Before shutting down my computer for the day, I open the email and read it one last time. A thrill races through me as I think of the evening ahead. āJaimee,ā I whisper, his name lingering on my lips. I am to meet him, finally, after months of chatting and trading emails; some are nothing more than delightful conversations of likes and dislikes, hobbies, etc. Other times, they are deep, reflective chats, allowing the trust to build, the friendship to flourish. Although the topic at times revolves around sex, we never take it to the level of online eroticy... yet I cannot deny the underlying current of sexual awareness that passes between us each time we talk. How can you feel such things about someone you've never met? About someone with whom you have never shared such intimacy? I can't explain how... I can only tell you it is very much a possibility.
His email asks me to meet him after work, at the Park 75 Lounge and Terrace of the Four Seasons Hotel for cocktails, after which we will decide on dinner. There is no need to go home before meeting him... my office houses a private restroom, a wonderful concept on days like this one. I lock my office door to the outside world at 5:00 and turn on the answering service, wanting no interruptions as I prepare for what will be turn out to be the most exciting, unbelievable experience I could have hoped for. With 45 minutes to spare, I hurry to the other room.
Removing my clothes, I open the closet to extract the necessary items I will need. I open the fragrant vanilla cream I so love to use, inhaling the scent deeply before applying it to my bare skin. As always happens, I feel the burning ache begin low in my belly as the scent winds its way into my senses. As I re-apply my makeup, I wonder if he will be taken by what he sees. Brushing my long, wavy hair, I can't help but imagine the feel of his hands sifting through it. Sliding carefully into my dress of deep red, I imagine his hand on my back, left bare by the wonderful imagination of the dress designer. Once dressed, I apply Tuscany to my pulse points, and to a few hidden areas... just in case. Combined with the vanilla, I am incredibly tempted to indulge in a bout self-pleasure... but the upcoming meeting takes priority. Minimal jewelry is needed - simple earrings, a bracelet, and a couple of rings. My nails were perfected the night before, the color matching my dress. Slipping into the red color-matched, strappy sandals, I shiver in anticipation of the evening ahead, intuition telling me that it will be extraordinary.
One last look in the chival mirror in the corner of my office, and I am ready to go. Excitement and a tiny amount of trepidation fill me as I turn off the lights and lock the door behind me. Although we both live near Atlanta, and work within blocks of each other, Jaimee and I decided long ago not to rush into a meeting. We agreed that, until it felt right, it wasn't to be done. Tonight feels right.
I enter the Four Seasons, making my way to the Lounge with even steps... not hurried, but clearly not wanting to wait another minute. I enter, and immediately feel that he isn't there yet. I look around the room, but every male I see is not alone. That is fine with me, as it allows me another few minutes to collect my thoughts and school my nervousness. Deciding to order a drink while I wait, I make my way to the bar, slipping onto a stool and requesting a glass of Zinfandel. I sip it slowly, watching people enter and leave. The bartender returns, and as I am about to tell him I'm fine with what I have, he sets an unopened bottle of the same wine on the counter. He slides an envelope towards me, and says he was requested to give it to me, in addition to the wine. Intrigued, I slide a nail under the flap of the envelope and extract the note inside. My heart begins to race, my nerves begin to thrum as I read the words neatly printed on cream-colored paper. "Savannah⦠bring the wine upstairs to the Presidential Suite, 19th floor. The key is enclosed, but do not turn on the light when you enter. I will help you find your way."
Standing outside the door to the suite, I take several deep breaths before inserting the key. As the door opens, I step into a small foyer, and see that it turns to the right, not allowing me to see any further into the suite. The door closes behind me with a soft click, causing my nerves to jump wildly. The thrill of adventure has far overpowered the fear of the unknown. I know instinctively that this is to be a night to remember; I know he will not harm me. āJaimee?ā I call out softly.
A hand touches my face in a light caress, startling me. āSavannahā¦ā The surprise quickly fades, replaced with warmth as a voice whispers, "Don't be afraid... I have waited and wanted to meet you for so long. I will not harm you, only pleasure you. Take my arm, please." As I curl my fingers around his arm, I notice it how soft his skin is, and though his arm is firm, he doesn't appear to be muscular. Though I have never seen even a picture of him, I am not concerned about this. I am drawn to his spirit, his soul. This is what I wish to know of him, to explore with him.
I allow him to lead me to another room, and he does so with ease. We are in the living quarters, he tells me, as he seats me on a sofa. He kneels before me, sliding my sandals off, caressing each foot as he bares it. He rises, and I feel him sit beside me, not touching. I open my lips to speak, and suddenly his lips are on mine, softly seeking. He tentatively brushes his tongue over my lower lip, and I am lost. I want to touch him, to study his face with my fingertips, to memorize him.
As if sensing my thoughts, my needs, Jaimee draws back. A moment passes before he whispers once again, "I have waited for this moment. Savannah⦠you are so very important to me, and I want to share myself with you. But first... I need to know that you will accept me no matter what you discover." Overcome with tenderness for this man I am meeting for the first time, yet know almost as well as I know myself, I agree. I feel him stand, taking my wrist in his hand and pulling me up with him. Stepping closer, yet not close enough for his body to brush mine, Jaimee cups my face in his hands, lowering his lips to mine... brushing lightly, sipping gently, before parting mine with his tongue, so soft, so wet. My heart is racing out of control, my breathing uneven, desire flowing in rivers throughout my body. How can a simple kiss do this? I wonder. It is at this time I realize he is not much taller than I am, perhaps a couple of inches taller. Again, I am okay with this discovery.
