If you met me on the street, you would never believe that in my heart I am just a wimp. You see I'm a big guy, I played football, well at least high school football, and I had a rep as a guy who kicked butt. My problem was with girls, I was such a bumbling idiot around them that most avoided me. If a young lady paid any attention to me, I in turn would do anything to try to make her happy. At this time of my life, I could only find two types of girls. The ones who were turned off by my desires to make them happy, as it seemed a real man would not act as I did or the ones who knew they could take advantage of me and would use me until they got bored of my attentiveness.
Being young and foolish, I always blamed myself for losing the new girlfriend and would then push myself to be even nicer, to do more for the next girl I met. Somehow, this all spiraled into a deep-seated need of humiliation for sexual release and now as a grown man my only search is for a dominant woman. However as much as I craved this submission I had no desire for my treatment to include pain and most of the doms I met liked to include some sort of pain with their sex acts.
We met in a chat room, now I wasn't on this site by accident so I knew what I was getting into, or at the time, I thought I did. Her user name was Mysterious Momma or MM and mine was Humiliated Harry or HH. It was just a cyber relationship and we both knew truth was not something you concerned yourself about when chatting back and forth. Somehow, MM could read me and her words reached into my soul across cyber-space as she told me how much she would humiliate me if she allowed me to worship her. I felt if we could only meet, my life would be complete and asked if this was possible. MM informed me I would have to earn the honor of such an event and like a fool; I replied I would do anything for that chance. Three days later, I received an instant message from MM stating she had an opening in her stable and I would be allowed to apply. It went on to tell me of a public place where I was to arrive at a directed time and at that time if I showed that I deserved it she would take me to her studio. The public place was a food court located in a mall downtown and as it was a Saturday the place was packed with the usual assortment of teenagers, mothers with kids and young couples. I was to go to a table in the center where she said she would be waiting for me. I was shocked at her girth and I guessed her weight at close to three hundred pounds. Even this was erotic to me, as I needed to prove my worth to a woman who probably had a tougher time getting dates in school than I did.