The beer tasted like shit, but I threw my lips on it anyway. My girlfriend Melissa's parents rented a real nice restaurant to celebrate her graduating from high school. I sat there with the rest of the kids that went to boarding school with Melissa and I. Melissa sat at a table with her family and this other kid who touched her leg. The kid wore a bandana and a pink button down. He looked like an idiot. She flirted with him, regardless of my presence. Every time I tried to talk to her she would stare at me like I was begging for change. She obviously didn't want me there.
After I had thrown back about six beers, Melissa got up to give a toast. She was incredibly drunk, and no one knew what she was saying. At one point she said something about how much of a fuck up she had been, and about how she couldn't believe she had actually graduated from high school. It was true she had been a pretty big fuck up. She never got good grades and she was always getting drunk, snorting some drug, and doing crazy things. When I had first met her she took a shit on the side of the girl's dorm at the boarding school we attended. It made the dorm smell of shit for a week. Toward the end of the toast she picked up her cousin, who was only a year old, and started screaming at its face, telling it that it was so cute, and that she would always be there for it. The yelling scared the baby, and it started to cry. Melissa finished up her toast then sat down on the idiots lap. He whispered something to her then they got up and left the restaurant. I decided to fallow them.
I went outside, and there they were. She looked so happy. The idiot said something that made her laugh. They hugged then kissed. My heart started beating hard. I ran across the street and found a pay phone. My hands shuffled through my pockets till I found my friend Tim's number. He said that he was coming into the city that night. I needed to find out where the he was. I picked up the phone and dialed his number. My neck hurt, and my hands couldn't stop shaking. My skin felt like a sweat shirt that had shrunk and no longer fit. I dialed Tim's number. It rang then Tim picked up.
"Tim, where, the fuck, are you?" I yelled.
"Bobby calm down, what's going on?" Tim said almost laughing.
"Fucking Melissa just fucking kissed this idiot, and I'm fucking freaking out. Where, the fuck, are you?"
"I'm here with Rosemary. We're on a train about a half hour form Penn station. We're about eat some shrooms." I could hear Rosemarie's voice in the back ground. They were both good friends of mine. I needed their company.
"Don't eat fucking shrooms yet. I need you guys to calm me down. Once I'm calm, then we can party. I'll meet you at Penn in front of the Mc Donald's."
It didn't take me long to find a cab. The cab brought me to Penn station for seven dollars. I got there and there was only ten minutes till Tim's train was supposed to arrive. The minutes were going by slowly. I got frustrated, and my skin started to hurt. I passed out on the floor of Penn station next to the Mc Donald's.
Tim woke me up before I got in any trouble. We went outside and lit up our cigarettes.
"Bobby, what's going on?" Rosemary asked. "Why were you sleeping on the fucking floor?"
"I think Melissa's cheating on me. I'm going to go tell her to fuck off, but I need you guys for support."
"All right then after you tell that bitch to fuck off we'll eat these mushrooms and have a good time. Where is she now?"
"They're probably at the Chelsea."
"Isn't that the hotel where Sid Viscous killed his girl friend?"
"Yup, that's the one."
"God, Melissa is so fucking cheesy."
"Let's take the subway." Tim said.
"Fuck that, my dad gave me tons of loot. Let's take a cab."
The cab brought us the hotel for ten dollars. She was in room 310. When we got there she was in the hall way trashed, talking to some girl I had never seen before. I walked up to her.
"Melissa, we have to talk."
"Excuse me for a few minutes, I need to talk to my boyfriend, he looks angry." She had a huge disgusting smile on her face. She thought she was being really charming. I hated hit when she talked about me like I was a burden.
Tim and Rosemary went with girl into the room where everyone else was partying. Melissa stayed in the hall way with me.
"What the fuck is going on? Are we still together?" I asked.
"Yes why of course we are, you're my boy friend Bobby." Melissa said, still trying to be charming with that half stupid grin on her face.
"Then why are you throwing yourself all over that idiot in the bandana?" I yelled.
"I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I want to be with you, but I also want to like do stuff, and he's really not an idiot, he goes to film school."
She no longer had a smile on her face. Instead she just looked sad, and desperate. She bit her knuckle. I grabbed her arms then my tongue in her mouth. Melissa kissed back hard.
"Why are you with me any way? I'm all fucked up. I'm just going to end up pushing you away." At this point her voice was shaky and she had tears in her eyes.
I heard some one coming up the stairs. It was my friend Sean. Sean looked at us gave us a nod then walked into the room where everyone else was. He knew not to interrupt.
"Why do you stay with me?" Melissa asked. "I'm so fucked up to you."
"What are you doing? Do you want me to break up with you? Do you want me to break up with you so you can go off and suck that idiot's dick without feeling dirty."
