I don't know how you did it, but you glorious readers managed for a moment to make A Shoulder to Cry On number one. Since I published that, two installments of this series have an award.
I want to start by thanking Rodolphe for the editing. Not many people are willing to take up the task of editing a story this long.
For newcomers, this is the 5
th
installment of what I'm calling the Criminal Affair Series, which started with the ten-part Criminal Affair. Order of story for continuity is as follows.
Criminal Affair (ten-part series)
The Sorority
The Irishman at the End of the Bar
A Shoulder to Cry On
A Perfect Match
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Friday - May 8, 2026
-Chase Kramner-
I unexpectedly received an invitation to a memorial service in Wisconsin last week. When it arrived in my mail, I believed it was spam before I read the return address more closely. The invitation was sent by Francine Hopkins, the mother of Amanda Hopkins. It was a memorial service for her daughter's birthday. I gave her a call and let her know I would attend. Lauren is concerned this could be a rough experience for me, but I am insistent this is something I need to do alone.
Lieutenant Eastland approves my leave on short notice, and I begin travel early on the seventh. I have a layover in Milwaukee, then board a flight to Eau Claire Wisconsin before driving my rental car approximately sixty miles to a town called Ladysmith. I check into my hotel and try to relax, but I am too restless.
I return to my rental car and drive to the downtown area of Ladysmith. I park in front of a single-story building being renovated and across the street from a movie theatre. It's called the Miner Theatre, which is likely homage to either the street it is on being Miner Avenue, or the town's history in the mining industry. After I exit the rental car, I just walk. I try to put myself in the shoes of Amanda when these were her stomping grounds. Seeing movies on the weekends or Friday nights with her friends. Maybe she even once worked at one of these family stores before going to college.
It was an hour to darkness when I left the vehicle and it is well after dusk by the time I return. The few people I saw when I walked were polite enough, but overall it was quiet around town. Perhaps tomorrow would be a little different being Friday and all.
I drive from the downtown area and travel to her high school. There is no security gate, so I roll straight in and park. I do not leave the car and just look at the school Amanda Hopkins went to. It is so normal and unremarkable from the outside. I know Amanda was in the culinary club but was going to college for business management. After she dropped out because of her rape, she went to culinary school after recovering for several years. What she had learned from business management likely aided in her later fiscal responsibility.
When I look at the rental's clock, I see it is nearly eleven at night now. I finally decide to go back to the hotel.
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I have been invited, but I feel like I do not belong in Amanda's home. As her family and friends talk to each other, I know some of them are looking at me, wondering why I am here. Some go to her mother and discretely point to me, and she explains it to each person. Francine had graciously greeted me when I arrived to her credit.
I would excuse myself if I had someone to excuse myself to before going to the bathroom and locking the door. My hand is shaking so hard my shoulder is vibrating. I grip the edge of the sink to still it, but that nervous energy transfers itself to my foot which starts tapping. I take panicked breaths, then run water to rinse my face, but I am losing control of my body. I want to punch something. I have no way to release this tension. The anxiety spills over to my stomach, and I immediately push the toilet lid up and vomit.
I heave until I'm dry and cough the rest out. My face is still wet from the rinse, and I slide over to the wall and lean against it while sitting on the ground. I think I got it all in the bowl, but I unravel some toilet paper and wipe my mouth with it. I take my still wet hand and swipe off the pieces of paper that broke off.
I must look like a huge pile of useless shit right now.
The door knocks from the other side and the door jiggles. "Detective, are you okay?" I hear Francine say.
"I..." I start, but my throat is sore, so I end up coughing. "...I'm fine. Give me a minute."
I force myself to my feet and flush the toilet. I rinse my mouth with water and spit it into the sink. The water runs until it's all down the drain. I dry my hands and face and then examine if I look as bad as I feel before leaving. Francine is still near the door when I close it.
"Detective..." she begins.
"Please, ma'am, Chase," I say, and she smiles a little.
"As long as you call me Francine," she says, and smile back. "Are you okay? You look very uncomfortable."
"Honestly ma...Francine, I am," I admit, and she puts her hand to my elbow.
"The people who murdered my daughter are gone. That is because of you," she says, and it takes every fiber of my being to not scream. "You bled for her."
I cannot think of a response, and I feel my hand involuntarily rub my stabbing scar. Francine sees how out of it I look, so turns my attention to a young boy looking at pictures of Amanda. A large cork board has been arrayed with several dozen pictures of Amanda from the time she was baby to her shortly before her murder. I am standing to his side, and he looks absolutely transfixed by her.
"Is he?" I ask, and Francine nods.
"My grandson. Luke. His adoptive mother Gillian and I met a few months after her death. She told me he is nothing like his father. There is so much of her in him. Luke's smart, he figured out who Amanda was by himself," Francine explains as I look at Luke.
Luke does resemble his biological father Travis Breckinridge. The man who raped Amanda with several others and stabbed me. The man I killed in self-defense in a dirty motel room. I do not see Travis in him; I only see Amanda. A girl who the first time I met her, was a corpse in a back-alley parking lot behind a bar. His hair is her hair, that perfect hue of milk chocolate brown I look at every time I open the folder in my desk drawer.
Francine gently encourages me to meet him, so I do. I approach him slowly, like a bird watcher trying to not startle his subject. I am finally close enough to touch him, but instead look at the pictures as well.
Amanda was a joyful baby, a cute little girl, a moody teen, a beautiful young woman, and then a proud high school graduate in her gown and hat. Then nothing. It was like she stopped existing when she arrived at college. This gap is punctuated further when the pictures resume, and Luke is there. He looks maybe four or five years old in them. And she is smiling again.
Luke brought her back, even though so many things about him should have destroyed her. Instead, it was like he gave her something back that she lost. Luke was the innocence that was taken from her. Amanda looked at someone that some in society would cast aside, and only saw his innocence. Luke did not do anything wrong, and he does not need to be burdened by the crimes of others. I cannot even comprehend the decisions she had to make, or how she arrived at their resolutions.