The next day, taking in the sights of the city together, hand in hand, Tate asked Zoe if she got to into New York much. She shook her head. "No. My parents never wanted to bring us, worried I guess that whatever we'd see here would corrupt us. I did come on a sixth grade field trip to tour the United Nations Building back when we were studying global politics, though. But now that Becky and Robert live here, I plan to come more often."
Her parents sounded a little odd to him, trying to shield their daughters from the world outside. In theory, he could sympathize with their desire to protect their vulnerable offspring, but with Zoe's curious nature almost landing her in trouble as soon as she'd arrived with her attempt at a one night stand with a total stranger, no less, he wondered if their plan had backfired. Supressing a shiver at what might have happened to her, he was just glad he'd been there to protect her.
"So I imagine you've never been to Radio City Music Hall to see the Rockettes?"
Zoe shook her head, looking over at him. "No, why, have you?"
"Yeah. I grew up not that far away in Connecticut, so my parents always brought my brother and me for the Christmas Show. It's a real production number. They even bring camels out for the manger scene."
Her eyes went wide. "Wow, real live camels. I know as a kid I would have loved to have seen that."
"There's so much to see around that part of the city, so if you'd like, we could walk around and see St. Patrick's Cathedral, Thirty Rockefeller Center, and all the rest, before we head in for the show."
She gave his hand a little tug. "You're sure you're not getting tired of playing tour guide? You know I could probably find my own way around if you have other things you'd rather be doing."
Tate couldn't believe his ears, since there was nowhere else on earth he'd rather be than with her. And he'd been enjoying the sights even more, being able to share in her reactions. Slipping his arm around her waist and pulling her to his side, he murmured at least part of what he was feeling into her ear, "There's nowhere else I'd rather be, Zoe, than with you."
She looked up and smiled into his eyes. "I have to admit I've been enjoying my time with you, too." She winked coyly. "All of it."
Chuckling, he said, "So, what do you say, we grab an early dinner, then head over to Radio City and take in the show later?"
Stopping them on the sidewalk, Zoe touched her hand to his cheek and gave him a tender little kiss. "I'd love that, and you're a very good man, Tate Caldwell, to do this for me."
What could he say? There wasn't anything he wouldn't do for her.
Sitting with her later, enjoying the Rockettes performing their grand finale, the sound of the live orchestra filling the air, as they danced in their vibrant costumes in perfectly choreographed steps, Tate smiled over at Zoe, with her mouth gaping open, and eyes wide. Taking her hand he gave it a squeeze. "So, you're enjoying this?" he whispered.
"Oh, yes," she said, flashing a heart stopping smile. And just seeing that made it all worthwhile, because he was beginning to realize that whenever Zoe was happy, so was he.
When the show finally ended, the applause died down and the curtain fell, grateful and happy to have shared this with him, Zoe turned and cupped his face in her hands, and pressed her lips to his. "Thank you for that, Tate, it was wonderful." Smiling into his eyes she said, "And I'm sure some lucky woman is going to be very happy to find you one day."
Wow. Talk about a punch to the heart. Here, he thought he'd been creating memories to last them a lifetime, growing closer with her every moment they were together, and the whole time she'd been picturing him with someone else. Stunned, he reached for her hand, and tugged her to her feet, not really caring how curt he sounded when he said, "Come on, let's go."
Outside, walking together in silence, Zoe, pulled on his hand to stop him. "Tate, please don't be upset. We both know you're leaving, so it's only natural for me to assume you'd meet someone else."
Heaving a sigh, he just shook his head, since he already knew she was the only woman for him.
Pulling her aside to let people pass, Tate looked straight into her eyes. "Okay, you're right, I know I'm leaving, and that you've said you won't come with me. But I don't want to lose you, Zoe. I don't want this to end."
Momentarily shocked, her gaze quickly fell to the sidewalk, as she awkwardly told him, "You know part of me would love to go with you. But there's just no way I can..."
Shaking his head, he deadpanned, "Which part, top or bottom, because I've got to tell you, I've grown pretty fond of both."
She rolled her eyes. "Tate, be serious."
Stepping closer, he tipped up her face to force her to meet his eyes and said, "I
am
being serious, I really don't want to lose you, Zoe, or what we have together, it's just too good."
As far as she could tell, what they had was sex, even if it was fantastic, since he'd never told her otherwise. So heaving a breath she said, "Can't you understand? There's no way I can just leave everything to go with you. My family might be stifling at times, and the people at home a little too involved for my liking, but it's still all I've got, and all I've ever known." And besides, it wasn't like he'd promised her anything.
Tate nodded and said, "I know. And I can understand that. Why don't we just head back, it's getting late." Taking her hand, they waited for a cab at the curb. No point in trying to convince her tonight, he knew he'd just have to work on her slowly. He looked at her as they waited and squeezed her hand, finally managing a smile as he asked her, "What am I going to do with you?" But the better question was, how would he ever live without her?
Despite how their night at Radio City had ended, for their last week together Tate decided to make a concerted effort to show Zoe every sight, sound and taste of the city she could ever imagine, finding he was enjoying each new experience as much as she was. Secretly hoping to build memories she'd never forget, not just of the city, but with him as well. Getting to know each other outside of the bedroom, just as he suspected, was turning out to be good for them. Every night, by the time they got back to the apartment when they made love, the sex seemed, if possible, even better, and so much hotter with them having to wait for so many hours to enjoy each other again.
Unlocking the door for them to get inside the apartment, desperate for him, Zoe flew into his arms the moment they'd cleared the doorway. Pressing her body desperately to his, Tate eagerly devoured her mouth, starved for the taste of her. Her legs finding their way around his waist, he staggered to the bed, dropping them onto it, with their usual heated race to strip each other bare.
But before he even thought about making love to her, he lifted his head, pinned her with his gaze and murmured, "Just promise me one thing. Don't completely give up on the idea of coming to Australia with me, Zoe. The longer we're together, the harder it's going to be for me to leave you behind, and I'm hoping you feel the same way about me."
His heart dropping in his chest like a rock, Tate watched her close her eyes, turn her head away, and say quietly, "I'm sorry, Tate, but I just can't."