Pion helped me gather my duffle out of the truck of the falling-apart Oldsmobile, and then he just stood in front of me for awhile, not exchanging words just a sympathetic smile in attempts to hide the worry behind his eyes. It seemed like his smile wanted to convey that he was like the neighbor who playfully punched you on the shoulder, encouraging you to "go get 'em champ," but this wasn't that kind of a journey. This was scary, one small step for man a possible leap backwards or forwards for mankind.
"See you in a few weeks." Pion said and then punched me on the shoulder. I pained a smile and then hopped to readjust the weight the large bag pushed onto my body. I simply started walking towards the abyss--'pointed that way'.
I started walking, having nothing the but sun beating down on me and an endless landscape of the strange marble-like ground. I couldn't help but think about my last hours in the colony and my mother this morning.
Early this morning, my mom was at her breaking point as she fluttered around the small area that was our living room. All I could do was sink deeper into our couch rub my forehead not out of frustration, but more out of nervousness.
My mother was able to completely canvas the entire room in three strides. Our minuscule apartment, which I had lived in my entire life, could be toured in six more strides. My mom mumbled to herself, her hair floated around her like a beautiful halo of chaos as she threw any knick-knacks she could find in our home into my duffle bag.
It was an old army bag, the dark green fatigues no longer recognized and respected in this area of town, let alone the world. It was my father's military bag but I had never seen him carry it himself. I had never met my father and what I had of him remains in a single picture taped on the wall above the bed that I share with my mother. It was a sad photo unlike the other photos my mom had salvaged from the old world that she knew. It was a computer print out, the paper faded with time and it was not as brilliant in color as actual photographs on photo paper. But it was my father and it was all that I had left of the closest man I never met.
My mom always said that it's important to cherish the simple things in life because you never know when you are going to lose everything. She talked about how in her world, it was about getting the latest Apple phone, a cellphone with a touchscreen. The latest tablet or the best gadget that would make the other gadgets, phones and tablets obsolete within the same year. She reveled on how everyone saved everything about their lives on The Cloud. Then she would knit her eyebrows together wishing she had taken simple photographs and often would paw a small photo album she had salvage from my grandmother's home before the evacuations. The photos were the only family I had. These photo albums filled with precious pictures of my mother and her brothers growing up became a visual story illustrated with the reminiscences of my mother's.
During Eclipse, The Cloud and social networks were the first to go down, it was how They were able to find everyone. All the pictures of outings, birthday parties, weddings, picnics were gone with the journals that narrated them in the form of social updates and hashtags. The culture of the world overnight disappeared. The pictures of my mother's pregnancy with me, her baby shower with her friends that she dearly missed vanished like they would soon vanish from her life. She was pregnant with me when the world changed, and They showed their true nature. My father was sent to defend, what we first thought was an isolated attack in Virginia at the Pentagon. They had been among us for decades, and their attack blindsided us because it wasn't just the Pentagon. In 24 hours it was The Hague, British Parliament, Tokyo, Nairobi, even North Korea lite up to reach out to the world for a brief 30 seconds before it went completely dark. And with the darkness that covered the planet, a once vibrant world, my dad's life snuffed out like a candle. He missed my birth, missed teaching me how to ride a bike or teasing me about my first crush.
The world was dark for awhile and then it lit up again but not for everyone, only for Them, the Y'vroi.
"Baby, I am sorry I don't have anymore jackets for you. Will you be warm?"
"Yes, Mom, I'll be fine. You know me, I am always running hot anyways. I will be fine," I answered as I watched her fly around the room more.
"They like to keep it cold, Baby. More so than before," She opened a small trunk that had doubled as a coffee table, dining room table and my desk for homework-time for the last 20 years. "I might.... yes..." she mumbled more to herself and then pulled out the colorful afghan her mother knitted and would only bring out once in awhile when she really missed her family. "Here Sweetheart, this should keep you warm."
"No, Mom, that's yours; it should stay with you. I have the blankets you made me."
I loved my mom's afghans, I already predicted that I would be pulling it tight around me very soon when I missed her. I pulled my legs to my chest and tucked my chin to my knee urging myself to keep it together. This was definitely hard on both of us, finally my mom stopped moving around and sighed.
"You know when I went off to college, I had a whole car packed of brand new things, matching kitchenware, bedclothes, a whole new wardrobe, even stupid college dorm decorations," she sighed again and then rummaged through the chest again and pulled out a tangled web of our Christmas lights. She smiled and her eyes brightened up for the first time the entire week. With a sideways smirk she handed it to me and I couldn't help but smile. "You know this is not important; the material things right?"
"Yes Mom. Really, I'm fine. I don't need to have college decorations or anything," I started pulling out the keepsakes that she had salvaged from her previous world out of the bag. They were important things in today's world but insignificant items that happened to be in her emergency go bag during the evacuation. Stuffed in the pockets of the bag were the items she quickly grabbed in her last few minutes before Eclipse: the refrigerator magnet from her honeymoon in Belize with Dad, Dad's expired Video Store Card with his signature on the back that was in her wallet. The only post-Eclipse item in the bag was an un-open bottle of Australian Shiraz wine from Trader Joe's that my mom found in the first refugee camp on my 5th birthday. She believed it was the last bottle of wine to ever exist in the world and would be worth something someday. I pulled out the last item and glanced at my mom, nervously knotting her fingers together while intently watching what I decided to keep and take. Her college graduation cap with puffy paint writing on the top so her parents could find her in the sea of robes. I reconsidered it and decided I should keep it as a reminder to strive to be the best. I smiled again, proud that I was able to make my mom's eyes light up a second time in the short time I had remaining with her.
My mom wrapped her arms around me pulling me abruptly off of the couch into a tight momma bear hug. "Honey, I am so proud of you. You are going to be great. You are going to be amazing."
"Mom..." my mind was already thinking about how hard it was going to be to leave and go to school. I was going to not only have very hard competitors in my classes, but I was most likely going to be a social pariah, and everyone would do as much as they could to see that I fail.
"I dont want to hear it. You show Them that you are just as important. That we are worth something. That you are worth more than the salt of the planet that they destroyed."
I sucked in air and squeezed my eyes shut. I didn't want to think about the Y'vroi too much, but that is all I could think about. I was terrified of the aliens.
"Remember those stories about the kids that had to be brave and go to those school in the south during integration. You have to be brave, strong like them."
"I know Momma, I will try to be strong and brave. I can blend in. I can hide. They couldn't..."
My mom shook her head. I already knew she didn't like that idea. She didn't want me to expose my talents to Them or to anyone. "It's too risky." I opened my mouth to object but she raised a warning eyebrow. "Hey, maybe there are some progressive kids at this school who are not against us humans. Maybe they will be like the white Freedom Riders.
My mom loved to teach me about the Civil Rights Movement, she was hoping that one day we would all rise up and take back our land and our lives. The difference is that blacks and white were humans, the hatred of that time was truly disgusting and that did not eclipse what we all were experiencing now as a human race.
"Above everything else, Baby, know that you earned this. You are smart. And it's not just your talents that have gotten you this far; it is solely you and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Make me proud. I love you my darling." My mom kissed me over and over again and I tried everything in my being to not cry.
I took a deep breath and pulled my father's duffle bag strap over my shoulder. My body lopped to one side as I rested my weight on my right side. I shook my long curly braids out my ponytail more out of habit to make a physical gesture of a decision made. And that decision was to walk into the den of wolves and try to find a life for myself in a world I have only known. But through my mother's dogged lessons, I also knew of a world that could have been.