This story is for the "Behind the Walls of Sleep" Gothic Horror invitational. It is a completely different style and type of story for me and I learned a great deal from trying this. Thanks to blackrandi for the invite; these events push me out of my comfort zone and I learn a lot from them. Thanks to blackrandi, sbrooks103x, Bebop03, Piper and stev2244 for the beta reads and editing. MattBlackUK gave me the final setting for the story. This would be unreadable without all of them. There are others who prefer not to be named; you know who you are and you know you are appreciated.
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We sat in silence as our coach made the passage up the road through the mist-clad Yorkshire moors. Ashen fields, grey and dull, faded into a pallid colourless sky. The sun made no effort to push through the shrouding overcast of clouds, a feeble, mocking imitation of daylight. The nervous whickering of the horses was the only sound beyond wet creaking as the coach crept along the half-mud half-rock course up to the dark shape of Ridge Manor overlooking the bleak countryside.
The coachman was stubbornly mute, having only rumbled the slightest greeting to us at the train platform, telling us Father's solicitor would be meeting us at the house. We passed nobody, not one traveller on the road, just the endless dead pastures and stunted twisted black trees.
It had been a very difficult year since my husband had died of the Fever. It'd left an unshakeable grey pall over our little home. Money was beginning to run short and I'd felt lost and hopeless. His death had left me weak and in a miserable disturbed state. Unremembered nightmares shocked me awake in gasping terror at vague and formless thoughts. Sleep brought me no rest, and I woke in the mornings shaking from ever-worse exhaustion. Sometimes, frighteningly, I woke in odd places. Sometimes I found myself standing in the parlour, or even in the street in front of our little house. I had finally stopped wearing my widow's veil after a year at my daughter's insistence, as she felt it was making my illness worse.
In my desperation, I'd begun to think to ask Father for help.
I swore I would never do that, never turn to the man who rejected me so soundly and coldly.
Father. Elijah Moorhead. Hope, my daughter, had never met him and I was secretly glad that she never would. The very breath of his name made me wince in pain. We had been so very close, once, but it had been so many years since we had spoken, and that last meeting had been harsh; many things had been said that were impossible to take back.
He'd been so angered with my choice of Conall as a suitor that he'd had me forced from the house, saying that he'd never countenance an Irishman in his home, even though my mother was herself half-Irish. I still wore Grandmother's silver Saint Patrick's medallion, as I had from the time I was five. I knew he was really angry because I chose to leave, to live my life differently than he and Mother had.
I'd run to Conall, and we'd run together to the city over fourteen years ago.
For Hope's sake, I feared I would have to turn to Father, accept whatever punishment he would mete out in retaliation for defying him.
As it was, I received word of his death in a letter from his solicitor, a letter that also informed me that I was to be present for the dispensation of his estate, as I was named to receive a substantial inheritance.
I was quite shocked at that, as I had truly believed he would never forgive me for defying him.
Hope and I were nearly bereft of money, and even selling all we could, I was just able to pay for passage on the trains to reach the ancestral family estate that Father had moved to after I had left.
Hope peered up at the foreboding shadow of the manor. "Mother, is it always so unhappy looking?"
I followed her gaze. 'I've never been to the Ridge Manor in my life. My mother, your grandmother, had sworn never to come back here for any reason before I was ever born."
"Why?" She asked it with the guileless honesty of youth. It would be another three or four years before she would begin her passage into womanhood.
"I do not know, only that she found the manor repulsive."
Hope studied the distant shape for a moment. "It doesn't frighten me, Mother."
I smiled at her softly. "I'm quite glad of that. At least one of us should be comfortable there."
"Will it be our new home?"
"I don't know, Hope. That depends on a great many things." Mostly, I thought, it depended on how much Father's anger at me had dissipated.
"It could be a wonderful place to explore, I think."
"You'll not explore anything without telling me first. I know nothing about this place."
"Yes, Mother." She said it agreeably enough, but I knew I would have to watch her carefully, as she had her father's
joie de vivre
and irrepressible love of adventure. She meant well, but I was certain she would be haring off down every corridor and garden path in search of some great discovery.
Hope so reminded me of my husband; she was the only light in my fog of exhaustion.
She smiled. "Perhaps we'll have crocuses here."
"Kirkstall Abbey is famed for their crocuses, so if we have none here, perhaps we may see them there."
"The Abbey at Leeds? The ruins we saw when we were on the train?"
"Yes. Some of the stone from the Abbey was used to construct Ridge Manor. Or at least that is what I was told growing up."
As we pulled past the towering wrought iron gate, past the empty stone gatehouse, the road turned into a dark grey cobbled drive.
We slowed to a stop at the foot of the steep stone stairs, and I could see the butler standing at the massive front doors.
Taking Hope's hand, I squared my shoulders and walked up as bravely as I could, but halted when I realized he wasn't our old butler, Martin.
He greeted me graciously. "Mrs. Malone. You may call me Thomas."
"Good afternoon, Thomas. May I ask what happened to Martin?"
"I'm afraid he passed away at the same time as your Father, due to fever."
I sighed. "That's unfortunate, he was a very good man."
"So I have been given to understand. Mrs. Naxby has only the highest praise for him."
I smiled at the name of the old cook. "Nora is still here?"
"She is, Madame. Most of the staff departed after your father's passing, and we've limited taking on help until you determined what course of action to take. We do, however, have a gardener on retainer for the coming spring and one maid who is tasked with maintaining the household for the time being. I do apologize for that rather Spartan approach, but Mister Genovese, your father's solicitor, was quite concerned with preserving the accounts until you arrived."
"I'm sure it will be fine, Thomas." Hope and I were quite used to 'Spartan' as we had had no money, even for a maid-of-all-work, since Conall's death.
"If you have need of anything, I will be on call. I'm afraid Tillie, the maid, and I shall have to serve out meals as we haven't the proper staff, so I will not be as readily to hand as I would prefer."
"Thank you, Thomas."
He paused, almost awkwardly. "Madame?"