"Damn Westlaw, anyway," she muttered under her breath, cursing the legal publisher, realizing she would have to walk all the way back to the law library for the right case book.
For an hour she had sat on a park bench as the sky grew dark, hoping to find the case whose number she had jotted on a napkin at lunch. She should never have accepted that second drink, even if, no, especially because, the man who bought it for her so obviously wanted her. It was he who had teasingly told her about an old case that could make a huge difference in her argument. He'd even told her the Westlaw number, or so she thought. She should never have grabbed the case book without making sure it was the right one.
Not an empty cab in sight at the dinner hour. Not tonight. Everywhere else in Chicago it was Halloween, with kids shivering door-to-door, urged on by parents who thought it was, somehow, their duty to undergo this ritual. Here, downtown, it was just a prematurely cold, miserably cold, October night. The cold crept in under her cashmere trench-coat. The lights blinked on in the buildings along Michigan Avenue. A lone drugstore sold last-minute candy and a few picked-over masks.
A sob caught in her throat. She just couldn't screw this case up.
It was her first chance to take the lead on an important criminal case, and she knew the eyes of every partner and every would-be partner in her firm were on her. As she stood and hoisted the 20-pound volume onto one hip, she saw the man look up from the park bench where he lay, covered from foot to chin with newspaper. He must have heard her choking back her tears.
"I was a lawyer once."
His voice was flat. Deep. Quiet. Not drunk. Not stoned.
Emotionless. She had taken him for just another bum asleep on a park bench, but now she saw that his brow, the curve of his cheekbone beneath the stubble of a week's beard, even his failed attempts to part an unruly mane of (she had to admit it) gorgeous auburn hair, were not those of the homeless. The park's sodium vapor lamps were unsparing, but this man was beautiful. No reddened skin from alcohol and exposure. No runny nose. No perpetually healing scabs from insect bites.
Abruptly, she realized that she had been staring. Not just staring, but appraising. And even with newspaper covering most of him she liked what she saw. And when she saw the incontrovertible evidence of his awakened manhood lifting the middle of the sports section, she knew he liked what he saw, too. Her heart seemed to stop and to race, all at once. This couldn't be happening, she thought. It mustn't happen. I'm engaged. This man is some kind of failed lawyer. This has nothing to do with my future. Now she was perspiring freely under the cashmere and the silk and the wool and the sensible cotton underwear. She tried to turn away, to walk toward the office, but she couldn't move.
"Maybe I can help you," she heard him say gently. It was as if he had thrown a net over her and were reeling her in.
"I really have to get back to the office." Her breath was coming in quiet little gasps. At least it felt that way.
"Because you can't find 'People v Long?'"
"Right. Damn numbering sys...Wait a minute. Who told you what case I was looking for?" Her eyes darted back and forth between the small mountain under the newspaper and his eyes. She could not believe his eyes. In the glare of the park lights, they had become incredibly dark. Like black holes, or at least what she had always imagined black holes looked like. And at the center, they glistened gold. She was falling into those eyes...
"You mutter."
"I what?" She was jerked back into the conversation.
"You mutter. You kept muttering 'People of the State of Illinois v eff-ing Long.' Actually, for the last few minutes you were not just saying effing."
He had the slightest of accents, but she couldn't place it.
"Please, sit. I will tell you all about the case."
"You know it?"
"I should. I was Long's defense attorney."
Those five words put her shockingly rapid, shockingly intense, arousal on immediate hold.
"You've got the wrong case. Robert Long was executed 40 years ago! And that was after 27 years on death row. You're not that old."
"You don't know how old I am."
"I know you're not 90 years old!"
"This is correct."
"Mr. whoever-you-are, this is getting altogether too weird. I've got to get to my office, get the right damn book, then I have a dinner to get to..."
"With your fiancΓ©."
"What!? Oh, right, my ring. Yes, with my fiancΓ©."
"He can't make it. Your cell phone is about to ring. Michael can't make it."
Michael. She was sure she had never even muttered his name. "I don't know who you are. I don't know who you think I am. I know that there are about a million women engaged to someone named Michael and... "