I stare at myself in the mirror. I'm standing alone in my bedroom. The lights are off, but half a dozen candles are burning, giving off just enough light to illuminate my reflection. I contemplate my eyes, trying to lose myself in the black pools of my own pupils. Then I open my mouth to speak. I close it again. I swallow, my mouth feeling suddenly dry. I realize that I'm afraid. I'm afraid to speak the words.
I'm being stupid. This whole idea is fucking stupid. But it seems a whole lot less stupid standing here in the candle-shadowy dark, than it did when I was laughing about it in a well-lit living room. We had been talking about the games we used to play as kids. The scary games, the ones we would pull out at slumber parties to freak each other out. Light as a feather, stiff as a board. Ouija boards. Seances. Smiling Jack.
I remember that last one a little too well. It was a variation of the fear game most people call Bloody Mary. You turn off the lights, stare at yourself in the mirror, and say the words "Smiling Jack" three times. Then Smiling Jack is supposed to appear. What happens after that is left to the imagination. I remember half a dozen childhood sleepovers where someone dared someone else to summon Smiling Jack. The dare would usually end in shrill giggles, and a quick flicking on of the lights.
I'd never had the courage to play Smiling Jack when I was a kid. I always made excuses not to be around when people wanted to play that game. The one time someone dared me to summon him, I refused flat out. The idea of it terrified me. The idea that a grinning monster might show up at the sound of his name, bent upon carrying me away to his lair.
That's why I'm standing here in a dark room, on Halloween Night, staring at my reflection in the mirror, readying myself to say the incantation. I know that nothing is going to happen. The idea of this child's game having any effect whatsoever is absurd. Which is why there is no harm in saying the words. Which is why I should say the words. To prove that I know that this is just a stupid kids game. To do otherwise would be proof that I am a superstitious idiot. Smiling Jack is not going to swoop down upon me the moment that the incantation is complete.
I take a deep breath, and I force myself to say the words. I say the name three times, watching my lips form the words in the mirror. Then I fall silent, my breath catching in my throat, waiting for something to happen. And nothing happens. I let me breath out in a long sigh, and reprimand myself for being an ass. I'm not sure exactly what I was expecting, but it didn't happen.
I give myself one last look in the mirror, and then I shrug and turn away. I have satisfied my childish impulse, and now it's time for bed. I slip out of my clothes and then make a circuit of the room, blowing out all the candles. Then I slip naked beneath my comforter, snuggling into the soft pillows at the head of the bed. I start to drift off almost as soon as the blankets settle around me.
I wake in the middle of the night when a large, warm hand claps down over my mouth, and a sudden weight rolls on top of me. My eyes fly open, and I try to jerk upright in bed, but the weight of the strange body on top of me keeps me pinned down. I scream, the sound hoarse and sleep-fogged, almost entirely muffled by the palm sealed against my lips. I try again to sit up, and fail. A part of my mind insists that this is a dream. I'm having a vivid nightmare, and in another few seconds, I'm going to wake up.
I don't wake up. A hand lands on my chest and presses me deep into the pillows. I moan and try to roll away, but the weight of the intruder's body keeps me immobile. I scream again, and the sound is barely audible. My eyes adjust to the darkness, and I make out the broad shoulders, thick arms, and wide chest of a huge man. He is straddling my hips with muscular legs and using the weight of his body on mine to keep me pinned down. He's wearing a mask over his eyes. His mouth is horribly scarred, two lines curving upward from the corners, forming a crooked grin.
"Hold still." The voice is deep and gravelly, pitched so low that I almost can't hear it. My first impulse is to obey, but instead I start to struggle again, trying to wriggle out from under the crushing leverage of his huge body. The pressure of his hands on my face and chest increases. "Hold still," he says. Something in his tone freezes me. I slump back against the bed.
He leans back a little, and the crushing pressure on me lessens. I find my voice. "Who are you?" I ask, the words muffled against the palm of his hand.
"Don't you know?" He sounds amused. His voice is so deep that I can feel it vibrating the air.
"No," I say, barely a whisper.
"You invited me," he says. "Don't you remember?" He sounds even more amused. He removes the hand from over my mouth. The one pressing down on my chest remains, the palm large enough to span my entire breast bone.
The wheels in my brain grind into gear again. "Smiling Jack?" I say.
"That's what some people call me," he says.
"This has to be a dream," I say, more to myself than to him.
"You can think that if you want to," he says. "But it's not."
"What do you want?" I ask.
"I haven't decided yet," he says. "It depends on you." His arm moves to his side, and then he is holding a huge knife in front of my face. I whimper and flinch away, but I can't move more than a few inches. His weight pins me down. He trails the tip of the knife over the contours of my face, tracing my cheekbones, the sockets of my eyes, the outline of my lips. I whimper, but I force myself to remain still, terrified that if I move, he will cut me.
The blade of the knife moves from my face down to my throat, and I moan. He moves his weight off of me for a moment, and wrenches the blankets off of me, exposing my naked body."Pretty," he says, and the knife makes its way down my throat to my chest. He spirals the blade inward, getting closer and closer to my nipples. My body tenses, waiting for pain. He pokes at my left nipple with the very tip of the knife, hard enough to make me cry out. He bears down, the point of the blade digging into my nipple, almost, but not quite breaking the skin.
I whimper, closing my eyes and bracing myself for the sensation of cold metal piercing my flesh. The pressure on the knife blade increases for a moment, and then it's gone. Before my body can relax, I feel the knife's point at my other nipple. He gives it the same treatment he did the other one, and again, I brace myself to be cut.
He stops just short of breaking the skin. My entire body trembles and I struggle not to move as he begins to stroke the blade back and forth over my right nipple. It becomes incredibly sensitive under his attentions, and I want nothing more than to squirm away from the caress of the knife, but I hold myself still. The fear of impaling myself on the blade holds me in place.
His free hand moves to cup my other breast. His thumb brushes over my nipple a few times, and then he pinches it hard, making me gasp. "Are you afraid?" he says. I don't answer him. He pinches harder, squeezing my nipple between thumb and forefinger until I scream. "Answer me."
"Yes," I gasp the words, trying not to scream again as he grinds my nipple between his fingers.
"Good," he says. Then he leans forward. His lips fasten on mine. He kisses me almost gently. I gasp, and he takes advantage of my open mouth to slip in his tongue. It feels all wrong, too long, too narrow, and I realize that it tapers into a fork. It's the tongue of snake. I shudder, try to push him off, to expel him, despite the knife still poised at my breast. He just grabs a handful of my hair to hold me still, and kisses me harder, forked tongue thrusting deep into my mouth, lips sucking on me as if he's trying to draw breath out of my lungs.