It's pitch black. My cigarette is the only light source. I flick my lighter. Light. Dark. Light. Dark. I feel a sense of empowerment from such a simple thing. I smile as I breathe out smoke, and put out my cigarette on the wall. I head back inside the club.
I see the dancers pressed together on the dance floor. Some drunken idiots are upsetting a group of girls, pressing their nasty cocks up against them through their too tight jeans, their grubby fingers grabbing the girls clothes, trying to pull them closer. One girl scours, reaching her hand back as if to slap the man who's grabbed her.
A sharp shake stops her hand mid-flight. She groans lightly, lowering her hand. The music blasts out over the dancers, enveloping the room in heavy bass, the strobe lights throwing out shadows that fly around the room. People move and sway rhythmically to the beat whilst bouncers stand guard at the exits.
The DJ looks at me, and I nod. Within seconds, there's liquid and smoke streaming from the ceiling and walls. The party-goers call out their excitement as they're cloaked in smoke and drenched in fluid.
It takes a moment for them to realize what the liquid is, and then the screams start.
I can see the drunken idiots at the side of the dance floor, their cocks still raging despite the fact that they are now the ones being preyed upon. I nod at the girls, who take a chunk out of the lads necks savagely, hunger evident in their eyes.
More screams. It gives me a headache. Why must they always scream? It's so pointless.
I look at the bouncers, who are busy ushering people towards the dance floor. Nobody escapes tonight. Nobody ever escapes.
I look down at the insolent fools running around like headless chickens, looking for some kind of savior through the smoke. I shake my head in disgust and leave the dance area through a secret side door. I tell my bodyguards not to let anyone get away, not that they ever do, and to bring me a tasty snack after the affair is over.
**
College life is really dull.
Classes start, teachers drone, classes end. Coursework starts. Repeat.
I sit in the back of the Psychology Lab painting my finger nails the deep red I love so much.
Of course I don't take notes. Notes are for the weak.
The scrubby, half-baked tutor speaks nasally about the human mind. Boring.
I hear my name suddenly, and I answer without lifting my head.
"The chi-square value of the table on the board equals 6.46."
The tutor takes a step back, obviously too impressed to stifle his shock.
"And... And how do you show that?" He asks. Bastard. Why must he test me?
"Why don't I write it on the board for you?" I ask condescendingly, standing.
"Right, the table equals 6.46, therefore the table would be represented as follows..." I write the equation on the board.
X2(1,N=40)=6.46, p= .011
I hand the pen back to the tutor and take my seat.
"Nice one, Roxanne!" Says the boy next to me. He's been crushing on me since the first day I entered this damn class.
"You really showed him!" He continues, obviously oblivious that his nodding his head like a bobbing dog. I smile as nicely as I can manage, which causes him to gasp and his face to go bright red.
I shrug noncommittally and figure what the hell?
"So, what you doing tonight?" I ask him halfheartedly.
He looks at me as though he's not sure I'm talking to him. I refrain from rolling my eyes and gesture for him to answer. He gulps.
"Uh... Not much. Studying probably."
Of course, nerdy types.
"Not going out with your mates?" I inquire, looking sideways at him.
"Ch... Nah, don't have many friends. I just study and keep my head down."
Boring.
"Wanna come to a club?" I ask him, actually giving him my full on attention for the first time.
"A club?"
"Yeah. With a DJ and dancing and alcohol..." I prompt.
"Uh, gee, I don't know. I'm kinda..."
I cut him off. "I'd be your date."
He blushes deeper, almost matching my nail varnish.
"Okay." He whispers.
"Perfect! I'll meet you at the college library at eight-thirty. Don't be late!" I say cheerily, before getting up and walking out of the classroom, halfway through the lecture.
**
That night I dress in red, my signature colour, and head towards the library. It's eight-forty five. I always make people wait for me. I see the boy standing by the window, his eyes looking frantically from left to right before landing on me and widening with admiration.
I smile. I've always enjoyed the way men look at me. The way they show their lust so plainly on their faces. I see the tightening of his jeans around his semi-hard penis, and smile wider.
"You look nice." I say, surprising myself by realizing that I actually mean it.
"Uh, thanks. You look beautiful. I wasn't sure if I should bring you a gift, so I made you this..." He says shyly, handing me a CD.
"What's this?" I ask, turning the case this way and that.
"It's a CD of tracks I thought you might like. I know I don't know you that well, at least not as friends, but I've heard the music you listen to in Psychology sometimes, and figured you might want a listen to this..." He stammers, second guessing himself.
"That's... sweet. Thank you." I say, putting the CD in my clutch bag. "Ready to go?"
We make it to the club by half nine. The bouncers see me and bow, opening the rope to allow us access to the club.
"Thanks, Charlie." I purr as I escort my guest inside.
"It's my pleasure, ma'am." The bouncer replies, a wicked smile forming on his face.
The club is already bustling. The music is pumping and the atmosphere is electric. The boy next to me whistles under his breath as he takes in the scene.
"Impressive, isn't it?" I ask, not really asking.
He nods anyway, then seems to remember he's on a 'date'.
"Want a drink?" He shouts.
I nod my head and he takes off into the crowd to find the bar. I head upstairs to the covered balcony and find my usual table. I sit down, watching the boy worm his way through the dance floor towards the bar.
He's a funny little boy, it's a pity.
I sigh inwardly as one of the bouncers comes up to me and bows.
"Ma'am, perimeters are in place. People are queuing to get inside. Once they've passed the drugs and weapons test, we'll shut the doors."
I nod and he leaves.
My date looks up and notices me. He stumbles his way up the stairs to my table and places a glass of red wine on the table. Not bad, boy.
He sits opposite me and takes a drink of his beer. I look at him. He's young, but of course, we all are in a way. He still has babyish features: rounded cheeks, dimples, freckles, large brown eyes and a floppy fringe. He's a little chubby, but muscly, and he's fairly tall. He'd make a good bodyguard, given a decent haircut. I smile at that thought and get the attention of one of the club bouncers.