Dear Readers,
This is the last chapter of "Alicia." I hope that you have enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it and presenting it to you. "Patience's Virtue" and "Alicia" are my two favorite novels. Both strike a chord in me and, I hope, in you as well.
Oldguy 45
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Kathy and I became good, and occasionally intimate friends after that. I stayed pretty much to myself. She was really my only friend, other than Tom. From time to time, she would look at me wistfully and say, "I wish you could change, Phil. Part of me thinks that we could be happy together." At which point I would tell her gently, that I wasn't interested in a long-term relationship with someone who didn't understand and share my special physical needs. In a way, it was back to business as usual for me. I had lived alone before I met Alicia, and I just fell into my old habits.
Over the next couple of months, Kathy and I were close, but then she met someone, another nurse at the hospital, and ended up moving in with her. We gradually grew apart, and at the end of the summer, she called me to tell me that she and her friend were moving away. I invited them both to dinner to wish them well.
Kathy's friend was Jocelyn, a striking blonde with a voluptuous figure who worked in CCU. I fed them a meal of London broil, twice-baked potatoes, fresh steamed asparagus with cheese sauce, and warm crusty bread. We had an excellent Cabernet with the meal. I noticed that Kathy had only one screwdriver, although I had enough vodka and orange juice for many more. Jocelyn had two glasses of red wine, and then only water.
Kathy looked very good, very happy. She was obviously in love with Jocelyn, and I could see why. The blonde nurse was witty, and funny, and beautiful. She kept squeezing Kathy's hand, and I saw them exchange several hugs. Kathy adored her.
I was happy for Kathy, though a little sad that I was losing my last link with Alicia. Several times, I think Kathy was going to mention Alicia, but she didn't, and I was glad.
They were leaving by ten-thirty. I shook Jocelyn's hand and hugged Kathy hard, wishing her good luck. She hugged me back, just as hard. There were tears in her eyes as she said, "Don't forget to stay in touch, Phil. She would want us to."
"I won't," I said. "You two drive carefully, and good luck."
When I shut the door behind the, I gave a big sigh. I felt as if a door was closing on an important part of my life. I cleaned the kitchen, picked up the house, and went to bed. I was past crying, but I didn't go to sleep for a long time.
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A couple of weekends later, I was at the mall, wandering around. The big apartment was lonely, and I just needed to get out. I was walking along, and had a sudden thought. The clothing store that Twyla worked at was named Slacks n' Things, and it was located at that mall. I decided, on impulse, to go by and say hello. I went to a mall directory sign and found out where it was, then went there.
It was a small store, privately owned, not part of a chain like so many other stores. I walked in and was disappointed that I didn't see Twyla anywhere. Discouraged, I turned to leave, when I heard a voice say, "Can I help you find something?"
I turned around. A tall, slender girl with brown hair and big brown eyes was standing there. "Do you need help finding your size?" she asked.
"No," I replied. "Actually, I was looking for someone. Her name's Twyla, and I thought she worked here."
"Twyla, sure. She still works here. She's in the back. I'll go get her for you." The girl turned and strode away towards the back of the store. She opened a door and called inside to someone, then came back. "She'll be out in minute. Can I help you find something?"
I smiled at her. "No thanks, I don't need anything right now." The brown-haired girl looked disappointed, stuck out her lower lip slightly, and walked off.
A couple of minutes later, Twyla came out from the back. She was wearing a dark-red velvet blouse with a scoop neck and long sleeves. She had on jeans and short black boots. Around her neck she wore a simple gold chain. From her ears dangled two thin golden hoops. Her dark blonde hair was just the same as always: Parted slightly to one side, and cut so that it fell just below her earlobes. Twyla had a unique, bouncy gait that made her hair dance as she walked. I hadn't noticed it before. She smiled when she saw me.
"Hi," she said.
"How are you doing?" I asked. Her smile made me smile.
"I should be asking that of you."
"I'm doing all right at the present."
She had brought out a few shirts on hangers. She began hanging them on the racks, talking over her shoulder to me. "So, how's Kathy?" she asked.
"Kathy's good. She moved away last week."
Twyla stopped what she was doing. She gave a little toss with her head and said, "Oh? Where'd she go?"
"I believe she went to Charleston, South Carolina, with a friend."
She arranged shirts on racks, still not looking at me. "A friend? But I thought you two were, um..."
"Kathy and I were never more than friends. I really liked her, but it wouldn't have worked out."