I wanted to call Ali every night the first week I got back from New York but made myself ignore the need. My weekend had been unbelievable, and I kept replaying it in my head. I suspected it would not have meant as much to Ali herself, and I didn't want to be the annoying younger cousin. She might only be a couple of years older than me, but seemed so much more mature and sophisticated.
I still wanted to call her all through the second week, but by the third I began to realize it had been a pleasant interlude and to accept it as such. I threw myself into work and let the ache in my muscles distract me. It was winter, and the landscaping had been put on hold. Now Dag and his crew worked indoors most of the time, turning their hands to anything practical. I fitted showers, kitchens, waste disposal, new boilers, rewired an old house, replaced tiles and siding, fixed shutters, something different almost every day.
On the second Monday of January 2005 there was a letter waiting for me at my breakfast place. Mom sat across from me and Sarah, my eight year old sister, jiggled impatiently in her chair.
I sat down and took a sip of coffee, picked the envelope up, turned it over to read the embossed School of Art stamp, ran my fingers over the raised paper.
"For goodness sake, Tom, open it," Mom said, grinning.
I took my breakfast knife and sliced through the top, slid out the typed letter inside, spread it open. I read the words once, then again to be sure.
"Tom!" Mom said.
"I'm in," I replied.
Sarah squealed and Mom came around and hugged me so tight I could hardly breathe, my head pressed deep into her soft cleavage.
"Call Alison," Mom said when she released me.
"Tonight," I said, "I'll be late for work. Dag'll be outside in a minute."
"Don't forget then."
I smiled at my pretty mother and shook my head, "I won't."
I worked even harder that day. It was outside work, some overgrown trees that needed cutting back, logs cut and stacked ready for burning. I sweated copiously even in the cold winter air. When I got home I showered and came downstairs in an old pair of track bottoms and a faded tee shirt. Mom had gotten in from work after picking Sarah up and was preparing our meal.
"Call Alison," she said over her shoulder.
I watched her for a moment, enjoying the sight of her standing at the worktop, looking at her slim legs exposed by the short skirt. She could have been my sister, I thought, and turned away to the phone. I dialled Ali's number and waited. It rang five, six, seven times and I was about to hang up when she picked up.
"Alison Graham," she said.
"Hi Al, it's Tom."
"Of course it is," she said and I could hear the smile in her voice.
"How are you, Al?"
"Don't fuck around Tom."
"I'm in," I said.
She gave a squeal, just like my sister had that morning, and I heard a clapping sound as she hit the phone against her hand.
"Tom, that is just so brilliant. It's going to be great when you're here."
"But you'll have finished by then, Al," I said.
"No, I won't. You remember I told you about my post-grad, and my teaching. That's all been agreed now, as long as I get the grades, and I'll get them. So we can see each other all the time, Tom."
"That would be fantastic, Al."
She laughed again and I felt my heart start to beat again. It was going to be okay...
After that I called her once every couple of weeks and we chatted about nothing at all. She told me about her complicated love life, how she had broken up with Maggie at Easter, missed her and got back together at the end of April, but it wasn't quite the same and she was sure Maggie had had a fling with someone else in the weeks between, but she didn't dare ask.
She wanted to know if I'd gotten myself laid yet and I laughed and admitted that no, the opportunity hadn't come up. Besides, I was too tired to even think about sex once work was over.
Then, on Wednesday of the first week of May she called me.
"Tom, can you come out this weekend?"
"What? I don't know. Probably. Why?"
"I've found a really great apartment, but I want you to see it as well."
"Me? Why?"
"It's got two bedrooms Tom, and it's way bigger than where I am now, and I thought we could, you know, share when you come up."
"Wow, Al, I don't know. They'll be putting me in halls, I think."
"I know, but I checked. You don't need to be in halls your first year if you have relations you can stay with. And we're relations, aren't we?"
"But how much is this going to cost, Al... you know money's real tight for me."
"Come up here, Tom, we'll talk about it. I want you to see it anyway. I want your opinion. Can you?"
"I'll call you back tonight. I have a job on for Saturday but I'll see if I can get out of it. I could take the night bus and get in early Saturday, leave late Sunday."
"Try Tom, please? It would be so good to see you again."
"Yeah, you too, Al. I'll call you."
I spoke with Dag, and he said OK, if I really had to he could work around Saturday, but I knew I'd pay a penalty sometime in the future. I booked a seat on the bus and called Ali and gave her the news.
And so at midnight on Friday I found myself half dozing as the greyhound cut through the night. Lights of distant houses glimmered somewhere across fields, headlights of cars going the other way washed across the windows even through the drawn blinds. I dozed, but no more than lightly. I was excited, curious and anxious.
Despite the bus getting in at six in the morning, Ali was there to greet me. Although it was early the May air was mild and she was dressed in a light gauzy dress, and she looked wonderful. She ran and threw herself at me, wrapping her long legs around my waist so I had to drop my bag and grab her to prevent her falling off. She planted a big kiss on my lips and then put her head back to look at me.
"God, Tom, it's just so good to see you... Even if you do look like shit!"
"Thanks," I said, "You look wonderful too."
She laughed and dropped down, twirled around, her dress billowing out and showing smooth thighs, "I do, don't I? Come on, I'll buy you breakfast. Hungry?"
"Starving," I said, and we walked arm in arm to find an open diner.
Over pancakes and eggs Ali told me we could pick up the keys to the apartment from the agent at eight, and it was an hour on the bus, but it was okay because it was an hour from here but only a half hour from the University campus. She talked fast, animated, and I think I understood her.
Ali brought me up to speed on her news. She was back with Maggie, but wasn't sure how long term it was. She had finished almost all of the work she needed to complete her degree, and had been told she was in line to graduate maxima cum laude.
We stayed at the diner talking and drinking coffee until the agent's office opened, then picked up the keys with a promise to return them by the afternoon, and caught a bus.
I carried my bag as we walked up the block of old factory units that were gradually being turned into apartments. Here and there piles of rubble and building material lay around, but as we moved along the block it became cleaner and the buildings at the top were complete.
The apartment was in the very end building, and stood on a small rise looking down over rooftops to the Hudson in the distance. The building had an elevator, so we let it take us to the sixth floor. Each of the factory areas had been partitioned and there were between eight and four apartments on each level. The one Ali wanted to show me was at the very top.
She led me along the hallway to a dark oak door at the end, looked at me and gave me the keys. "You open up, Tom. I'm too nervous."
I took the keys and unlocked the door, pushed it open and we went in.
The space was empty of furniture and vast. The entrance took us into the middle of the main room which must have been thirty feet by twenty. To our right was a clean and functional kitchen with new units, a stove, and plenty of power sockets. To the left two tall windows looked out across the view of the city. Further along from the windows were three doors.
In the far long wall stood a tall framework of old beams from which all brickwork had been removed. It was beyond this the wonder of the apartment lay. Through the dark criss-crossing oak I could see three wide steps descending to an open area that appeared to be the same size as the upper room. The ceiling here sloped down and was glazed over most of its area allowing cool northern light to fill the space. Heavy wooden planks formed a half partition between the main room and this work area.
Ali looked at me and jumped up and down. "What d'you think, Tom?"
"God Ali, it's awesome," I said. "But there's no way I can afford to pay half rent on this place."
"I'll be earning by then, Tom, and I'd only want a third."
"Still..."
"We could afford it, Tom. One place, even one big place, is going to be cheaper than two small ones. And halls are expensive."
"How much would this be?" I asked.