"Lynn, I wanted to ask you something," said Will, becoming more uncomfortable with every word. Usually, this was his favorite thing to do in the world, just sitting on his sofa with his new amazing friend.
Sensing his discomfort, Lynn felt herself become anxious in turn as she said uncomfortably, "What is it?"
"I was wondering if you wanted to go with me on an out of town trip, but I don't want you to feel any pressure, and I'm not trying to pressure you, or push you into something you don't feel comfortable with, it's just that I need to go to a meeting at a really nice place, and I know the timing is awkward, but I wanted to invite you, and I just feel like I have no choice but to ask you even though I know it's uncomfortable," said Will, apparently speaking to Lynn's bare knee that was peeking out from the bottom of a sleek sundress.
Lynn was already having a strange day, that now seemed to be getting completely away from her. She began to vividly recall the events of the day prior to getting to the mix of comfort and discomfort she felt on Will's sofa.
By 11 o'clock that morning, she had already been so consumed with desire for Will that she'd found her hand pushing and rubbing against her thighs and crotch under her desk at work. Finally, unable to think rationally, she'd felt as if some force compelled her to lock herself into the nursing room at work. Only one person in the office was nursing, and Lynn hoped she didn't need to pump now, since Lynn's pussy was now guiding her actions. She lay back in the dark on the cozy loveseat, and unzipped her pants to allow her fingers access to her moist panties. She sighed in relief as her fingers found their way to her clitoris, and she began rubbing herself in earnest, imagining herself nude, in turn being ravaged by a completely nude Will, when she heard the doorknob jiggle against it's locking mechanism. Her heart jumped and her stomach cringed. She thought about losing her job.
Now the knock came. "Is someone in here? I need to get in." It was Amber. Lynn looked at her breast pump kit on the table and felt ashamed and miserable. She pulled her pants up and opened the door.
"Lynn! What are you doing in here? Is there something you haven't told us?" joked Amber, trying to make light of the situation. Lynn began sobbing, and Amber immediately closed the door and took Lynn back to the loveseat.
"Sweetheart, what's the matter?" asked Amber, with maternal concern. Amber was in her thirties, and married to Dave, who was Will's residency director at the hospital.
"I met a doctor at the Memorial Day party at your house and we've been spending almost every evening together and I love him like I've never loved anyone else," sobbed Lynn.
"So what's wrong, Sweetie?" cooed Amber, her arm around Lynn's shoulders.
Lynn stopped crying and pronounced: "I'm just afraid I'll mess it up, or he'll get sick of me, or something." She stared at Amber's breast pump.
"Who is it?" asked Amber.
"His name's Will, he's finishing his first year," said Lynn.
"Oh my gosh, I know Will, Dave says he's one of their best residents. A good man. Dave has told me some really good things about him," said Amber encouragingly.
"I'm a virgin and I'm afraid to sleep with him and I want to sleep with him and I don't want him to think I'm a slut or a prude," blurted out Lynn, with some sense of relief.
Amber tilted her head against Lynn's and waited to see if there was more coming, but Lynn just kept staring at the breast pump in front of them.
"I've got a couple of thoughts. From what I've heard about Will, you just need to tell him what you've told me, plus anything else you want to tell him. No matter what, I know that he will treat you with respect and work hard to find a positive solution, no matter what it ends up being," said Amber softly into Lynn's ear. "Also, when I get done pumping, I think you need to come back in here relieve your stress manually." Now Lynn was able to smile, and she gave Amber a quick squeeze and left her to pump.
Thinking again about Amber's advice while sitting next to Will, Lynn blurted out "I've been really stressed out because I'm really, really interested in you and I don't want you to think it's only because you're a doctor or money or anything like that and I'm afraid you'll get tired of me or that I'll mess something up and you'll be disgusted with me, like you'll get frustrated because I won't sleep with you, or you'll think I'm just interested in sex if I sleep with you, or I'll scare you off by convincing you I'm crazy and will just mess up your life." She willed herself not to cry, not wanting Will to feel any more manipulated by her.
After a long pause, Will asked "Lynn, can I hold you?" She cuddled next to him, feeling his heavenly arms around her, and began sobbing for the umpteenth time that day.