Jaimee deepens the kiss, and I am lost once more. He takes my wrists, placing my hands on his hips. I am surprised at the slimness of his body, but not in the least turned off. It is his mind that draws me, his spirit that excites me, his soul that captivates me. I am fiercely attracted to him in ways I didn't know were possible.
I feel him tremble as I make my way up his toned body. I tremble as well, from mounting desire, wanting his hands to caress my heated flesh, needing him to tame the fires burning deep inside. As I continue my trek upwards, my hands curve inward on a waistline unlike any I've ever encountered on a man, and my breath lodges in my throat, my hands still. Realization hits me hard, and I am unable to speak, to utter a sound. The kiss stops; there is no sound in the room. I find my voice, whispering softly, "Jaimee?"
"Yes...,ā comes the whispered reply.
Of their own volition, my fingers stretch higher, reaching, seeking... at last, finding. Desire, trepidation, excitement, and overwhelming lust fill me as my hands curve over the full, luscious breasts of the woman standing before me.
I should be angry, but I canāt bring myself to confront her. It isnāt about being a woman or being a man⦠it isnāt about discovering that I was led to believe one thing, only to find it isnāt what I expected. It is all about the woman in front of me, the woman who, through emails and chats, has become the person I feel closest to in my life. She is the woman who knows my strengths, my weaknesses⦠who knows my dreams, my goals, my fears, and yes, my desires; the woman with whom I can share anything, and not feel at all judged or inferior. No, Jaimee never told me she wasnāt a man, but she never told me she was, either⦠and as I stand before her, I want nothing more than to take her into my arms and love her as she has never been loved before.
Releasing her breasts, my fingers trail to her throat, dancing lightly over her skin as I cup her face between my palms. Stepping forward, at once bringing my lips to hers, the tips of my aching breasts brushing hers. Lightly, I trace her lower lip with my tongue, tasting such sweetness as I have never known before. Her lips part on low moan, inviting me inside for a more thorough tasting. My tongue dips inside, flickering lightly the tip of her tongue, and I smile against her lips when she nips my tongue with her teeth. The smile quickly fades on a moan of pleasure as she expertly draws me deeper into her mouth, sucking forcefully on my tongue with her full lips. One hand slides behind her head, finding her hair is swept back neatly⦠but this wonāt do. No, I need to feel her hair in my hands, winding around my fingers, sliding against my skin.
I release the clip holding her silken tresses, letting it fall as she continues her gentle, but erotic, assault on my mouth. The scent of her hair immediately fills my senses, and I pull my lips from hers to bury my face in the mass of silk, inhaling deeply. This only serves to fuel the fire raging deep within, and she takes advantage of this to slide her own hand into my hair, winding it gently, but firmly, around her fingers. Tugging my head back, exposing my neck, her head lowers to me, her lips upon my throat, tongue trailing softly over my skin⦠her lips finding my pulse, tongue flickering, gently sucking. My knees begin to buckle; we slide to the plush carpeting in a tangle of limbs.
Holding her head with one hand, I capture her lips once again, this time not as patient as before. Thrusting my tongue into her mouth, dueling with hers, I lower my other hand to unbutton her blouse. As I release the first one, my lips trail down her chin, over her throat to the bare flesh beyond. She is murmuring words of encouragement, letting me know she very much likes the way I touch her, and this knowledge heightens my desire to bring her pleasure again and again. Cupping her breasts outside her blouse, I lift them, pressing them together, my thumbs slowly circling her nipples, flicking, and lower my head. Hovering for a moment, I imagine the sight of her full breasts in my hands, her exposed flesh mounding above her bra, and lower my head further, my nose at her cleavage, inhaling her scent deeply. Her fragrance, very much like mine, yet still so much her own, intoxicates me, and I have to have her⦠soon.
Fighting the urge to quickly remove all clothing and make love to her sweet body with my hands and mouth, to taste her as she flows, to make her come again and again and again, I place kisses along the tops of her creamy white breasts, listening as her breathing becomes shallow and her moans of pleasure roll over me. I allow my tongue to slide down between her breasts, licking a path, flickering quickly, yet my warm mouth is no match for her hot skin. Lifting my head a bit, I blow a cool stream of air between her breasts, a smile on my face as her back arches, pressing her breasts deeper into my hands, her nipples so tight and hard against my palms. Jaimee moans again, pressing her hips to mine, and I thrust against her slowly as her hands slide down my back. I shiver, arching into her when her hands reach my ass, cupping it in both hands, squeezing gently, her fingertips pressing for an instant into my cleft. So quick is the touch that I donāt register it until itās gone.
The lights are still out, and though I want to see Jaimee, to look into her eyes, there is a delicious thrill in knowing I am slithering along the flesh someone I have never laid eyes on. Suddenly, she rolls us, pulling me beneath her. I laugh softly into her ear, pleased to have found someone who enjoys being pliant one second, and taking charge the next, just as I do. Her lips find my neck, alternately licking and sucking, biting gently. I feel her lips curve into a smile as I gasp, the laughter quickly becoming a moan of desire, a whimper of need.