave him head. Most nights she ended up crawling into Diana's bed (when she was home) and cuddling with her friend - and sometimes with both her and Chad - for comfort away from the loneliness. But she never cursed Todd for leaving her in this position… mostly she just missed him even more than she had before, only now she had to admit to herself that she missed him and that made it even worse. She missed the spontaneity and passion, his stupid dorky jokes, the fact that she never knew what he was going to do next… not to mention the way he fulfilled her needs in bed. Things were definitely worse than ever with Roger and sex, she didn't want to sleep with him at all since all it did was tease her and remind her how much he was lacking in what she needed. Actively avoiding him for too long had its price too though, as he looked at her with wounded puppy eyes, not understanding why she pulled away from him.
Life took on a monotonous pattern, and finally one day she broke it while sitting in front of her computer, searching story, toy and porn sites while fighting off tedium. Things were definitely hot online… she found a whole site that was filled with girls taking huge cocks up their asses, another where it was all gangbangs and orgies, and yet another with just bondage and whips and chains. Her pussy was wet and hungry from looking jealously at these girls, all in positions that she'd been in before… all doing things that she kinda wished she was now. Finally the pretty brunette found a site that made some life spring back into her dull hazel eyes, sitting up straight she looked through it in awe as page after page of kinky sex toys available for her to buy passed by her eyes.
Biting her lip… she wondered if she dared… well, she could always put it on her credit card - which her parents paid for anyway - and it would be billed a strange non-name that looked like it could be just about anything. The toys would arrive in a non-descript brown box… as a large black butt plug popped up on the screen, almost identical to the one Todd had had her work into her poor ass, she decided that she needed to.
Looking over the site, she wanted to be conservative with her first choices, her first time buying any kind of sex toy at all. Although was infinitely better than having to go to an actual store and look over the products… here there was no one to see her shame as she picked out a medium sized rubber butt-plug, the same kind of tweezer clamps on a Y shaped chain that Todd had put on her, and a modest 5" slim waterproof vibrator. Feeling very naughty, she also ordered a strap-on that had a big hanging 8" thick rubber cock and a smaller cock on the inside of it for the girl wearing it. Who knows, maybe Diana would be willing to try it out with her… couldn't hurt to get it anyway. Knowing her sexy friend, she was probably already intimately familiar with the techniques and uses of a strap-on.
That night Roger got invited inside for the first time since Todd had left, and it was a decision that she almost regretted as he slowly and gently thrust into her wanting pussy and moaned into her curls. Heaving underneath him, she pretended to pant for breath and gasp as he made love to her, all the while wishing that she hadn't invited him in. It wasn't even as if she could pretend he was Todd, because Todd would never leave her wanting like this - unless he was just teasing her to get her riled and then he would immediately become harder and rougher as she begged him to fuck her. Faking a passionate orgasm under Roger's thrusting body, she thought glumly that maybe she should just dump him.
"Oh…" he sighed in completion as he rolled off her and pulled her close, hands stroking her sides, "I love you Allison."
She tried not to tense up when he said it, and fortunately he didn't seem to notice as he kissed the back of her neck. He didn't even notice that she didn't say it back as he fell asleep, completely contented that their love making was finally perfect.