Again I apologize for the lack of sex as there will still be none. Please be patient it soon will come.
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Happiness, sadness, envy, jealously, anger, regret were some of the emotions surrounding me as I sat at my usual table in the school cafeteria. Everyone seemed to feel an emotion like they have a name as I stared around at my fellow classmates who were engaged in conversation with one another without a care in the world. My world came crashing down on me almost twenty-four hours ago and yet here I am in school pretending everything is normal. Inside of my body though I could feel a small war between my human conscience and the vampire as each emotion bounced off me. Negative feelings seem to stir the demon, while the positive feelings let me comprehend with reality and somewhat control the vampire. Hunger was brewing inside my brain as the faint smell of blood wafted through the air making it even harder to ignore my surroundings.
As my eyes scanned the large room, the emotions were bouncing off me like a deck of cards being dealt until I locked on a girl sitting in the corner by herself. Just like everyone else I noticed her before and thought she was weird because she always kept to herself and never interacted with anyone. However as I stared at her my mind was blank. I wasn't drawing any emotion from her, as I watched her lips move while she silently read the book she was so engrossed into. Without thinking I got up from my table and sauntered over to where she was and took a seat across from her before my mind caught up with what I was actually doing.
"Hi," I said as I politely greeted her.
"Go away! I don't date people from school, nor do I wanna chat with you." She said never taking her eyes off her book.
"I-I'm not here for that. I thought maybe you would like a friend," I responded feeling a hint of anger rush from her.
"What are you trying to say? I'm a loner, a loser because I sit here by myself. Which one of these bitches put you up to this? Well let me tell you buddy..." She stopped mid-sentence as her eyes met mine.
I felt a wave of confusion pouring from her as we stared at one another in silence. "What?" I asked her as her lips turned a sheepish grin.
"Your a newbie," she challenged.
"What the hell you talking about," I asked drowning in a pool of confusion radiating off both our consciences.
"Yup, your a newbie. Can't control your emotions huh." She said beginning to shake her head. "You know it's dangerous to show emotions right? One hint of any negative feelings could get you easily killed by another vampire."
My eyes bugged out of my head at her revelation as my head moved frantically around trying to look for an escape route. I stood up ready to leave her presence until I felt something cold grasp my hand. "Wait, don't go." I heard her speak as I looked at the hand in mine. I was scared and didn't know what to think as I pulled my hand away from her and exited the building taking a seat on a wooden bench outside.
Alone now with my thoughts and emotions, I tried to wrap my mind around what just happened until a squirrel approached from out of nowhere. The hunger built quickly inside as I smelled the rodents blood. With speed I never thought existed I swiped it off the ground and looked at it quizzically. What was I supposed to do now? I really had no idea how to feed being in human form. I was starving and the lunch I consumed in the cafeteria did little to nothing to satisfy me. Fear and panic began to hit me as the squirrel frantically tried to release itself from my grasp but was failing miserably. Fredrick's words were bouncing around in my head. A scared target is an easy target as I raised the scared rodent to my face, its blood intoxicating my senses along with its fear. I opened my mouth ready to bite, my thumb instinctively moving to its pulse but I stopped before I let my teeth sink in. What the hell was I doing? I could probably get some unknown disease or infection if I bite this. I lowered the bushy tailed rat and spoke to it. "Consider this your lucky day," I said tossing it to the side watching it scurry up a nearby tree. Fuck it I thought. A school lunch will have to do for now as I got ready to head back into the building.