At midnight she started screaming.
Ellen groaned. Stephen sat up but she grabbed his arm. "No!" she said. "We agreed."
"Honey, for God's sake listen to her. She's terrified!"
Ellen turned on the beside lamp. "I don't care. She has to learn. If you go in there it'll be like every other night. You'll look under the bed and in the closet and tell her nothing is there and then in two hours she'll start again."
Sarah's screams became higher and more frantic Stephen threw up his hands. "What do you suggest, we just sit here and listen?"
"If that's what it takes," Ellen said. "We have to start drawing lines."
Stephen glared at the door. Ellen could feel him shaking. She touched his shoulder but he pushed her hand away. Sarah was still shrieking down the hall. Ellen could tell that Stephen was counting silently. When he reached thirty, he got out of bed. "That does it," he said.
"No!"
He ignored her. She considered going after him, but it was too late. She heard his footsteps padding down the hall. Voices came through the wall, muffled. Stephen said, "What's wrong kitten?"
Sarah's little voice was choked with tears: "The monster! The monster is in my closet again!"
"Oh, kitten, there's nothing there."
"Will you look and see?"
"There's nothing there baby, I promise. Remember your mom and me are right down the hall, okay?"
"Okay," Sarah said, sounding unconvinced.
"Now give me a kiss. Good night, Sarah."
"Good night, Stevie."
The sound of Sarah's door closing preceded footsteps returning down the hall, and then Stephen's weight sank down on the bed next to her. Ellen turned the light off and glared at him in the dark. "Well? Are you happy now?" she said.
"Happy that we didn't leave her to give herself a fit? Yes."
"Children need boundaries."
"Children need you to be there for them."
"She's my daughter," said Ellen, and regretted it immediately. Before Stephen could reply, the sound of Sarah's screams interrupted them. "See?" said Ellen. "Responding just encourages her. It's what she wants."
"She's not manipulating us, she's five."
The screaming stopped. Ellen was about to say something, but they both heard the bedroom door creak open. "Mommy?"
"You should be in bed, Sarah," said Ellen.
"There was a monster. He was in the closet."
"It was just a bad dream, kitten," said Stephen.
"Can I sleep in here tonight?" said Sarah.
"No!" Ellen said before Stephen could reply.
"Can you come look in the closet?"
"Sarah, go to bed. You're too old for this."
Silence for a moment. Then: "Can I get a drink of water?"
Ellen sighed. "Yes, but then go right back to bed, all right?"
"Okay." They heard the door close and Sarah's little footsteps down the hall, and then the sound of the faucet running in the kitchen. Stephen rolled over and put his back to her. Ellen touched his shoulder again and again he repulsed her. She rubbed her temples. A headache was coming on.
"I know you want what's best for her," she said. "But we can't hold her hand over every little thing anymore."
"This isn't even about Sarah, this is about that weird hang-up over your ex again."
Ellen opened her mouth for an angry reply, but swallowed it. There was no gain in pushing this. "Maybe you're right," she said, though she didn't mean it. "Let's forget about it tonight. We'll deal with it in the morning, when we're both less tired."
Stephen was a silent at first, but finally he rolled over and put an arm around her, kissing her lightly.
"Are you tired?" she asked.
"God yes," said Stephen.
"Me too. But I can't sleep."
"Me neither."
She grinned. "Well, since we're both up..." Her hand crept up his shoulder.
"Hon, if Sarah comes in again-"
"We'll keep the light off. It'll be fine. She sees scarier stuff in her room anyway, to hear her tell it."
Stephen laughed. Ellen snuggled closer to him and kisses his chest. "I still don't know..." he said.
"Stephen..." she whispered, "I'll let you do it in the back door..."