Warning? Drug use, don't read if you're concerned.
Yup there's a lot in the real world that you wouldn't and shouldn't do, lucky for you this a fantasy, is fiction and some people find it erotic. Enjoy
Too Boring Part 4
Evening after
After Trent left I was in a daze. I knew that I had about an hour before Chris would appear. I was disappointed with the size of my nipples still standing up through my bra and jumper but I decided I couldn't do anything about that. I popped an Orange pill like he'd suggested, to help clear my head and muscles. I then busied myself hiding my crimes.
My clothes from the back door were nowhere to be seen. I guess that Trent had done something with them, I'd ask him later. I managed to eat something and drank a gallon of water.
The bed sheets were surprisingly clean so I didn't bother changing them. I was glad my boyfriend had opened the window in the bedroom. I could still smell sex in there, but it may have been emanating from me. I was lucky, knowing that Chris' sense of smell wasn't too good. However, I was concerned about my personal smell of sex. I could feel it with every step and had already changed out of trousers as I'd made them damp at the crotch within 10 mins. I was now in a long skirt and that just served to share my sex smell. I knew I should shower, it would be quick and easy but something in me almost wanted Chris to notice. I was also worried if he asked how I'd deal with the lie.
After deciding that the house was tidy and setting up a story to tell him about how I'd spent my day I sat down for a moment to take it all in. At that moment realising that once again, I felt great, relaxed and wonderful. I started the day careful and safe. But that white pill had given me the horn and I'd let Trent back into my life. Somehow I'd smoked that Meth or whatever it was.
Fuck that felt like a bad thing to accept. I'd smoked meth again, was it even meth? I'd clearly liked it and ended up in some dazed sex state, like before. However this time lucky for me I'd only had one cock near me. I realised that I obviously liked smoking that stuff and needed to be slightly careful of where I accepted it. I'd managed to avoid an STD so far but if I carried on like this, well I'd be in trouble sooner or later. I contemplated that I was accepting that I was going to have these drugs again. That was a big step. I don't know how I felt about that.
Then I'd allowed Trent, my boyfriend. I liked calling him that. I paused on that thought for a moment. I had a black boyfriend. Geezzz what would anyone that knew me think of that. I giggled a little bit, imagining all their faces. I realised that at some point this was all going to come out if I carried on. I thought that through for a while, wondering if there were options to avoid it completely.
I lost that train of thought way too quickly as my mind jumped to the drug that he injected into me. Heroin maybe, I dunno, as far as I knew it could have been coke or fentanyl or whatever they call it. Not sure I wanted to know. But my god. In fact just thinking about that now made me feel good. I instantly started to hope I'd get to try it again tomorrow. Oh wow! that feeling when that hit. However I'd lost hours of time. Which was better, the smoking or the needle? God I couldn't separate them, somehow I'd managed to try both. Maybe every day could be like this.
It also had me thinking about how deep I'd come in only, what, 10 days? How deep could this hole go, where would I end up. What would happen to my family and current life. Somehow I shrugged my shoulders, not particularly worried.
I troubled over the thought that I really wasn't bothered about the fact I was heading into serious junkie territory. I shivered and giggled at the thought. It was almost not real, like I was daring myself to do it. Crazy. These orange pills certainly didn't help one think straight and sort problems out.
My nipples throbbed, reminding me that he thought he was going to get me lactating. That made me chuckle, surely it wasn't going to happen. He said about some drugs that I'd had? I don't remember those and could they really work? God I didn't want that, did I? I mean I'd have to pump and stuff every few hours. How'd that work out for holidays or trips? Would people be able to tell or notice? How'd I explain any of it? And my God my poor nipples.
Clutching my boobs I gave them a good hard squeeze. It felt good, like when you push on a pain point somewhere. God, I fed Claire 20 years ago when she was a baby. That went well but I'm so much more different now.
Picturing her as a baby I started to think about the risk of that still. Right now I had a black man's semen inside me. Probably at least 3 or 4 loads from him. I knew the morning after pill had me covered from yesterday but if this life change of mine was going to happen, should I think about going on the pill? I mean I know I'm in my 40s but I was still ovulating, I could feel it each month, something I've always been able to feel. I mean having a baby was very dangerous when on drugs, wasn't it? And very not fair. God there were real world consequences to more than just me on all this.
And what about sexually transmitted diseases? I'd been lucky so far hadn't I? Very lucky indeed after what I think happened over the last week and a bit. However Trent appeared to really care about that. He had my back. But should I rely on him to keep me safe?
Safe, I burst out laughing at myself.
Safe, there was no such thing in this new world I was heading into. I mean I really had no idea what I was putting into my body. That orange pill just earlier as a simple example. My head was starting to hurt thinking all this over. I stood and started to pace to clear my mind. Again receiving a slick knicker reminder of what I'd done earlier today.
2. Third Day at home
I woke up naturally at 7:40 am, pleased that I'd hit my natural waking rhythm. Chris was already up and somewhere getting ready for work as normal. I remembered that simple, easy, safe, and boring evening last night with him. He didn't hint once that he could smell sex on me or anything like that. Either we'd covered our tracks well, he was in denial or he really didn't pick up on it. I was slightly disappointed with myself as I realised that I was pleased that my deception was on game.
I did realise that this morning I was cold. My head was aching again as were my hips and boobs. I couldn't quite work those out but I was fairly sure I was already pretty dependent on a drug of some sort, a definite addiction was there. In fact I was already imagining the high that I hoped would come with a secret dark visitor today. I shivered at the evilness of that thought.
During my shower, I really needed to work my boobs. There was something going on with them. The very flesh of them was aching, almost sore. Surely, that couldn't be the machines and drugs already. However, I couldn't deny how much I needed to massage them hard and I mean really hard. I could feel all sorts inside them moving and almost clicking. I pictured an old car engine being brought back to life with new oil or something.
Once I was dried I almost absent mindedly popped a white pill in. I didn't even think of it, just in it went. I was very aware of how achy everything was. I also surprised myself by auto texting Trent telling him I'd put that pill in. I didn't even start with a good morning or anything. In fact, I sent him some texts last night that he hadn't replied to. I was slightly disappointed and a little worried that he wasn't coming this morning.
I dressed as usual, a thick jumper that came past my ass, some leggings and a usual matching underwear set. My mind jumped to the bin bag of other clothes but I dismissed that very quickly.
Chris and I passed the early morning as normal, the only difference was that I wasn't going to work. He again told me not to worry about that for the moment. Everything else was normal apart from I was very quickly starting to power up and get a little horny. Not like I needed to wank or anything but more I felt a buzz, alive and ready. It was strange.
What else was strange was that the second Chris pulled away in his car, Trent turned up and I mean Chris couldn't have gone round the corner before his car pulled up. As soon as I saw it my heart leapt for joy. Shit, here comes another day. I was so excited.
"Morning darling," as he stepped into my house. I had a fleeting thought of 'what would the neighbours think of this black man turning up the second her husband left', but I still welcomed him in with a hug and a kiss.
"So babes, how you feeling today?" he asked with a smirk.