I drew a card from the black pile and flipped it over. We silently read
Dare
. I could feel her gaze burning into me as I drew a card from the white pile.
Embarrassing.
"This should be fun," Brooke said. She looked at the ceiling as she considered what kind of embarrassing dare she'd give me.
The two of us sat on the carpet, her leaning against a chair, me against her couch. A soft, warm lamp was the only light, not counting a few candles burning. Her living room smelled of coconut and vanilla.
"Take my socks off," she said.
"That doesn't sound too embarrassing," I said as she interjected, "-with your teeth."
"Are you serious?" I asked.
She nodded with a laugh. "Do we need to go over the rules again?"
I leaned forward, got on my hands and knees, and grabbed her sock with my teeth. It didn't stink, but the cottony dryness wasn't appetizing. I pulled each sock off in turn.
Whatever my expression was when I finished, she laughed at it. I laughed with her, but it felt a bit forced. I was beyond anxious, though I tried my best to hide it. I needed to know if we had a chance together, or if I was already in the friend zone. And maybe had been for a while.
Brooke drew a black card and laid it on the carpeting between us.
Drink.
"Well, that's an easy one," she said. She reached for the tequila bottle, poured herself a half-shot, then knocked it back.
"You're getting off too easy, if you ask me," I said.
"Good thing I didn't ask you." She stuck her tongue out at me.
I had a plan to reveal whether or not I was in the friendzone: a plan that would come across as initiating only if she had romantic thoughts toward me. I was pretty proud of it. But it required her to draw two specific pairs of cards in the right order.
I drew a black card.
Truth.
I followed it up with a white card.
Harmless.
"Interesting..." she said. After a pause, she asked, "What's your secret talent?"
I thought for a moment, then said, "I'm a pretty good writer."
"Hmm. I don't think I've ever read something you've written. Beyond texts."
"And my texts weren't enough to make you swoon?"
"Hey now. Who said I wasn't swooning," she teased with the subtlest of winks. "But seriously, what kind of things do you write?"
"I've recently been writing erotica," I said, as a gentle way to work sexuality into our evening. "Makes me feel creative, productive, and just a little bit kinky."
"Really," she said with genuine surprise. "I would never have guessed. Do you share it with anyone?"
"I share my stories on Literotica. It's just for fun."
"You should link me."
"I may be brave enough to publish for the world to see, but I'm definitely not brave enough to share with anyone I know."
"Please?"
"Your turn," I suggested.
She drew a black card, then a white one.
Truth, Embarrassing.
I looked around her dimly lit living room for inspiration, then saw her empty shot glass. "What kind of drunk are you?"
"Definitely a horny drunk," she said with some embarrassment. Then she added quickly, "Your turn."
"
Really...
" I said studiously, eyes wide with pretend shock.
"
Your turn
," she said, a little more insistent than before.
My black card read
Drink;
no need to draw a white one. I poured myself a half-shot and sipped at it. She watched with interest.
"What about you? Are you also a horny drunk?" she asked, raising an eyebrow.
"That's not how this game works," I chastised.
She drew
Truth
, then
Sexual.
This was getting interesting.
I asked, "Have you ever been caught having sex?"
"My college roommate once walked in on me giving oral. I was super embarrassed. She probably was too, because she never again entered our bedroom without knocking first."
"Wow," I laughed. "Was the recipient a boyfriend at the time?"
"Who said it was a he?" she said with a mischievous smile.
"Well,
was it?
"
"That's not how this game works," she said in a sing-song tone, playfully throwing my earlier words back at me.
"Fair enough," I said and drew
Drink
again. I downed another half shot. I set the glass down on the tray a little harder than I intended.
She also drew
Drink.
I watched her bring the shot glass to her lips, sip it, then set it back on the tray beside us on the carpet.
I picked up a black card.
Truth
. Then a white card.
Embarrassing.
She looked thoughtful, then asked, "What ended your last relationship?"
"Wow. It's a bit messy," I said. "You're sure the answer is worth your turn?"
"I'm sure."
I took a few moments to sort my thoughts, then said "My ex was a pretty open book with her mom, her sister, and a couple of her cousins. Not just about her, but her frustrations with me, our sex life, our arguments. After I found out, I felt judged every time I was around them, picking up on passive-aggressive cues that may or may not have been real. It led to a few shouting matches between me and my ex. She said that she never cast me in an unfair light; that she was sharing with the people closest to her the truth of her life and that I had to trust that they'd accept me for who I am. But she also said I had shouted too much and trusted too little. A couple of days later she called it off."
My face burned. I felt judged for my mistakes, that my ex broke up with me and not the other way around, and how Brooke might be reacting to this. I didn't know if that was being too honest or vulnerable for a flirty game. But I was certainly truthful.
She digested my story for a long moment, then drew a card.
Dare
, followed by
Harmless.
"Sing me the chorus of a song, any song," I said. My head felt like a blur each time I turned my neck.
She poured herself an extra shot for courage, then squeaked out in a soft, high voice, "I kissed a girl and I liked it, The taste of her cherry chapstick."
I laughed, but she continued, "I kissed a girl just to try it, I hope my boyfriend don't mind it." I laughed harder.
Her soft voice squeaked on the high notes. "It felt so wrong, it felt so right, Don't mean I'm in love tonight. I kissed a girl and I-" She couldn't hold back from laughing any longer. Her laughter was contagious.
I wondered:
Was her choice of song a message? That she liked being flirty and trying new things? Or that she's not very interested in men?
I drew cards for my turn.
Truth, Sexual.
"Hmm..." she said with a playful smile. She paused to think. Eventually, she simply said, "Describe your type."
I didn't have the courage to be honest, so I covered with humor. "Oh, easy. I'm really into people with hair, several eyes, enough skin to go all the way around. And having an internal skeleton - vertebrates are a big turn-on for me."
She didn't laugh. Rather, with a look of mock concern, Brooke asked, "What did you say happens when a player breaks the rules? Something terrifically embarrassing, I'm sure?"
"In that case..." I started again, "I like arctic eyes, cute feet, ashy blonde hair. And a bit on the busty side, if I'm being fully honest," I said, looking into the blue-gray eyes of a rather busty woman with an ash-gray balayage, a great smile, and perfect feet. She held my gaze a beat longer than I was comfortable with. I felt nervous, emboldened, clever, and like an idiot all at once.
"Good to know," she said, I think with a wink, but I wasn't sure.
She drew
Drink
and poured herself a drink. A little tequila spilled on the tray. She wasn't quite as coordinated as she had been earlier.
I drew
Dare, Clothing.